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I see how 99.99% of the thoughts I think are useless, false, just wrong. What they focus on is wrong. i shouldn’t be thinking at all about most of these things. But the web of the mind captures me. 

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Hm, I really wonder if full devotion to God will result in not having to work again. today got info that I will actually have to work more than before, perhaps even much more.. Wtf, how can that be? Well, actually for the last few months I was mostly enjoying sense pleasures and did not fully dedicate myself to God. Is that Karma coming to bite me in the ass? Noo I don't want to work, it's so uninspiring. I will truly dedicate myself from now fully to God - no sense enjoyment, only reading scripture and meditating, and will hope that God takes care of my financial needs or arranges life so that I have to work very little. Does it really work that way? Hm, I hope so. 

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What is perceived in this world is in the nature of a dream, similar to what one sees in dreams. The only difference is that the former takes place in the waking state and the latter during sleep. Albeit I am always with you, mother. - Anandamyi Ma

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On the other hand,most people got fired and I remained, so I assume that’s the part which says Spirit will take care of all of my needs without my effort. But it’s not that I won’t have to work. 😞 i will have to put in effort actually working, so it’s not without my effort. But also I haven’t TOOTALLY commited yet, so that might be the issue. Commiting totally now and will see.

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this seems right.. 

Okay, so just continuing to practice deeply, letting go of sense pleasures, and Trusting that all will be taken care of on my way Home from this dream to Heaven. I am the holly, single son of God. 

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Matri Vani

Anandamayi Ma


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When there is constant effort to grow into the awareness of THAT which IS, there is hope that in time this awareness may become permanent.

 

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Always keep yourself in a state which is favourable to the contemplation of the Divine. Thus will be provided the right sustenance for the mind.

 

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Who am I ? With this attitude endeav­our to let the mind stand back as a witness. Search after your Self. As long as may be, sit immersed in meditation, becoming quite still, steady and fully concentrated.

 

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Throughout the twenty-four hours abide in the awareness of the Presence of God. Then only can there be hope of Realization. Who can foresee at what moment He may choose to reveal Himself? This is why one must ever keep wide awake.

 

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Let your thoughts dwell constantly on the Supreme Reality — endeavour to let your mind be absorbed in THAT.

At all times be truthful in speech, uncompromising in self-discipline, and devote yourself to the study of books of wisdom and to satsang. Cherish the company of those who are helpful to your quest, avoid those who distract you — in other words, hold fast to the Good and shun the merely pleasurable. If you live in this spirit, the help you need will come to you naturally — unasked.

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According to one’s strength one should try to set apart a day for self-restraint (samyam), if not once weekly, then once a fortnight or at least once a month. On those days strict control is to be exercised as regards food and drink, speech and conduct, going to see places and people —in fact in every respect whatsoever. In this way one may gradually succeed in developing self-mastery and be able to live according to these rules quite  effortlessly, or at any rate with some measure of ease even for two or three months every year. Later it may perhaps become possible to sustain permanently such an attitude of life, which will set in motion a current leading to Self-realization. The consequence of indiscipline and self-indulgence is sorrow it means moving away from one’s own true Self. - Anandamayi Ma

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      Ever to keep the mind poised in the Self, wide-awake in the current of Reality, where the Unfathomable, the One-without-end is ever revealed in His Infinity — this must, with the intensity of  an obsession be your one and constant endeavour. -Anandamayi Ma

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Those who attempt to be brahmacharis  must live a life of renunciation. Sloth, greed, impatience, praise and fame are serious obstacles. Taking great care to avoid these, all work should be done in the nature of a service. Furthermore, the rules enjoined on brahmacairis and sadhus  have to be given special attention. What might seem an offence in the eyes of others should not be pursued, nor what is likely to cause even the slightest harm to oneself.

 

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Merely to assume the robes of a sadhu while the spirit of renunciation is lacking will not do. Taking samnnyas and becoming a samnyasi  spontaneously, are certainly not one and the same thing.

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      Inward samnyasa is real  samnaysa . To become a samnyasi is very fortunate, is in fact a matter of supreme rejoicing. But do you feel that the right moment to take such a step has come for you? samnyasa signifies complete renunciation, the annihila­tion of everything: even the idea of annihila­tion has to become extinct.

 

 

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How can a man who is harbouring thoughts of suicide expect to become a samnyasi? The idea of suicide does not even enter the mind of those who consider themselves candidates for samnyas. A spirit of extreme self-denial and renunciation is the attitude that affords the greatest aid towards this exalted state. Vow to be truthful in speech, and refrain from letter-writing. Do not talk to women nor allow your gaze to rest on them.

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Good. Blisful. Still. Haven’t been in this state for a while now. Brahmacharya is definately the way for me.

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The Amritabindu Upanishad

1 The mind may be said to be of two kinds,

Pure and impure.

Driven by the senses

It becomes impure; but with the senses

Under control, the mind becomes pure.

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2 It is the mind that frees us or enslaves.

Driven by the senses we become bound;

Master of the senses we become free.

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3 Those who seek freedom must master their senses.

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4 When the mind is detached from the senses

One reaches the summit of consciousness.

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5 Mastery of the mind leads to wisdom.

Practice meditation.

Stop all vain talk.

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6 The highest state is beyond reach of thought,

For it lies beyond all duality.

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7 Keep repeating the ancient mantram 0M

Until it reverberates in your heart.

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8 Brahman is indivisible and pure;

Realize Brahman and go beyond all change.

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9 He is immanent and transcendent.

