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  3. Posted

    1 hour ago, PurpleTree said:

    Well in (radical) non duality they often talk about no self, no doership, no time and so on. So in that sense there isn’t a way in which you can approach anything because there is already no one. Whatever happens happens. That can also just be a story but for me it resonates.

    Whatever works for you is great. Radical non-duality isn't my first choice, but maybe that's a fault on my part in not having enough faith in the obviousness of the truth.

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    1 minute ago, PurpleTree said:

    Yea for me it’s not like the high dose psychedelic crazy patterns and visions. But just like a low dose, sometimes feelings of no self, loss of time, crazy colours, visual sharpness, bodily sensations and so on. And i don’t meditate. But inquiry and listening to non duality etc. is my meditation. Just like a lot of frequent glimpses basically.

    Good deal, I've heard of something similar. It's almost as if our success is dependent on the purity of our intention rather than our specific methods. It's very mysterious how the process can be approached from different angles.

    For all my talk about it, I don't meditate in the strict sense either. For me, it's all about a continuous paying of attention in the moment to "what is," which creates a very subtle sensation of presence. If one can just lock in and develop that, the rest seems to fall in place all by itself.

  5. Posted

    56 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

    Ok thanks yea at some point i will probably. But recently i often had psychedelic experiences without even taking anything. Just with mostly non duality and inquiry etc. and right now that’s fun enough.

    No problem.

    Right, it's good to keep in context that when using psychedelics, the molecules being ingested are either analogs of endogenous neurotransmitters, or in the case of DMT and 5-MeO-DMT, they're endogenous neurotransmitters themselves. There are many stories of dedicated sober meditation practitioners who experience morphing multicolored geometric shapes along with all other manner of psychedelia.

    If you can make a significant amount of progress without a psychedelic, then I salute you.

  6. Posted · Edited by What Am I

    1 hour ago, PurpleTree said:

    I’ve tried Ayahuasca thrice. But without ceremony and shaman. And yea it was crazy and hard to grasp.

     

    Did you plug the 5meo?

    5-MeO-DMT is radically different from DMT in my experience. Much more classically cosmic and less bizarrely strange.

    My favorite ROA has been subcutaneous injection. The effects and duration are nearly identical to plugging. Both are great ROAs for this chemical.

     

  7. Posted · Edited by What Am I

    4 hours ago, PurpleTree said:

    I actually have some but never tried it. Never felt like it and never really liked N N.

    I might go to some ayahuasca ceremonies or something.

    If you're a little hesitant about psychedelics, ayahuasca may scare the holy shit out of you, lol. It's so unbelievably crazy, with its weirdness being beyond what you could ever imagine.

    Give that 5-MeO-DMT another thought. And make sure your dose is reasonable and not excessive. It's worlds apart from DMT. Almost like a different class of psychedelic altogether.

  8. Posted

    40 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

    Yea that’s why "I" seemingly get more from being addicted to nondual nonsense and inquiry. Psychedelics are amazing (also very scary) like a firework but also very confusing and ephemeral. Also since my last trip i’m very hesitant to trip again unfortunately. But it will come again eventually inshalla.

    If you do use psychedelics again, try getting your hands on 5-MeO-DMT. Despite it producing the most intense effects, it's also often the least scary, especially at sub-breakthrough doses. This particular psychedelic has way less of a propensity to produce that terrifying "evil" effect that they're sometimes known for. Rather, it's just raw intensity.

    As a confidence booster, it could also be wise to have a trip killer on hand, like a small dose of a benzodiazepine.

  9. Posted

    4 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

    I never said it’s in the brain. Even science says we are made up of mostly space seemingly. In atoms between the nucleus and electrons the way I understand it. ^ Although that’s Also just a story.

    I just said it’s unknowable what’s going on, to me anyway. I feel like because it’s unknowable "people" want to make up fairy tales because the unknown is not acceptable for the ego.

    I can see what you're saying, in the sense that mysterious phenomena such as higher states of consciousness are fertile ground for people to make up their own mythologies around their experiences. I'm sure it happens all the time, and I'm sure their assumptions are often inaccurate. I guess I can't pretend to be excluded from this affliction either.

    Just now, PurpleTree said:

    What’s your most profound insights?

    My most profound insights, which were induced from direct experience via psychedelics and meditation, fall in line with those from all the consciousness-based traditions. On a breakthrough dose of 5-MeO-DMT, you have an ego death and are transported to a blinding hyperdimensional white light where it's experienced that you're both everything and nothing, and the singular omnipresent being in all of existence.

