Spence94

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  1. 3 hours ago, A_v_E said:


    your energy must be focus like an addict at world of warcraft.
     

    @A_v_E

    I am learning Mandarin Chinese. I am not expecting to be 'fluent' any time soon but I feel a world of warcraft level of addiction kicking in. I have a job and am trying to build my lifes purpose so it's not easy. Aspire to spend the rest of my time 'playing world of warcraft' though. ;)


  2. Today I tried a new productivity technique recommended by a member of the forum. I liked it very much. Cultivating grace and self acceptance around ones procrastination and wandering mind. I have felt unhappy about my lack of discipline and focus for years. Procrastination and resistance creates much suffering and doubt in my mind. So much of the happiness and success in all areas of my life would be achieve if I just did the things I know I am supposed to fucking do. However  if it was that easy, everybody would do it. So the path seems like one that brings you to wholeness step by step, that irons out your kinks little by little, so you do the work week by week as much as you can, take a step back and then another step forward. One day you wake up and you're focused, you're getting shit done, you get knocked off and get back on it. You enjoy it. Flow. Non resistance. Flow. It's all supposed to flow. 


  3. Total Active Immersion Time (Hours : Minutes) = 1 : 45

    30 minutes on LingQ. It is such an enjoyable way to learn a language and it just feels very effective.

    Language learning, like any skill is something you get better at with practice.

    Language learning like any skill, is enhanced by your overall development as an individual. For example, being healthy, getting enough sleep, exercising and eating clean effect the quality of your language learning in many ways from the quality of input, to memory, to recall, to confidence with speaking, to acceptance of mistakes and remaining chill.

    LingQ.com and Refold.La are the main websites i am using, they are somewhat underground and hardcore approaches in the language learning world but hey, actualized.org is underground and hardcore too so that the way I role baby.

    How will my behaviour change? Starting today, I am no longer going to do any work, or action or study or activity or practice in the evenings, all of that has to be done during daylight hours, as soon as it is dark, the only practice I am engaging in is listening and reading to Chinese. The daytime is for english and for work and practice and study. The nighttime is for chilling out and enjoying hardcore full Chinese immersion practice.

    Done.


  4. https://www.lingq.com/en/

     

    https://refold.la/

    Check these two websites out if you're serious about becoming fluent in a foreign language. Best part about their methods is that it is actually fun and enjoyable too, but it's an approach only for people who are willing to put in a few hours a day of time with the language over the months and years. Not about 'fluent in 3 months' or any of that bullshit.


  5. Clarity, focus and action.

    • Healing Trauma: A Journey of the Past, Present and Future.
    • Learning Mandarin Chinese.
    • Getting on track with lifes purpose.
    • Practicing Yoga.
    • Being a yoga instructor.
    • Being an English conversational skills instructor.
    • Socialization and dating beautiful women.

     

    Focus needs to happen, action needs to happen, the hiearchy of needs needs to be met and transformation needs to occur. There are two other journals for the first two bullet points, they deserve their own journals and I am excited about those journals. This journal will be used to for the other 5 bullet points, this is where the focus needs to be at this stage in the transformation. What will it look like in practice...?... we will have to wait and see.

     

     


  6. 2022/3/19 (In China they write the dates this way.)

    Study time: 90 minutes. Concious word and character study.

    Next: 30 minutes of the a Japanese anime movie with Chinese dubbing.

    There is a distinciton between active and passive listening.

    Meditation and Concentration meditation really helps to make immerion more effective.

    Insight: Quality time with the language is more imporant than quantity.

    although: to achieve genuine native level fluency requires 1000s of hours and years of immersion practice, so it's actuall Quality AND Quantity.


  7. I need to get more engaged and disciplined with learning Mandarin Chinese. I am going to start journalling about it and documenting my process and journey to fluency. I think it deserves it's own journal.

    Methods:

    LingQ.com ( Reading & listening to immersive interesting content. Save word counts and save phrases. Easy access to dictionaries and definitions while reading.)

    Refold.com ( Immerson listening to real native content.) (I used the Chinese equivlent of Netflix to watch native tv shows and movies, i also have a TV in my apartment which is wired to Chinese television as I live in China.) I also have a load of DVDs i can play in my place which inlcudes a lot of amazing anime. lol.  Gotta love it.

    Concious study of words and characters. Write out the word or character a view times, speak out loud, practice the pronounciation, write the english meaning ( only one English meaning where possible, sometime it isn't possible because the words have multiple meanings that are totally unrelated.)

    Use Chinese grammar Wiki. Very clear and simple guide which focuses on patterns and not rules.

    Review word, patterns and grammar using Anki SRS ststem

    Practice speaking with my Chinese co workers in the office and random people out and about during the week. Most of my Chinese friends speak really good English, they tend to win the language power battle, also speaking Chinese when you suck sucks, the idea is to focus most of your attention on input then you can more naturally and effortlessy communicate more like a native, this seems to be my experience and the experience of many others. Requires patience though. Plus i am pretty inner focused, the input approach suits my lifestyle more.

    At this point after living in China for so long I have not doubt in my ability to become highly proficient in Mandarin I just need to take the action and put in the time. I hope this journal can help me do that by keeping me more focused and making the process more interesting and enjoyable. I am pretty fascinated by the process of language learning itself as well as the Chinese language itself and the Chinese culture itself, I hope the journal can also make these elements of the experience more interesting and give me a space where I can contemplate。

     

     


  8. Started another journal: 'Healing Trauma: A Journey of the Past, Present and Future.'

    I will maintain my original intention for this journal here as I enjoy using this journal as a more over arching big picture journal of the journey.

