MsNobody

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  1. @Bandman Precision medicine looks at the genetics, environment, and lifestyle of a person in order to select treatment that could work best for you. It's more holistic and treats the root cause. Once they figure out your genes they will see if you have any underlying disease, what foods are best for your body ( they do a microbiota, extensive blood and genetics test), how your body process certain foods etc.

    I know a good doctor but he is in Brazil, he even does work with psychedelics in his clinic, not sure how easy it is to find one here in US but finding a good precision medicine doctor will save you so much time, instead of going to all the other doctors that blindly scramble you to find an issue and then not even solving the root cause. The main thing for you to understand is that most of the doctors dont really care about you, they are deep into the conventional medicine system, brainwashed and just making money off of sick people. Take your health into your own hands, the same way our fingerprints are different so is your body, you know more about your own body than anyone else, we have a tendency to not trust our body because we were taught to disconnect from it, but this whole thing that is happening is your body communicating with you. 

    Matt Kahn has a video where he talks about how the body is in the journey, not the consciousness. Our consciousness is already elevated, it's already there, the one who is not there yet is the body. It;s a process of descending to the body. Anchoring the soul to the body. For sure there is the spiritual part, dont overlook it. Trust your body to show you the way. It's just a phase, everything will be okay soon. I know from experience that when we are going through health issues, its easy to get stuck in the thinking that it will be like that forever. It won't. It will pass. Your nervous system is too active, try to slow down a little. It could be your gut, pay attention to the food you are putting in your body.

    About the suicidal thoughts, there is a part of you dying in this process you are going through, and it's coming to the surface to be released. Let it play out and be the observer. The real you will stay, let the old be shed. Your soul chose to be here and to play this out. See it all from above. 


  2. Seems like your nervous system is overactivated. Are you a highly sensitive person? Im sorry to hear you are in a dark place. I would do all blood tests, but you need to look up which tests you need, a primary care doctor is not gonna give you the right ones. There is also genetic tests. I would recommend a precision medicine doctor. Most importantly, like Leo said you need to do your own research, dont leave your life in the hands of doctors. 

    Also don't forget everything has a spiritual meaning. After you do your part with conventional medicine, dive deep into spirituality. Depression is awakening, your body is definitely going through some deep downloads. Glad to see you are very aware of how you feel and what is going through 


  3. @michaelcycle00 Albinos are very strong, even is low doses. 

    I'm sorry about your current situation Michael, psychedelics tend to reveal our minds and if we are in a bad place mentally they tend to show all sorts of things. It's a pandora box. I noticed that you described yourself with a lot of labels, social anxiety OCD etc. Be mindful that those labels were created by men, the pharmaceutic industry and society benefit a lot when you take those labels for yourself, they are extremely disempowering. Drop them and see that the feelings of sadness and anxiety are all part of life, we are here to experience the full spectrum of emotions, picking and choosing which ones we want to feel is what creates suffering.  There is nothing wrong with you, you are a human having a human experience, feeling human emotions, maybe you don't have depression, maybe you are just going through a difficult phase, it's completely normal. When the whole society is sick it's good to contemplate beyond ourselves, our environment etc.

    Like Jiddu Krishnamurti said "It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society". Any healthy person would feel what you are feeling. I've been given so many labels, depression, generalized anxiety, ADHD etc. The more labels the more I enjoy it. It shows me I'm not adapting to this shit show.

    I've seen many ugly things on ayahuasca, body parts, vulgar things, evil witchy stuff. I just observe them, no judgements, it's the mind of god. You are unclogging the pipe, the first experiences will be dark, then it becomes better, you uncover the essence of your soul, once you meet who you really are you wont' have any more questions about your divinity. It's easy to recognize the divine when everything is happy and beautiful, but it's more difficult to recognize in its dark face. It's easy to embrace our good qualities, but it's difficult to accept our flaws. This work you are doing is a path for wholeness.

    Focus on your breathing, it's the best way to disconnect from the unconsciousness of the collective. 

