There’s something I did. Some people find it extreme but I don’t think so. I’m sharing my method so maybe you can make comments on it. Maybe I did it wrong. 
  There was a time when I was on ketamine all I could feel was love. I used this moment as an opportunity to explore the depths of my consciousness and accept my deepest horrifying fears. I laid down and a vision came to me. In that vision I saw thousands of corpses watching me as I’m having sex with the corpse of my father. I know it sounds disgusting. The reason I saw this vision is because I find it disgusting too. It was a moment of facing with my suppressed side and letting it express myself so it won’t bother me. I’m sorry if you find this upsetting. I don’t have a fantasy to do it with my father. I just had to face with the limits of my consciousness.