Satori Flow

[CoolDreamThanks]

Its sooo liberating knowing that all the love I desire is all here - in the I am. And the deeper I fall into the I am the deeper I am in Love. I need nothing else excepy my Self. Oneness. Love without an object, without a second. Mmmmmmmm… and the magic is that this I amness is miraculous - it even arranges the dream so that it can dissolve without effort.

[CoolDreamThanks]

Experientally, dropping desires to early doesnt work, just engages repression.  
 

What works is choosing the Miracle and then the Miracle begins to allign life according to itself, and desires lessen and lessen naturally. 
 

However, I noticed that whilst intensly studying the Course as I am doing now, before I fully grasp everything, I can’t choose the Miracle fully. Because I am still in the conceptual domain, learning how to transcend it.  
 

But in periods where I think I am done I can surrender deeper and deeper into the Miracle and desires begin to fade. 
 

So now that I am studying I shouldn’t try to force myself to let go of desires — it’s just how things are when studying concepts. When I learn it all perfectly and only need to walk in non-judgement, then desires will fade by themselves. Beautiful

[CoolDreamThanks]

This is how it feels to rest in the I am: 

https://www.facebook.com/share/r/16wxgLTjwd/?mibextid=wwXIfr 
 
I thought I needed a cat or a partner for cuddles, but nope, I have that feeling in me all the time.

[CoolDreamThanks]

Here's a concrete example. If I'm studying, if I'm in the concepts, then every day is basically the same. I'm learning and just playing video games and being entertained. But when I drop learning and concepts, within a few weeks, even amidst the enjoyment of pleasures, there will be days when I come back after work, and instead of sitting down and playing video games, the intensity of presence and love is so immense that I will instead choose to bathe in that love as opposed to playing video games. So joy literally replaces worldly pleasures. That's how naturally desires are transcended.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

https://www.facebook.com/share/r/16vaoTKBNg/?mibextid=wwXIfr 
 

omfgggggg hahahah

[Princess Arabia]

1 hour ago, CoolDreamThanks said:

https://www.facebook.com/share/r/16vaoTKBNg/?mibextid=wwXIfr 
 

omfgggggg hahahah

I choked so hard. 😂 Gotta make sure the volume is on to get it.

Edited July 11 by Princess Arabia

[CoolDreamThanks]

3 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

I choked so hard. 😂 Gotta make sure the volume is on to get it.

I need to see it again. My stomach hurt from laughing  😄

[CoolDreamThanks]

[CoolDreamThanks]

While it is true that liberation requires the complete emptying of the mind, it doesn't really work to be adamant about not fantasizing. I find that being very adamant just creates resistance in the mind and strengthens the ego and it's even more difficult to stay silent. But what does seem to work is to use fantasies as a form of meta-meditation, where you use them to feel good and at the peak, when you can't fantasize anything better, just drop it and stay silent. It is actually easier to stay silent after doing meta-meditation. It's pretty difficult to remain silent when you're in a negative state of mind. It works best when you're already in a happy state of mind to remain silent.

And also, I've noticed that if I truly dedicate myself to silence, as weeks and months go by, I'm less and less attracted to fantasize about various ideal scenarios. It seems like those fantasies lose attraction. I think one part is because I'm less identified with the mind, and another part is because I already feel full and complete, so I don't really need fantasies to make me feel good.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Oh wow, I'm used to it now, but if I really investigate my experience, I am walking around in a state of tranquility, clarity, peace, and joy. I could even somewhat equate this feeling to how I felt when I fell in love for the first and only time. Everything is quite simple, but also very magical. It feels like I'm fulfilled, it doesn't feel like I need anything else. And it's even better than when I fell in love, because then it was very codependent. Now I'm alone, but I feel very fulfilled and happy. So that's, I think, a very good measuring stick as to the spiritual progress. I think one part of this feeling is that I know I'm the one, that I'm the single dreamer in all of existence. That is a healed perception, which gives me a lot of happiness, because fragmentation can be equated with separation and fear, and wholeness could be equated with love and joy. So overall, happy where I'm at right now.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Also, recent experiences at my workplace pretty much confirmed that all things are working together for good, and I am always taken care of no matter what happens. Even if things seem to be shifting and changing, I'm always taken care of. So that's another part where the joy comes from, knowing that because I am the dreamer of the dream, everything is arranged for my highest good, not in terms of ego goals, but in terms of having everything I need for the purpose of awakening. And this helps me to fall deeper into silence. It shows me that I don't really have to care for much. I just have to do my job well, and everything else is taken care of. I can just flow in this silent presence, knowing that everything is taken care of.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Amazing 

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Simply taking a meditative walk in nature is one of the best things for mental and physical health.

[CoolDreamThanks]

I noticed that when I have a period of silence, where I begin to delve deeper into presence, after a week or two, I will begin to search for some sort of a long-term activity that I can throw myself into. Like, I will search for MMORPG video games, where I could spend a lot of time building a character, or something similar. I've read Ken Wapnick answer this question, why when we become emptier, we want to find things to do in the world, and he says that's a good sign, it means you are becoming emptier, and the ego is trying to cling onto the world, he's afraid of the emptiness, and he's trying to fill your mind back up with things of the world, because he knows that if you just keep emptying yourself out, he will die, and the whole dream will disappear. So, the ego sort of rebels, and wants to fill up that empty space.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Another ego defense that popped up today was the thought of meaninglessness. That I'm not doing anything meaningful, that life is meaningless. And luckily, I already have a remedy for these thoughts. Yes, this world is meaningless. There is nothing meaningful you could do here. It's just an illusion. However, there is an ultimate purpose here to fulfill. And it's not in the world, it's in the mind. The dreamer of the dream has to awaken from the dream. That is the purpose. So these wgo thoughts about meaningless are themselves meaningless and incorrect. 
 

