Amplifying Dividends

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Just exploring the space around me. Little by little. Breathe in breathe out. Just begin. 

Edited October 18 by Deziree

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More signal. Less distraction. That's the way to go.

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This is so beautiful. Living like a shaman.

 

 

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I have to carefully lay out my goals so as to not get completely entangled in them. I want to study. I want to work. Currently doing a part time art teaching job. But I want to upgrade soon. I want to feel intellectually and spiritually safer to be in my own rhythm. I am single and not looking for a relationship as yet. That will need time. I want to settle first and take things slower. Change strategies and change my mindset. Long term goals planning. 

 

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I talked to my family yesterday and we had dinner together. It felt good after a long time. Sometimes they don't understand my issues and journey and that's okay.

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Growing in my brain is good but it's also draining. I have understood that self development is not that easy. It's an on-going thing and needs  a lot of motivation to keep digging to keep going. First thing is liberate all the fears. Don't hang on to anything. There's no need to fear anything at all absolutely. 

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It's been raining outside and I have caught a flu. Just high body temperatures. Not feeling great generally. Not trying to get this on my nerves. Drank hot water a while ago. 

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I discussed with my colleague certain crucial aspects of work and life. One of the things that came up was that I perpetually live in survival mode. It's not separable from my entire self. That makes anything so difficult. Along with the diagnosis of adhd it's hard not to feel like I am spazzing out. I am thinking about healthy emotions now. Healthy emotions not just in self but also with respect to environment.

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First thing is to create a safe space. That's how you switch from survival mode to safety mode.

 

 

Edited October 17 by Deziree

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Caught flu. Drinking fluids.

[Deziree]

Values check-in

What values did I uphold today, and in which moments did I stray from them? How can I better align my actions with my core beliefs tomorrow?

Learning corner

What did I learn today — about myself, others, or the world around me?

Interaction insight

Which interaction today left the most significant impact on me? Was it positive or negative, and why?

Dreams and desires

What is one thing I deeply desire, and what steps can I take tomorrow toward achieving it?

Barriers and solutions

What obstacles did I face today, and how did I overcome them? If I didn’t, what can I do differently next time?

 

[Deziree]

November 23, 2025.

 

🌀 1. Synchronicities as a living Dialogue

Have I ever felt that life was sending me signs or messages? Describe one such experience in detail. How did it make me feel?

Do I believe these moments were coincidence, or something more? Why?

If synchronicities were a form of guidance, what might they be trying to tell me?

How do I usually respond when something uncannily meaningful happens? Do I dismiss it, or allow it to speak to me?

⚖️ 2. The Transcendent Function (Holding Two Truths at Once)

Can I remember a time where I felt two opposite emotions at the same time (e.g., joy and grief, love and pain)? What did that experience teach me?

Where in my life am I still stuck in “either/or” thinking (right/wrong, good/bad, success/failure)?

What would happen if I allowed both sides to exist without forcing a decision?

Write about a situation where holding both truths gave me wisdom, strength, or depth.

🌙 3. Dreams as Direct Transmissions from the Self

Recall a dream that stayed with you. Describe it in detail. What felt emotionally significant or symbolic about it?

Did any dream ever feel like guidance, warning, or revelation? What impact did it have on you?

If your inner wisdom (or “Self”) could speak to you through a dream — what message would it give you right now?

What themes, symbols, or repeated patterns keep showing up in your dreams or daily life?

👁️ 4. Ego-Self Axis Reorganization

When do I feel most identified with my ego (roles, fears, insecurities, status, appearance)?

Can I describe a moment where I felt more connected to my higher self, witnessing life instead of being lost in it?

In what situations does my ego try to control things? What happens when I let go and trust instead?

If my ego is not the master, but a tool — what is its healthy role in my life?

🌌 5. Living Mythologically (Seeing Life as Archetypal)

If my life were a myth or symbolic story, what archetype am I currently living (seeker, healer, warrior, wounded child, sage, lover, rebirth, etc.)?

What challenge in my life might actually be a rite of passage or spiritual initiation in disguise?

Do I feel sometimes that my life is part of something bigger than me? What moments made me feel this?

If my soul chose this life story for growth — what lesson might it be trying to learn?

🌱 Integration & Self-Reflection

 

Which of these five experiences do I resonate with the most right now? Why?

Which experience scares me, fascinates me, or calls to me?

How has my perception of life and self changed in the past 5 years? Is it becoming more spiritually aware?

Does this feel like just knowledge, or does it feel like something happening within me?

📅 A 5-week spiritual reflection journaling challenge
🎨 A personal spiritual awakening tracker (like a timeline of inner evolution)

 

Edited November 23 by Deziree

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November 27, 2025

I have to be ready to make little changes in my life everyday to make myself feel secure. Today is the day perhaps.

 

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1. What moments in my life have felt sacred, even if they weren’t traditionally “spiritual”?

Describe what made them feel meaningful or deeply alive.

 

2. When do I feel most connected to something larger than myself — nature, humanity, God, the universe, my own intuition?

What does that connection feel like in my body and heart?

 

3. What does ‘inner guidance’ or intuition feel like inside me?

How can I differentiate it from fear, wishful thinking, or overthinking?

 

4. How has my understanding of spirituality evolved over the years?

What beliefs, rituals, or questions have stayed with me?

 

5. Write about a time when life felt guided as if things aligned beyond logic.

What happened? How did it make you feel about life’s deeper intelligence?

 

6. What spiritual questions live quietly inside me?

Not the ones I feel pressured to answer but the ones my soul is genuinely curious about.

7. If spirituality was not about religion, rules, or perfection — but about presence, love, and awareness — what would it look like in my daily life?

8. What is my personal definition of “soul”?

Where do I feel its presence — in emotions, creativity, silence, longing, love?

9. What role does trust play in my spiritual path?

Where do I struggle to surrender, and where do I naturally flow?

10. What kind of spiritual nourishment do I genuinely crave?

Stillness? Community? Nature? Poetry? Prayer? Meaning? Healing?

11. What is one spiritual practice (formal or informal) that has actually shifted something inside me?

How did it subtly change how I see myself or life?

12. How do I experience the divine not in theory, but in real life moments?

In kindness? Silence? Beauty? Grief? Love?

13. What part of me feels most hungry for connection, purpose, or deeper meaning?

What might it be asking for?

14. Write a letter from your ‘Higher Self’  the wise, compassionate part of you  to your everyday self.

What does it want you to remember?

15. Is it possible that spirituality isn’t about becoming something — but remembering something?

What might I be remembering?