Realizing him, sages attain freedom

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10 And declare there are no separate minds.

They have but realized What they always are.

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11 Waking, sleeping, dreaming, the Self is one.

Transcend these three and go beyond rebirth.

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12 There is only one Self in all creatures.

The One appears many, just as the moon

Appears many, reflected in water.

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13 The Self appears to change its location

But does not, just as the air in a jar

Changes not when the jar is moved about.

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14 When the jar is broken, the air knows not;

But the Self knows well when the body is shed.

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15 We see not the Self, concealed by maya;

When the veil falls, we see we are the Self.

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16 The mantram is the symbol of Brahman;

Repeating it can bring peace to the mind.

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17 Knowledge is twofold, lower and higher.

Realize the Self; for all else is lower.

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18 Realization is rice; all else is chaff.

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19 The milk of cows of any hue is white.

The sages say that wisdom is the milk

And the sacred scriptures are the cows.

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20 As butter lies hidden within milk,

The Self is hidden in the hearts of all.

Churn the mind through meditation on it;

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21 Light your fire through meditation on it:

The Self, all whole, all peace, all -certitude.

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22 "I have realized the Self",‚ declares the sage,

Who is present in all beings.

I am united with the Lord of Love [Vishnu] ;

I am united with the Lord of Love;"

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Om Shanti Shanti Shanti

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The Upanishads translated by Eaknath Easwaran

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Yeah, I should stop trying to figure out which teacher is telling the truth, which one is lying, which one is just confused. It's a neurosis that I have. I should only keep my finger on my own nose and improve myself. Take what seems useful from other teachers and stop judging and analyzing them. It's an egoic trap that I constantly fall into.

 

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wow why was this so helpful? 

and this:
 

hmmmmmmmmm

I feel like Frank Yang is so wise now, because of his experience of non-duality and the way he explains things it's apparent he's talking from direct experience of Truth. I'm really not sure about all these books I'm about to read if they are at this level. 

Perhaps reading more won't do more good.

As Frank says the core is to see who you are, emptiness, no self, Oneness, to dissolve conditiopning via concentration and awareness. tHAT feels right, when I meditate now I feel how solid my body is, how many conditionings there are to dissolve. 

And then when he explained the notion of self vs no self, capital S Self vs noself, how they are One, that was soo clear and true. Is there are Self? Yes, kinda, is there no self? yes, kinda. both are true and neither. It has to be experiental. I had cessation and non-dual experiences but didn't realize them fully yet. I need to have natty ones now. 

With the brahmacharya thing.. hmm.. If it isn't about raising kundalini but about dissolving conditioning and non-duality, then it's a bit different. it's moreso concentration and awareness than celibacy and the rising of kundalini.

hmmmmmmm,, :{ dunno 

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Interesting. Sex, the way I practice it now, actually fills my head with bliss. So it's not just an activity from the lower chakras. It's actually an activity of the higher chakras as well. Maybe if you're having sex not lovingly, more like an animal, then yes, it's just lower chakras activity. But if you're loving during it, maybe if you even see the non-duality in it, then all the chakras are engaged, not only the lower ones. Because now during sexual activity I feel bliss in my higher chakras. Even my head is filled with bliss.

 

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Hm, Frank Yang seems to be very right. Like it’s exactly 1:1 to my experience. Maybe I should follow his methodology? 
 

It simplifies and clarifies so much: you are fundamentaly not a thing - nothing ess - fformlesness - and every single thing, even those heavenly states are creations of mind. You could say that thise creations of light are real creations and this dream is an unreal creation.  
 

In terms of will — there is an apparent self that has a will and is being guided by the larger universal will, and the more the apparent self dissolves and surrenders to the universal will the better things go. But if the apparent self believes he has no choice that’s not right, it should act according to how he feels - if it feels like he has a choice then make it, but also be aware of the universal will and try to allign with it just by having the intention to do so. 
 

Co-dependant arising is an intwresting concept by Frank Yang, seems to be true. For there to be an experience in a dream there has to be a self and an apparent other, otherwise it’s just formless oneness, right? But in the end you can be Oneness and still duality is happening, just more naturally, without the apparent self getting in the way.  
 
The question I have with Frank js where are the creations of Love in his path? On psychedelics I was in states of Divine Love, not just emptiness. That maybe is the Kundalini path? I dunno.  
 

So is a rigit approach like brahmacharya still right? Hmm.. 

 

I think the most important for me now is alot of meditation to dissolve the conditioning. And also contemplation of self vs no self vs Self, will vs no will vs mysterious non-dual happening.

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Hm, the way I see it now is life wanted to show me I am paying to much attention to sense enjoyment — its okay to do, just not “full time.”  
 

Spend an hour or so in sense pleasures and then focus on meditation and contemplation. 

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So from this POV that it's all just "suchness" and there's only an apparent self in the middle of it and it's "surrounded" by the manifestation, and the manifestation and the apparent self are one but there's also a separation, at least now, but they are one but also separate, so that's the lila, the play? From this I would see how it's all non-dual but also a dual play, it's both. No self but also Self and kind of a small self playing with the bigger self. And from this I would see how the appearance is Divine, since it's all the creation of the one non-dual mind. it's playing within itself. 

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Hm so mindfulness is blisfull now, but I guess doesnt dissolve solidity, and the no-self pretending or do nothing aka zazen disolves ant vipassana dissolves, but doesnt feel good. Combiningall of them.

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yes very helpful. Doing this and the body is kinda convulsing endlessly, realising I guess