Te Journal

[Optimized Life]

03.12.25 

Immediate Goals 

1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 

2. Subtropical Logistics 

3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

Target End of today 

No sugar day - 3

No Fap - Day 2 

Money - $300 Net Profit 

Gym - Incline BP, Treadmill, Skull crushers, Incline Pushups (Bench 30-45C = 2 Adjustment points above flat bench)

Getting ripped - Try to estimate calories and stay around 2 - 2.3K  

200 - 230G protein, 4 -5 meals at 40-50G  

Sunlight/UV - 20 - 40 minutes walk in park, shirtless & shorts 

OFFICIALLY WRITING MY INMEDIATE (NON NEGOTIABLE) 3 GOALS EVERY SINGLE DAY, I WILL NOT LOSE SIGHT OF MY GOALS, TUNNEL VISION WARRIOR. 

 

Edited Wednesday at 12:01 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

03.12.25

1. No sugar day 3  >> 1* Boost bar, 25 Grams added sugar, 249 Calories
2. No fap day 2 
3. Gym 1 - Did triceps 
4. 200-220G protein 
5. Diet - Stomach reaction to protien powder and supermarket milk - Stick to only Chicken for protein source 
6. Sleep - Too much caffiene too late > 3*(2*heapedTSp) of instant coffee, approx 300-350MG caffiene, drunk between 10AM - 2PM 
7. Drank 330ml beer to wind down and sleep at night (that alone is easy 5% REM sleep reduction )
8. Wakeup - 10-11AM

^ New Caffiene & Sleep targets : 

• Max 200-250MG per day 
• No Caffiene after 12AM 

^ These rules must be sacred, it it horrible being awake at 12-2AM doing aboslutely nothing, wishing i was asleep, complete wasted of life 

New Targets : 

1. Asleep by 12AM

2. Wakeup by  7.30AM

3. Max 200-250MG caffifene

4. No Caffiene after 12AM 

5. Restricted diet/heal stomach > Chicken (or beef/fish) protien source .. some eggs okay, but NO Protien powder, protien bars or Milk 

Edited Thursday at 10:49 AM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

04.12.25

• Snoozed 9-10AM, started day 10-11AM
• Had strong macchiato at 11.20AM 
• Had 1* Heaped TSP of instant coffee at 12AM-12.20AM
• Total Caffeine > 220 - 260MG by 12.20AM
• I have a better chance of being sleepy by 12AM today, this is better 
• NO More caffeine today

GOALS TODAY REMINDER : 

1. NO more caffeine today - (No diet cola, no dark chocolate, zero)
2. NO Gut irritants today > No protien bars, no protien powder, no milk, no junk food, no chocolate.
3. ^ ONLY Chicken, vegetables, banana, rice. 
4. 200 Grams of protein from clean sources
5. Regular hydration sips
6. Floss 2* Today
7. Hit Gym & Follow Notes plan, continue chest neuro activation stretchers 
8. Keep gym to 40-60 Minutes max today
9. Cold Approach 1-3 women 
10. No Fap day 3 > NO Edging today or fantasy loops too
11. 4+ Hours of deep work on most essential tasks 
12. Make $200 + 
13. List all items to sell online

Immediate Goals 

1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 

2. Subtropical Logistics 

3. 7.5H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

Reminder to myself about Te 

Do not need to be superhero overnight, do not need to changed everything overnight

Merely need the daily tracking, awareness, metrics, and reinforcement of goals, visual, numerical, reflective, clarity. 

Task lists, highest prioritees, key goals written and reread multiple times per day, everything numerically tracked, no stones left unturned. 

Not jsut diet caffiene & sugar, but also, hours of productive work (and any hours lost in distraction & durping), needs to be tracked daily, input goals/input tracking. 

I didn't make this journal for sympathy or comfort, its to become a beast and get real awesome tangible, rare, life changning results & achieve the exact life i'm demanding. 

