Nothing matters in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God Posted February 1 10 minutes ago, ivankiss said: Yeah, that's a nasty trap to be caught in. It's what happens when you twist the truth and use it to justify your nastiness. Nothing awake or loving about it. But it's a journey to go through, for sure. I was in a nasty relationship too, not too long ago, so I can kind of relate. It was different than what you're describing, but toxic nevertheless. The dynamic was similar. No other advice I can give, but to gather all your will and courage, start planning an escape, and then when the time comes leave, and never look back. You have to cut this out completely. Only that way can you heal and move on. At least that's what I had to do. Removing yourself from a hostile environment is an act of (self) love. Stay strong. All the best. Thank you for your empathy and kind words. It really means a lot since I already feel a lot of shame for getting myself into this messy situation. I try to tell myself that I’m exactly where I need to be in order to develop my character. To become stronger and learn not to be so naive in the future. I think this is a lesson for me but a really hard one. But there’s a reason why this all happened.