    Felt like it was the right time to begin trauma and healing work (working with coaches, therapitst and mindful support groups atm) and was inspired to start the journal after somebody mentioned such a journal. Good idea to make it a seperate journal though and not just lump everything into the same one.

    Hope both journals can be of value to people. I try to keep things short and sweet on here. I will do the same with the Healing Trauma Journal. I like it that way.


  9. @RickyFitts @Preety_India I might start a journal on this topic. I am currently doing life coaching and therapy and starting now will be moving into trauma and healing work, I am gathering resources to use along the way with this specific intention. I think I could start a Trauma Healing Journal and share some of the resources, contemplations and insights along the journey.

    Thanks for the idea, you're obviously welcome to start your own journals on the topic. Be great to learn from eachothers healing journey. I think at this stage keeping a journal on this trauma healing journey might be very beneficial for me and hopefully be helpful for others to read too.


  10. 2 hours ago, BirdNerd said:

    It's not any moves in particular but it's important that:

    1. He is obviously super into me
    2. He makes me feel beautiful and sexy
    3. He is eager to get me off and tries different ways until it works
    4. He easily takes the lead and knows when to be rough
    5. Cuddles after

    Girls seem to be pretty into me when I hit all these points. Good to know.

    If you can give her multiple orgasms in one session, that usually does the trick. It's a fine artform.

    I do things pretty slowly in the bedroom, with erotic moments of speed and being more rough, sensitive to how she is responding. Most women seem to respond well to and enjoy deep passion and sensuality. Try view the whole experience as ONE big beautiful passionate loving sensual blissful ecstatic orgasm where you both dissolve into the infinity of sexual nirvana.

    ( I am not a woman so do what you will with my comment.)


  11. @Spiral Wizard I wouldn't treat Kundalini with a lack of respect. It will fuck you up physically and mentally if you don't respect it and be honest with your Self and your capacities. If you do Kundalini properly you can literally enter with infinity and access psychedelic realms. I wouldn't even bother with adding the psychedelics. With enough kriya practice you'll be tripping all the time anyway, and it will be much more blissfully sustainable in the long term. 


  12. @FromSweden I like what Russell Brand said once:

    "I do meet people that are alright with the material world. 'I am a material girl living in a material world.' but for me, no. I sense and have always known that this is not it, that this is not real. Nobody gave me any grammar to explain it, becuase If you grew up in England, people don't talk about it, they just tell you to chase things like women, money, career, football and fame and the things that actually work you sort of dismiss like you owe them money, ' oh I have to avoid yoga and meditation' that have been portrayed by the mainstream as artificial or luxury. But it's not artificial or luxury, it's the most authentic thing there is, it's more real than any of us.

    If people don't need enlightenment then they don't need enlightenment, if there is not a problem then there is not a problem. But if you have some kind of scratch, some kind of itchy irritability, some yearning, some craving, some dissatisfaction, then perhaps it's because you're not looking in the right place and you need to look within, and that within you lies an infinite capacity for bliss through a connection to higher things." 

    - Russell Brand


  13. Yoga

    Yoga is a total system of practice. Body, mind, energy and spirit. It strengthens the body and it makes the body more healthy and flexible. It strengthens the mind and it makes the mind more healthy and flexible. It brings abundant vitality and energy to the whole body and mind. It strengthens the spirit by awakening the Self to its authentic and natural higher nature. By healing the conditioned ego agenda that blocks us from our authenticity and our True Higher Self, yoga transforms us. By healing ourselves through the practice, we actualize our authentic higher Self. It brings the entirety of the human being and their experience into complete balance, harmony and union.

    Namaste.


  14. @Brenzo2

    If it's your first time on MDMA and you're taking low doses you can also take Magnesium tablets to help relax the muscles in your face. MDMA tends to make the jaw rattle or 'gurn' as we put it in the UK. Chewing gum is also helpful. I've never done MDMA in a controlled low dose healing/spiritual manner, only in an uncontrolled high dose recreational manner. Either way, I would still suggest keeping some chewing gum nearby and making sure you've got a good uplifting or soothing electronic music playlist. Doesn't have to be heavy music, in fact, avoid music with a lot of lyrics. As you never know how the dose will effect you I'd  still say keep the music ready. It could be a part of your healing process and help you ride the waves of the MDMA more smoothly and gracefully, including the comedown.

    Be open to an afterglow. Comedowns aren't always bad, sometimes they're beautiful, especially if you're inexperienced. The more you do it and the higher the dose, the worse the comedowns get.

    Also it usually takes around 45 minutes from the moment you drop it to start to feel the effects. Make sure you wait at least an hour before you even consider taking any more, you don't wanna accidentally double dose and then get smacked in the face. It will not be pleasant.

    I wish I could take MDMA in a spiritual healing manner, but once you abuse it, it's no longer an option. So be grateful for your opportunity and respect the drug or it won't respect you.

    Anyways goodluck, stay safe and enjoy the journey. Hope it brings you what you're seeking and I wish you a happy afterglow without any following addiction and compulsions towards the drug.

    Peace.