Edited Thursday at 12:30 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

04.12.25 Update 

• More Controlled caffiene day
• No added sugar relapse 
• No fap day 3 
• Made some money ... 
• Everything was going well .. Then i fell for a trap 
• I wanted to get good quality meat, but then started stressing about money 
• I knew i needed to keep working so I gave in and had 100G of protien powder, thinking I could just "power through it" with work ethic 
• 1 hour later I now have severe brain fog and stomach discomfort, I feel literally disoriented and sick. 
• I fucked up. 

I now have to recalibrate my no.1 priority, above everything else, above no fap, above gym

And its eating a clean specific restrictive diet, with no margin for negotiation. 

I cannot deal with this again 

I have to be very organized and not cheap with my weekly protein. 

I have to have $100 to spend on protein ready minimum every weekend and have it all prepped so 200G per day is effortless and ready for me

I will not make the same mistake again

Edited Thursday at 06:15 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

04.12.25 Result = FAIL 

• Woke up 9AM - Snoozed until 10AM, did not get energised until 11AM
• No Fap day 3 
• Floss day 1 
• Protein - 200G complete 
• Sugar Free day X > 44Grams
• Gym - 0 > just 2 walks 
• Net profit after expenses... $20-$30 
• Clean Diet day FAILED - 100G Protein powder caused reaction, fog, irritability, and sickness 
• To cope after my walk i somehow managed to buy and eat 2 chocolate bars, totaling 44 Grams of sugar and about 400 added calories 
• ^ I need to introspect these moments - I remember walking and almost feeling good, about to make the correct decision to let it go, then i just somehow slipped .. but the thing with walking when its cold especially is that it takes a solid 10-15 minutes to warm into it, at that point u dont even need or want the chocolate, better to bring headphones/music for a dopamine altnerative too. 
• Everything is connected, i wouldnt have relapsed if i didnt have the proiten powder, i would have had the powder if i had been less cheap and had more weekly Te (Isourcing & storing large amounts of chicken on weekends, 1,400 Grams approx protien equivalent)

How do I want my day to look? 

• 7-8H Sleep
• Wake up by 7.30AM - No Snooze
• Immediate cold shower + power walk/jogging
• $150-$300 profit 
• Zero grams of added sugar 
• Protein only from pre ready chicken 
• Max 200MG caffeine done by 11AM
• All Priority tasks completed 
• No stress or regrets by evening

I know a large amount of people even in the self improvement community would respond to my catastaphrising like "whats wrong with a bit of sugar, 40 grams of sugar, you're not gonna suddenly die bro"

Yes .. u can "get away with it" because you wont die, maybe you'll live to 80, you might not even get fat on 30-70 grams per day ..

But the problem is PSYCHOLGOICAL 

When i simply give in and eat a chocoalte, whether its, 1, 2 3, 25 grams, 40 grams, 60 grams of sugar 

it just simply does somethign to me, it liek gives me loser energy, ive ALWAYS Had this, i do not know why

I dont mean because i feel guilty, i mean even when i justify it sutbly like, i just feel this loser energy, its just like bad karma, I cant do it. 

To me, eating the chocoalte ALWAYS = gambling everything u own and being obese and buying hookers 5 years later, ALWAYS in the quantum realm, moderation (for my personality type) DOESNT EXIST. ITS A SCAM. It also transfers, when u eat the chocolate, it jsut fucking transfers to everythng else, guys who manage to be obese and get rich? They're anomalies, extremely weird af, most rich guys are jacked, 10-13% bodyfat, do not eat the chocoalte, and its obvious why, its not about ebing anti pleasure, i am pro sex for example lol, fuck 3-5 times per day its healthy af, but no chocolate. LIsten to music as much as u want, fuck every bitch u can, but no fuckign chocoalte. 