    Mushrooms will take you under earth, and they are very mind twisting. For me they are often dark, so I enter the experience aware that I will be doing shadow work. If you want something more loving and supportive I would suggest ayahuasca, not by yourself of course. LSD trips tend to be better for me too, more extraverted and creative. Creativity is the best medicine for depression, it gives a more broaden and colorful perspective on life and its infinite possibilities. 

    About your parents, they are not narcissistic people, they are highly traumatized individuals. Once you give attention to your inner child you will see them as they are, just two humans struggling to go through life. To heal yourself you need to be away from them, but everything in its divine time. 

    Sending you love.

     

     


  4. Such a good thread for newbies like me who dont understand much about politics/wars. Thank you!

    Just saw this

    "In response to a severe attack by Hamas on Israel, the US has directed the largest warship in the world towards the Eastern Mediterranean to bolster Israel’s defense capabilities.

    This move shows a robust US stance to deter regional conflict escalation, coupled with additional military aid to Israel, demonstrating massive support between US and Israeli officials amid broader diplomatic engagements aimed at halting Hamas’ aggression."

    https://www.instagram.com/p/CyMFus0J6Sp/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

     

     

     

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  5. Could be a defense mechanism from the ego? Psychedelics usually gives me energy but my mind finds all sorts of excuses why I shouldn't do it, it's been a difficult week, now Im pmsing, now Im tired... 

    Exercising helps too, meditation after exercising is amazing, psychedelics after exercising should be good too. 

    It all starts in the mind, it could make you feel better or show you the root cause of the chronic fatigue. 

    Or maybe you just need to rest, if you are going through a lot your body might be integrating the normal reality collective load of stuff and adding psychedelics into the mix will just bring more chaos. 


  6. @SeaMonster We are tried of controlling to be honest :ph34r: it's exhausting to try to be a men and seek power, I would rather be in by feminine. Society is so twisted, it's a whole delicate process to unlearn.

    What women really want is to surrender, but most women are still trying to find the safety to surrender in men, instead of finding within themselves. 

    Love this poem from Anais nin

    “I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”


  7. @SeaMonster Yes but see that you are doing the same thing. pointing the finger. The blame game doesnt work, each person must look within themselves, you cant look within yourself and blame others at the same time, cause while looking within you would have to look at your own shadow, making it easier to accept people's shadow.

    Reminded me of this quote

    If only there were evil people somewhere insidiously committing evil deeds, and it were necessary only to separate them from the rest of us and destroy them. But the line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?

    The outside world it is how it is because we are too immature to be the big person, it's preschool lol. Men and women must take the high road, it starts within. 

    Now women blaming men for being bla bla bla and men blaming women for doing porn and bla bla bla.. its gonna get us nowhere. xD

     


  8. @LSD-Rumi you need to know who you really are if you want to keep exploring with psychedelics, otherwise you will not have an anchor to go back to. People sober commit suicide because they listen to the voices in their head and think it's them, imagine high.

    IMO psychedelics didn't cause anxiety, it was already there, it could be stuff that need to be worked through. 

    What's your goal in taking disassociatives? of course they made you calm, you got out of your body, you dissociated, you became numb.

    If you are using psychedelics for personal growth, you actually want to go straight to the shadow. I don't get people who complain about bad trips, what are we really doing here? Aren't we using them exactly to see the things we can't see when we are in normal reality? xD

    Alcohol makes you numb, ketamine makes you numb, those disassociatives make you numb. Our role here is to anchor our souls into our bodies and for that we need to actually feel the body, we cannot force the process, the dissociation is basically going for a little adventure, and the dishes are still there after we come back. 

    I spoke to my friend who is a nun this week, and she had mediated for 7 hours that day, she told me "to meditate, to feel god and connect with my soul is easy. Difficult is being a human, to have a body, and participate in the outside world." hahaha

    Life is precious, we just don't know it yet.. it's just that we need to unclog the pipe to experience all the bliss. Unclogging the pipe means feeling our feelings, our anxieties, and all the bad stuff.. it's a difficult process. 9_9


  9. @StarStruck Love this, it reminded me of the beginning of The Book of Women by Osho, where he says that

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    a woman is to be loved, not understood.

