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A7

Woke up early this morning. Need to note the timing. 

Today it's 27 February Tuesday. 

Woke up early this morning feeling good. Great. 

 

 

 

 

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Didn't have any time to write yesterday. Was busy selecting a gift for a friend of mine. Took an entire day just to finally choose something worthwhile. 

Whooooosh!! 

Today it's 1 March and this year has started on  a good note. Damn. My English is so bad. 


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Busy creating a greeting card right now for a friend's birthday. 

So I finished creating the greeting card lol. 

Took two hours to make it. 

I'm feeling hungry and I need to eat something and watch YouTube. 

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I'm not a misery monger. Lol whatever that's supposed to mean now. 

There is stuff I wanted to discuss with my friend about psychology. Some psychological questions and concepts that intrigued me. 

One thing I want is psychological maturity. 

And one way of having it is spatial awareness. High spatial awareness.. 

Concepts to discuss 

1 psychological maturity 

2 spatial awareness 

* Observation based learning 

* Real Application of Education 

 

 

 

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My life has been shitty so far. Lovelessnesss has always been a huge deal for me. Being raised in a dysfunctional environment hasn't helped either. But I'm finally trying to pull myself up by my bootstraps. 

I hope things won't get any worse. 

I need to make a list of my personal problems and things that need to be worked on before it's too late. 

 


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We don't lose the world. The world loses us. Wish there was a world that appreciated good people for being good. And not just punish bad ones for being bad. 

 


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It's March 2, 2018

Ahm...whats next on the list. 

I just need some time off and a peaceful corner. I mean some quiet. Guess I will message after every 2 days and keep  a gap of 5 days after every fuck up that happens to kinda recover from the stress of it all. It's not easy and it's taking a toll on my health. 

It's getting toxic for me and not good for my health because I need to be more stress free. It's getting trapped. I might feel like I'm stranded eventually if I don't put on the brakes. 

So what I have decided is to keep gaps and take time off in between to keep it smooth and less bumpy and dysfunctional. And minimize the damage it does to me. And learn to take better care of myself. 

BTW I even need to lose some weight this month. Or at least in the months following. 


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When the spiritual side of things does not align or blend with the material side or physical side. 


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My Engagement 

* Facebook groups and Math

* YouTube 

* Internet Browsing 

* Use or Application of Education

* Reading Books

* Messenger App

* Facebook groups for Tasks

* Paper Tasks lists 

* Psychology Babble

* Self Actualization Journals 

* Personal Growth

CL= clicker points

TL= Task lists or tasks completed. 


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Every engagement should be a healthy one. 


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At a time when I really needed a break from everything and a quiet peaceful corner of my own, this website has come as a welcome relief. The timing couldn't have been more perfect. I really needed this in the new form. Always wanted and needed a healthy escape or distraction from stuff and toxic socialisation and found it finally. It's Great now. Finally I can just move on and be done with all the toxic things in the past. Feels awesome now. No more begging for help or trying to please anyone or waiting for crappy people to give attention or respond. Just me and my busyness. It feels great. I can't believe it. Finally whatever I wanted is going to happen and nobody can really stop me from being myself at last. 


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I have fixed up everything I need to start everything peacefully and make it smooth from here. It was tough before just too much randomness and stress. There was no schedule or way to do things. Everything was so messed up. Now it's beautiful when it's all coming together and blending in. Some flow or stability at last. I can continue with this and be happy. I wish more young people out there could realize the importance of just living  a casual life in a stable social happy relationship and how it promotes well being and growth and motivates you to keep everything stable and smooth. At least experience the stability for just a few months just to know what normal feels like. It's right here. Your daily life has to have a flow and a rhythm. Ditch the world. It doesn't have to be so stressful and messy. I was so caught up before and now I can see things so clearly and just realize how much I missed normalcy. People just don't know what normalcy really is. At least I never knew. I just had a tremendous amount of dysfunction and stress to even be able to think  straight. And now I finally what normal actually feels like and it's awesome. It's all I ever wanted. And now I finally sorta have it. Not fully though. But even if it's just a little, it means a lot to me. I never knew how I needed to feel normal or how normal was supposed to be. People like me are just so unlucky. They have lived such a chaotic life for so many years together that they don't even know what it means to be living a stable life free from chaos and dysfunction. It's like you have always had the disease and your body was trapped for so many years in that disease and now you have been finally set free and it feels normal for the first time and you don't wanna ever lose it again. I needed intense therapy to be out of the situation I was put through and it was all for nothing. Just a life wasted for nothing. But I'm claiming it back from the dead. I'm back from the dead. I can now breathe and feel free to fly. It has taken so long just to feel normal. But anyway, better late than never. People like me out there are just so unaware (carrying on in their own dysfunctional reality as though it's fine and okay or that's how life is supposed to be) and they are completely oblivious that life can even be different and it doesn't always have to be this way, their frame of mind just can't grasp how awful their situation really is and how different being normal feels. Just entirely different. It's like living in two worlds. How could it be their fault, they just didn't know any better than what they had. Now I want to just hang to this and carry on the way I want and not slip back into the chaos that I crawled out of. I feel an unusual calm coming over  me. This has to be unreal. 