Edited Thursday at 09:36 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

I just thought of something

1. Yes "moderation" with very bad things (sugar) is a scam

BUT 

2. U do need morale boosters and cant just be on edge all the time 

So what do u do ? 

u find a predictive ritualistic timed "cheat" that satisfies and satiates you physically and mentally and keeps you going with your dsicpline

Whats the best answer : PIZZA 

Yes pizza

Leo is such a moron "The beer and the pizza, normies eat beer and pizza say no to the beer and pizza"

Then "sugar isn't that BAD .. drink fruit juice"
1. ALcohol (literally poisio) cannot be categorically conflated with pizza, its not the same at all, pizza is NOT posion 

2. Fruit juice and sugar IS BAD, its garbage, its 100* worse than pizza, its addictive, it crashes you, it causes all sorts of problems to sleep ect. 

3. What the fuck actually is a pizza? > its a thin slice of bread (often sourdough) with vegetables, maybe some chicken, "OOH NOO" lol, AND it tastes incredible, u can go get it with your friends, it can be the thing u look forward to on the weekend food wise which is the EXAXT thing that keeps u disciplined mon - friday and losing bf getting ripped, avoiding sugar, which sugar btw it always just becomes a cheap daily habit, pizza is ritualistic, u can easily keep it ot the weekends. 

So yeah leo is fucking stupid about health and diet, pizza is 100* better than fruit juice or sugar, especially becuase it isn't really daily habit forming and \z

Yes im creating this structure to help me say no to daily relapses and guilt loops and yellow teeth ect..

1. Mon to friday = gym warrior work my ass off cold approach week, 200G protein, slight calorie defecit, walking, build myself up 

2. Weekend = Still warrior mode but, I get to EAT A TASTY PIZZA 

3. I will know the exact calories of the pizza and it will be Te sheets scheduled into my ggl sheets, I will be eating pizza at weekends and still hitting 11% body fat, i will also compensate by burning more calories on weekends and doing more power walks, which synergises with cold approach anwyay. 

I want this journal to look entirely different, even in just 30 days from now, I want my metrics to blow up, but until they do, i'll keep sharing how If I fail .. NO GUILT, but frustration only as jet fuel. 

Edited Thursday at 10:02 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 

2. Subtropical Logistics, perfect climate year round 

3. 7.5H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

4. Fucking Exotic 7+ women daily rotations 

5. Infinite Creativity, Infinite power, Infinite Success

6. 11% BF, 180+ Pounds maxed out physique, fully tanned, year round 

7. Buy a house in perfect logistics 

I only know pain i only know struggle life is hell life is war god dont douse my fire god dont make me week god dont let me slow dwon god I cant let you down god ill make u proud god I was born to be the greatest so tragic how many times I fumbled god I know I'm different god i know i got it all god i know im the one. 

God dont let me slow god dont let me dim the lights dont let me play small god dont let me hide god dont let me numb myself ever again god I wont run away god i wont slow down god im coming for the crown

 

 

 

Edited Friday at 12:09 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

05.12.25 

• Slept last night 2.20AM 
• 7-8H Sleep 
• Slept 4.5 - 5 Hours
• Woke up 7AM
• Snoozed 10 minutes
• long morning sunlight walk + 4KG rucksack, burnt 300-400 Calories
• No Fap Day 4 
• Floss Day 2 
• Gym 1 > Burnt 330 calories on treadmill, Chest, upper chest, delts (rare, lateral & front), Triceps (Tricep rope pull down + triceps extension machine)
• Net Profit $$ : Negative
• Cold approach 0 
• No Sugar day : X
• Sugar 50-60G : 1*Twix Extra + 1*Lindor small + approx. 8G (added sugar from 75% dark choc)

Gut had calmed down but made second mistake : Had 2 bars of 75% dark chocolate 

Now this no way near as bad as protein powder for me but I still feel maybe 20% worse instantly 

Ideas about Success : 

• Te + Introspection + Consistency + Discipline + Fearlessness = Impossible to lose
• "But its all just fearless bro" ... Lot of fearless guys in jail, a lot of introspective present guys with no bools, a lot of consistent disciplined guys with no introspection or bools ect.. Only the combination is power.

