Random thoughts journal

[Optimized Life]

Zero structure, informal, even bordering nonsensical as I feel to just release thoughts like diarreah 

I should be out approaching on a friday, but I had a multi fap relapse the other day, have got mentally burnt out again, and I've gone recluse for 4-5 days, also moving city soon so dont have the drive to chase some stupid 1 off encounter round here 

Thankfully I have interesting podcasts, shows, things to think about, research and ect..

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Nothing more satisfying than seeing a relatable, normal man create a valuable business, but slightly disappointing when I realize I had a similar business idea at 22, I know exactly what the market was missing, but didn't have any resources, education, or even just enough commitment to actually make it happen in reality, well i could've done it on low resources, but it would've been logistically unlikely at the time, I genuinely saw an uber-solution type gap in the market (but scaled down a lot to a niche, but still "uber-solution" level for that specific niche

I didn't own my own personality or even know who I was 

ENTP level creative intuition will never be honoured by mainstream society or get positive feedback, they'll either laugh at it or ignore you, tell you to go get dentistry degree or something, 70% of the world are sensors, and even the 30% of who are intuitive only a select few of them are both , ambitious, systems oriented, and business minded creative, also oriented to future projection, outside the box thinking. It requires a combination of the core wiring And not being numbed out by porn, fapping, alcohol, or having some weird nihilistic ideology inside of you, actually finding likeminded individuals in the real world is extremely difficult, can feel bordeline impossible. 

But whats inspiring about this entrepeneur (pedro) is that he launched it all himself, then as he got traction he built a cool team too. 

My current business model isn't really creative at all and is just copying, there's specific nuances and innovations i've had to add but it's not "value to the world coool" type of thing its just standard business, it does kinda suck but once I start hitting even like 6K/month profit I'm not exactly going to complain about it, that would be a spoilt bitch thing to do, most men drive uber in india all day just to put a loaf bread in their starving kid. Still, need to just get it out the way, master sales so at a certain point I can have enough fuck you resources to just do my own stuff, the creative urge will never die

Edited Friday at 06:58 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

Focus on what you want, not what you don't want 

This 1 of leos quotes that I never forget 

Somehow, I have not consistently honoured this 

My mind still gets stuck in a loop, focusing on what I dont want c

I spoke about affirmations, visualizations ect.. its not that they don't work 

They do work, i've even gotten results from it, but I didn't go deep enough for long enough 

I haven't maintained consistent habit my mind is overloaded 

But I am still hunting for a mushroom trip, I just intuit that I need to take it, only a moderate dose

I feel that I need a reset of my nervous system, I need some deep internal growth, I dont ever want to hesitate or be run by fear again, I'm fucking sick of inconsistency or shallow grwoth and wont fucking tolerate it 

[Optimized Life]

No Fap is the most important habit for men in 2025, hands down. 

It's the most powerful force multiplier 

It charges the whole system 

Going against no fap was the biggest mistake I made of my 20s, and it has cost me so much 

I didn't understand force multipliers at the time, and also non verbal, implicit energetic reality of life. 

Once I became more observant and attuned to energy, and how women respond to energy, I will never ever fucking go back. 

After the looks and energies women started giving me on long no fap streaks, never again, I will never go back to fapping or porn again, ever. 

Fapping made me forget how attractive to women I could be, the magnetism, like a field that literally magnetises them, I forgot this was even possible. 

Anyone who laughs at no fap to me now is an ignorant and dangerous moron, dunning kruger effect. 

Edited Friday at 07:10 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

2 Reasons why I became open to Spirituality

(These reasons are personal and idiosyncratic, I do not go on the spirituality forum, I have no idea what leo talks or thinks about within spirituality, and only see it as a personal and subjective domain, although since it's subjective, other's are free to subjectively decide that it it's objective, or that aspects or principles of it are)

1. To indirectly- practically enhance myself and my life (by enhancing my internal software, nervous system and energetic field - Could just say "Nervous System" - more than just a spinal chord and neurons but a complex, psychosomatic, subconscious, electric, trans physical circuit of god knows what else big word) , - This was an unexpected one that was overlooked, and yes it was heavily influenced by a few qoutes from leo about inner game, however also impacted by my intuition from youthful experiences

2. (Slightly contradictory in intention) Just sought of let go of giving a shit about anything, peak nihilism mode, (without a dysfunctional lost of ambition or practicality but) - In the past year an intuition has come to me as I've come to realize that suffering just never ends, success requires more success, and no matter how much success, sex or money I get, I'll always be pissed about how much I didn't get when I didn't get it, they'll always be regrets anger and frustrations, and then give it 30 years or so my body will just start to really age and breakdown, but I'll have children to compensate with that, but then what if my sudden has down syndrome? Or he's a fa*. See the suffering never ends. In a way, life is kind of exhausting, even if you're brad Pitt, brad pitt how could brad pitt suffer? how could he? his suffering is just different, he suffers from the fact society worshipped him for winning the genetic lottery, like playing GTA 5 with all the cheat codes and the ending pre written for you, or maybe he simply suffered from addictions and 20 years of his life being a blure, then he suffered after realizing that and regretting it, good looks and health dont preclude that risk.  

I dont want psychedleics to kill my ambition or fire per se 

But i do want it to help with the endless suffering i experience from from my perfectionism, from all my regrets and anger at society that eats at me mentally every day, maybe I want to have the fire but also just not give a shit anymore, but it sounds paradoxical in practice, i dont know if ambition can exist without suffering  i hope it can

Edited 23 hours ago by Optimized Life

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No Fap is the most robust and important habit for men in the 21st century 

Funny how Leo is so pro "truth" yet his mouth is full of so much bullshit 

Wha'ts the point of having truth as a value when, even after a decade of psychedelcis, 50-70% of what comes out your mouth is still biased bullshit? 

I'm not acting like im mr truth either, but i dont claim to be truthful, i go by whats the most or closest to real, from mine and others anecdotal experience 

And ironically no fap is the realest most concrete and provable thing out there, it has the strongest most backed up anecdotal database, and yet leo still mocks it? Fucking retarded man, he even thinks porn is a "public service", jesus fucking christ man, It's like he's just saying it do intentionally be contrarian, it's so god dam brain rot that I genuinely think he's doing that, like a grown man child 

GETTING BACK TO 3 DAYS TODAY, PATIENCE, NO EDGING, RECLAIM MY EDGE, 30 DAY STREAK INCOMING LFG BITCH

Edited 13 hours ago by Optimized Life