    I'm not sure how pick up works but I would presume that is like marketing, you are basically manipulating someone to buy something, and the product is you. As much as you study manipulation, deep inside you know it's not in your control, specially when you meet the person that is supposed to be in your life. All the games fall away. The same way there is conscious marketing, there could be conscious pick up. 

    Now about you saying that you were all nice and good guy, these women made you a favor. The world is harsh, they just helped you with that. It's called building character..  The feminine sets the frequency, the masculine follows. Notice that in nature the one building the nest is the male bird, the female picks the one she likes the most. We are humans not animals, if our standards (as women) were low, imagine how uncivilized men would be lol

    For example, if all the women decided that they would not date men who watch porn, the whole porn industry would collapse. You see how much power women have in their hands? That is why they were killed in the past. It's unfortunate that most women are trying to fight with the men, blaming them, without seeing that the key is actually in their hands.

    I believe a strong woman can turn a man into a king, the same way that a woman is more powerful with a strong partner by her side. Men protect women in the physical realm, women protect men in the spiritual realm. The spiritual purpose of relationships is growth, so it's natural that our partners will always bring up the stuff that needs to be looked at to the surface, if we are smart we will work through things, not blame the messenger. It's the house of mirrors.

    I was listening to a podcast by Annie Lala (Eben Pagans wife) and she talked about this beautiful metaphor of when Michelangelo created David's sculpture, he said that he carved out everything that wasn't David out of the marble block, he left only what was David, and in relationships, our partners will carve all the falsehood out of us, so those women actually made you more of a man, that is the same thing that psychedelics do, they make you more you, pilling the onion. Sacred union is such a beautiful thing, religion really messed up with the real significance of marriage. 

    Also when talking about partners, it's important to notice that our external relationships are a reflection of the polarity we have within ourselves, our inner union. It's the dance of duality, the whole creation is built on this energy. So if you are attracting the same kind of women, you might want to look at the common denominator, you.

    You have the feminine polarity within you, surrender to your inner feminine and you will fear no woman. xD


  10. Terence McKenna says that the closest thing to a psychedelic experience is traveling. Not sure if you have experienced them but 8 years ago I started traveling and was obsessed with it. Until I tried psychedelics and discovered that there is a whole universe within myself to explore. 

    With that being said, Im originally from Brazil, live in US and have travelled around a bit. Experiencing different cultures will help you a lot with changing your belief system and consequently your life, once you experience many cultures you start getting rid of old stuff from your culture and opening up space for new things to come into your life, it's a deconstruction of your web of beliefs.

    Moving to a new place also circulates energy, sometimes when we don't circulate energy life forces us into change, while when you are proactive and circulate energy ourselves life flows more smoothly. 

    Another point is, wherever you go, there you are. Contemplate the main reason why you want to do the big move. Hope my brainstorming helped 


  11. This strain is usually stronger. I think if it's your first time take 1g only, start slow so you can go deeper. Depending on your sensitivity 2 will be really strong and you will feel scared to explore deeper if you dont have a good experience. Enjoy the journey xD mushrooms are fantastic


  12. I'm sorry for your pain @Leo Gura

    Would you say on the body level you are going from the mind (intelectual) to the heart (feeling)?

    I feel like it's a virus that was implanted in us (by us /internet), we are so hard and speak so harshly with ourselves, this reflects on how we talk to people of course.

    I ask you because after two years recording videos for my channel, I found myself stuck because of how I use my words and speak my truth, and sometimes (actually most of the time) don't think about how people will feel when receiving it. My work lacks love and compassion, and I see that we as humans flower if given enough love.

    I have a deep need to be in community right now, but it's a battle because I enjoy my solitude and internal explorations. 

    Open to hearing other peoples opinions on the topic also :)