 

Immediate Goals

1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 

2. Subtropical Logistics 

3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

 

Edited Friday at 08:47 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

06.12.25 

Sleep wtf

• My sleep the last few days has been so dam confusing that i cba to even track it right now, like sleeping 4 hours, then waking up at 1AM ... whatever 
• Thing that sucks about sleep is u have very little control over it 
• People act like "just sleep 8 hours bro simple rhythym" 
• But so many factors impact sleep 
• Same thing with stress
• U expect me to just suddenly meditate my way out of stress like its that simple? 
• I need good sleep or im fucked but i dont know when this apparent luxury will be here for me, I'll have to fight for it, fight for a less stressful life, more money, better logistics, more peace, but until then i may not be granted enough sleep, i'll try and keep tracking it though, Must know the math because without clarity and nunbers u are lost, human brain cannot keep track of it, Te. 

A note on Te + Introspection

• (Leo) "best people in life FEEL into stuff, introspection can't really be quantified ect... this is a subtle thing ect.."
• ^^ I kind of agree with im of course you cant quantify introspection literally in the moment 
• BUT - u can (and should imo) journal introspection where possible, and have a Te structure around it 
• What do i mean? 
• Well even though u cant literally quantify emotions ect.. 
• U can journal that u "got into lazy states an average of 3 times per day this week, and this cost you roughly 10 hours"
• I'm not saying u should autistically try and be exact with it
• I just mean you're using journalling/external organization & written clarity to just see what your introspective trend is 
• "I tend to get angry and lose ability to focus on my tasks .. this happened an average of once every 2 days, so about 3-4* per week" 
• "I am not sleeping enough - 1 reason is likely too much caffiene - why do i drink caffiene too late? > Because of my sense of desperation to try and crunch the day ect..." - "I know this is a hard habit to break .. let me just journal my last caffiene consumption daily and try reduce it by 30 minutes each day" ect.. 
• Introspection & Quantification do in fact synergise very well i thin
   

06.12.25 - Goals Today

1. Complete No fap day 5 
2. No added sugar (= No candy/chocolate/cake/fruit juice/Pastries), difficult to get it to literally 0G overall ..)
3. Make $400 Net profit 
4. List & sell all my items  
5. Floss Day 3 
6. Afternoon Gym * 1 
7. 2 Hour Deep work > Towards Logistics strategy & setup 

Immediate Goals

1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 

2. Subtropical Logistics 

3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

 

Edited yesterday at 02:04 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

06.12.25 

No sugar Day X : 2,241 Calories, 235 Grams of Sugar 

Net Profit - $

Logistics Strategy Deep work X 

No Fap Day 6 : Complete 

Gym 1 : Back day, cardio/walking 

Floss Day 3

No fap day 6 gains :

• I can feel more power in my balls, posture and aura improving, stronger looks from women again. 
• Day 100 LFG 

A note on Collective Te & Psychological momentum & morale 

People often say "do 1 thing at once, only do 1 thing, focus" WRONG. 

1. U SHOULD have a core priority mission (for me its changing logistics for lifestyle) 

2. When it comes to discipline & habits / learning/growth ect.. Imo much better to stuck multiple 

Why? 

Because if i was ONLY evading sugar & ONLY journalling that .. what happens on a failed day? that just sucks, thats bad momentum. 

But today i ate 50G sugar .. OK, but I also did good back workout at gym, I also did leg day, and I also burnt about 400 calories from cardio, I also flossed today ect..

Power = Holistic Momentum, that "winner" feeling from the other stacked habits is whats preventing me from spiralling into subconsiou guilt, loser energy, or eating even more sugar. 

And still, I know I will fully quit sugar, i know its coming, Positive momentum always tends to expand itself into other areas, momentum doesnt stop. 