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I think my biggest problem in life is that I believe people too much and I'm fiercely loyal and that never gets reciprocated. Everyone just turns their backs on me


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There's nothing to celebrate and there's nothing to hope for. We're all on a sinking ship. Life is a bitch like a wife who can never appreciate anything good. All we have is this moment to relish and that is the only relief. The outcome is never going to be the best it's not going to be the worst either. Everything is just a summation of dysfunction. There's no intelligent design because all will turn to crap at last. The world is a shit hole, humanity is a shit hole, and life is mysterious adventure of romance and disaster.   In the end what is left is only a consolation but eventually its only destruction and chaos. What we have is only each other to pull up ourselves through. Heaven is not in this world. Heaven is in our hearts. Beauty shines and it can't be destroyed. The worst that can happen is death but it brings no good. It's only the calm we have after the storm. The only good is the good in the  bad. Once that was good is now barren and dry. Once that was warm is now cold. We can be brothers in arms and struggle till it lasts. And be done with the hopeless world and  say goodbye. We are the winners because we did good. Life is unfair and it will always be, it's all a confusing paradox. But we can be a light in a dark world. Our struggles will never be in vain at least in our hearts. Our voices will never be heard. But it doesn't matter anyway, heaven is with God and not on earth. Love is a losing game here and life is a battle lost. Work hard, hope for the best, do good and be loving and happy while it lasts. 


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 I'm just so fed up now. I have totally given up on life. It's all over. I'm done. 

I'm so done with everything. 

Last few days were just miserable. I had been lying awake all night crying so bad that my eyes are swollen. It is just awful. I have been feeling terrible. I knew something was up.... It happened. I broke of. 

I'm so tired. I have  been going through a lot and I don't deserve it at all. I deserve better than this and much better than this. 

I relied a lot on the whole thing called soulmate. I guess it's time to let go of that and focus totally on myself. I guess it was all in my head. 

 


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@egoeimai Thank you. I will try to focus more on myself from now on. Just knowing that you care helps a lot. Thank you. Cheers. 


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As usual people who deserve the least get the most. 


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A 24

 

https://ic.steadyhealth.com/vitamin-c-and-your-adrenal-glands

 

Vitamin C And Your Adrenal Glands 

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The adrenals – overview

Adrenal glands are known to abound in ascorbic acid (i.e. in vitamin C). Given the fact that the greatest majority of people is already familiar with the fact that the vitamin in question is essential when it comes to battling off numerous infections, a final conclusion that becomes more than apparent is that it also provides significant aid when it comes to the process of adrenal glands stimulation, necessary for the increase in production of a hormone known as cortin, which is essential in elimination of numerous diseases. Since the primary function of adrenal glands is the production of adrenaline, especially in those moments of potential physical danger, as well as oncoming emotional crisis and recurring mental and emotional tension, all these are known to have an ill effect on the glands in question. This ill effect is mirrored by putting too strong a pressure on the glands in question, which results in them becoming too work-famished – sometimes to such an extent that nerves, together with the vital organs, are incessantly in the fever-pitch mode. This is known to be a direct consequence of too large a number of false ‘emergency’ notifications that are received from the brain. As a direct result of this, the action of sending of the mighty adrenaline straight to the blood is initiated, even at those times when it is not required and necessary.

This has also led many doctors to believe that arteriosclerosis, as well as coronary thrombosis, cerebral hemorrhage and alike ailments can occur due to the quite regular overstimulation of the glands in question by stressful life tempo and regular, both emotional and mental strain.

When it comes to the present time, and in the age in which the greatest number of ‘emergencies’ is primarily emotional and mental in nature, the regular overproduction and over-injection of adrenaline into one’s bloodstream can, as it quite often does, induce fearful and concerning beating of the heart and the blood vessels. Hence, due to the fact that adrenaline is incessantly being ‘injected’ into one’s blood, in those moments of stress and tension, cortin becomes an essential and key controller of the body in terms of slowing it down and aiding it return back to normal and unharmful operating rate.

If we are aware of this, as well as of the fact that the adrenal glands need vitamin C in order to be able to produce this key hormone (i.e. cortin) in most proper and beneficial amounts, it is not at all that difficult to see how regular intake of the vitamin in question can aid the entire process and keep us safer from harm induced by overflow of adrenaline. 

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God is love

Whoever lives in love lives in God

And God in them

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