For the ego, being empty and spending days in silence seems nihilistic and meaningless, but for Spirit this is the ultimate purpose and the doorway to Heaven.

 

Edited July 12 by CoolDreamThanks

[CoolDreamThanks]

I thought that perhaps I'm not fulfilling my purpose if I'm not fully committed to God, which means that I'm not spending like 24 hours in meditation, but now I'm not so sure. It seems like it doesn't work to be very adamant, to try to willfully force yourself to let go of desires and just meditate. I mean, I tried it for a few months and it showed me that, yes, when you strengthen presence and when you spend time in stillness, that's how you awaken. But because I tried to do it forcefully, I had a backlash and it didn't really work. It was very helpful, but now I think I will go very gently. I will practice presence as much as I can and I will allow desires to fade away naturally. I won't force them away. It doesn't really work long term. I think maybe after 10, 20, 30 years, they will fade away naturally just because of how fulfilled and joyous I am, because of the practice of presence.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

So, being very engaged with the world is a mistake, like trying to earn a lot of money or indulging in, I don't know, chasing girls and so on. But, on the other hand, another extreme of asceticism is also a mistake. Because I get into repression, those desires are still there, I just push them away from my awareness, and at some point they will bubble up anyway in an unhealthy manner. So it's true that neither indulgence nor repression doesn't work in life, like in all aspects. What does work is to live, try to live in the flow, and as long as there are these baseline desires, it's okay to fulfill them. I just need to practice presence and allow them in time to fade away naturally. That's in alignment with what David Hoffmeister and Ken Wapnick teach us, and it just feels right. I've tried all the other variations, and it tends to fail in the long term. So yeah, I know the end goal, but it's achieved not by jumping into it, but it's a long process. It will probably take decades to truly clear out and to truly transcend the body identification and to fall so deeply into love that I don't need anything else.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Interesting, or, well, perhaps not interesting as wearisome, that I can still, when, for example, listening to hard techno, dripped, smoking, various "unique" ideas about enlightenment can still arise, like that I can perhaps have a unique path, that I  could get enlightened through the use of psychedelics if I just followed their guidance, kept increasing my vibration, etc. However, during these thoughts I also had a sharp pain in my chest - my intuition was very against this idea. Luckily, I'm getting a bit better at listening to it. Stopped my dancing smoking and dark techno, went to bed and realized that I was deluded and that is not the Way.  

[CoolDreamThanks]

I still had a hope that I can reach enlightenment through this magic pill, but just like with everything in this world that gives you pleasure, it also has a negative side to it. And the biggest negative side of psychedelics is how they destabilize the mind. And the mind is the most important thing in life. If you don't have a stable, clear mind, then you don't have anything. I've made some crazy choices in the past when I was on psychedelics. I mean, I even drove a car when high, like it was on MDMA after a nightclub, but I was so high and I drove the car so fast I could've died, and that should never happen again. I also like called my parents when I was on LSD one time, that was bad also. And at this point I think I'm just being impatient. I know the path to awakening, I mean Jesus is the highest teacher. I just need to follow A Course in Miracles and stop making this mistake of thinking that I'm so glorious, I am the one, like Neo in Matrix, that I can have a special path that no one has ever had before. While it's true that I'm the one, it's also true that I'm not the wisest, and I make mistakes. I have to follow my intuition, which clearly said that I shouldn't be using psychedelics anymore, and I should just follow the teachings of Jesus in A Course in Miracles, and that's it. Awaken gently, slowly, patiently, stop making up this fantasy of awakening with psychedelics. They served in the past, it was a stepping stone, now just relax and awaken gently through the practice of silence.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

She was never real...

She was merely a figment of my imagination.

A fragment of my dream.

Whenever I turn away - she crumbles into dust.

I was her beginning and her end.

There is no world. 

I am the alpha and the omega.

I dreamt this world up and I will dissolve it.

I have the power to make this world disappear. 

And such is my will.

There is nothing here that brings me lasting joy.

This world has disappointed me since the time time began.

I miscreated this universe and forgot I did so.

The time for it to end is approaching.

There will be no exploding volcanos nor storms.

This dream will end gently, in an illusion of mercy.

I will have one more walk in a shallow river.

Take one more deep breath in a silent forest.

Only love could stop me.

Yet there is none in this world.

For it is the destruction of this world that will bring about the re-awakening of true Love.

God knows not of this world.

My abode is in the formless, eternal domain.

This temporal dimension is not my home.

I feel out of place in time and space.

Even if She came back to me.

I would teach her the secrets of existence.

And we would both dissolve the world together.

Yet this is not a place where true perfection occurs.

Thus even this fantasy will not be.

I miss my home, the land of light.

This world is a place ruled by death and decay. 

I am not of this world.

This world is merely a wish, a mad idea made appear as a mirage in a desert.

Yet mirages do not clench my thirst.

The ever-giving water of life is not found on this earth.

This hallucination is dust upon the face of Heaven.

I will wipe my face clean and the light re-appears.  

I have forgotten myself.

What I am truly is the treasure of Heaven.

The One with no second.

An infinite light which extends unto itself for all of eternity.

This world knows not of true love.

This universe is not to be.

It has to disappear.

And I will make it so. 

Edited July 13 by CoolDreamThanks