Update, worked hard all day and then lost like $200 I worked for due to a mistake & i need this money

Got demoralised, fell into a trance of frustration ate like 200 Grams of sugar at once

Regret giving in, but In the moment I completely forgot that I can just fucking let it go, let go the annoyance

This is the issue, easy to realize u can just let go after

I am at least able to mentally let go after now & not guilt myself about the relapse, and I'm still continuing with my tasks and planning my life, but still would be better if I didn't have to poison myself first, at least I didn't go out and drink beer, sugar is terrible for you but still, there isn't really a true hangover from it, u can definitely function and recover, alcohol, even "moderate" amounts like just no. 

no guilt, no shame, no anxiety. its about weeks and months pattern not tonight. 

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No sugar Day X : 2,241 Calories, 235 Grams of Sugar

1* Frustration moment caused me to do this in 5 minutes ^ 

No wonder people are obese af. If you eat without any self improvement motive, you could easily eat 5 of these in 1 day. 

Sometimes I see extremely fat people and always wondered "that cant just be genetics or eating lots of food, HOW does that even possibly occur?, wtff"

And here's your answer.  

It's honestly fucking insane how easy it is to just casually eat anywhere from 2,000 to 10,0000 extra calories with these types of "foods". 

People can get a bit fat from even normal food, maybe 20-40 pounds over weight. 

But when you see people who are 80, 120, 150, 200, pounds overweight ... this is why loooool. 

It's not exactly a complicated equation, it's just u have to binge and then introspect and then look at the calories and then look at how easily and quickly u did it to truly understand very fat people. 

To make it even creepier the CEO's of coca-cola, milky way, Nestlé ect.. are NOT even consuming any of their own products, they just drink a coffee, go to a board meeting strategizing how to poison half the global population, then go back to their private gyms and yoga spas with their kids (who arent even allowed to consume these products).

Edited 8 hours ago by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

07.12.25 : Seduction Te 

Sent a vocal recording to AI for voice feedback 

"Top 35-45% of male population" ect.. 

1. Basically my voice passes the attraction threshold and isn't high pitched, its relatively deep and masculine, but not actor level. 

2. With intentional Training > I could get my voice into the "Top 20% range" - Which is what male actors have basically. My voice is good enough already but this will give me a boost into more magnetism.

I have the genetic capacity to reach this with training, I have to maximise myself in every way

NEW PROTOCOL > Te JOURNAL 

10 MINUTES OF DAILY VOCAL TRAINING PRACTICE, TRACKED WITH SHEETS, 

4-6 WEEKS TO PERMANTENTLY UPGRADE MY VOICE TO TOP 20% LEVEL 

WTF ... 

Edited 11 hours ago by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

07.12.25 : Goals Today

1. No Fap day 7 
2. 10 Minutes vocal training 
3. Floss day 4 
4. Gym*1 
5. Logistics & strategy : 2H Deep work
6. Net Profit $400
7. No Caffeine after 10AM 
8. No Added sugar day 1

Immediate Goals

1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 

2. Subtropical Logistics 

3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

Note to self (Avoiding sugary Junk)

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Satisfaction index is non proportional to calorie/sugar count, have to understand this. 

It's not that you need 2,000 calories of 250 grams of sugar junk

Its that you need to eat something that satisfies & satiates you > Which is more than just the mouth taste, its the walk, the nice area u buy the food ect.. 

perhaps that thing has 20 grams of sugar and 700 calories, so be it. 

My point is the satisfaction rarely requires actually poisoning yourself. 

For example, I had a kitkat the other day, and felt zero satisfaction after. 

Then when I had this pizza, I felt a ton of satisfaction and no desire to snack for a while, the pizza also had much less added sugar and chemicals, just bread, vegetables and meat, cheese & sauce = Perfect "cheat". 

 

Edited 28 minutes ago by Optimized Life