    I would call that the most profound, but there are plenty of others that are of a lower order. I'm of the opinion that the entities and dimensions experienced on a DMT breakthrough have an independent existence. An obscene amount of knowledge is seemingly crammed into your mind when in those states, but similar to a dream, it's as if it's difficult to retain it upon returning to ordinary bodily existence.

  10. Posted · Edited by What Am I

    8 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

     Insights seemingly appear almost everyday. Most are not very important. And about beliefs and such. Or trying to untangle from beliefs.

    I mean on psychedelics "experienced" so much weird stuff (mostly visions) jesus, hindu, space, hell, god, enlightenment etc. stuff but it’s hard to grasp so i don’t know how important it is.

    Getting addicted to nonduality talks it resonated that there’s no one and no free will/doer. But i also don’t know if that’s important. If there’s no one how can anything be important? Important to whom? How can anything be more important than anything else if let’s say all is kind of one.

    Nice, not bad. I was just trying to figure out what compelled you to post on the forum over 5,000 times, but it does sound like you at least have an interest in reality, even if you're currently convinced it's a pretty shallow reality.

    Did the hyperdimensional nature of your psychedelic trips ever make you question whether you may be witnessing something beyond just an experience occurring in your brain? Experiences of that type are so unbelievably intense, it can sometimes be a doorway into more uncommon beliefs.

  12. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    At the end of the day it's all One.  We just like to draw a bunch of imaginary lines because it puts stuff "behind the scenes" and makes it appear more enticing.  Ultimately everything in reality is right before you.  There's absolutely no mystery.  But that would be absolutely boring - besides shocking.  We'd much rather create a backstory.  Otherwise you have nothing.  And no one seems to like to sit with that.

    Yeah agreed, when you get right down to it, this is what I believe as well.

  13. Posted · Edited by What Am I

    9 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    That's precisely why I didn't use the term genetic.  Because genetics is still within fhe dream and is content. But the dreamer is what actually imagines the genetic component itself.

    For sure, but as I mentioned in my post right before this one, I think the mechanisms for all these highly advanced phenomena exist within the dream as well. So it'd almost make more sense to consider it a form of science rather than magic. Just that it's a highly esoteric form of science. And when you get down to the raw level, it is also truly just all consciousness. So it's kind of a case of both being true at once in my mind. With its contradictory nature being possible simply because God deems it so.

  14. Posted

    Just now, Javfly33 said:

    Isn´t materiality also consciousness?

    Body = Consciousness

    Air = Consciousness

    However how I see it:

    In the dualistic creation we are in, air have a different consciousness configuration than body (thats what makes your body not disintegrate into air, or the air become your body), so as Sadhguru says, there must be a 'transaction'.

    However, imagine you become so high conscious you dissolve the difference between the two, and you realize all this thing about your body needing air is just a game you are playing because you are not awake and you think you are inside a physical reality.

    I mean nothing more to say, SG basically just said literally the Yogui could stay without breathing because we was in absolute God Consciousness. At God consciousness why would you keep telling yourself you need air? You are too conscious to keep deluding yourself with those materialistic stories 

    Ultimately, it would seem you're correct about it all being consciousness. And that's a concept I fully subscribe to as well.

    But there's also something to be said for the illusion's importance, including all of its intricacies. It's easy to say it's all consciousness and sort of leave it there, but that might miss a whole range of phenomena that's between gross (material) and causal (God). That middle level is often referred to as the subtle (soul). It's in that zone where a shitload of extraordinary stuff becomes possible.

    Also, to be clear, I'm a believer in something along the lines of allowing your own transcendent energy to actively take over the revitalization of the body in place of the breath. There was a previous thread where someone asked the question, and I go in-depth into my views there. In fact, I believe much more is possible than just not breathing. But at the same time, I'm empathetic to someone like PurpleTree who's inclined to not believe it.

     

  15. Posted

    12 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    @What Am I Thanks and cool on your awakenings...but yeah I can't say it is really a skill.   When I stumbled onto spirituality I sat down in mediation for about two weeks when it happened.   So I'd say there is some truth to Leo's theory on some are born with the innate ability.  But I'd say It's also timing, age (life experience) and other factors, such as suffering.  But that is also part of life experience.   Fuck up a lot and suffer for it.  It actually goes a long way when you sit down and meditate or take psychedelics 😀 

    Yeah, no doubt on the notion of people being born with varying levels of innate access to this kind of thing. With everything I've seen, I wouldn't be surprised to find out the talent also comes from something that transcends materiality, in addition to having a genetic component.

  16. Posted

    12 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    Did you have awakenings via meditation or psychedelics?

    I have mild-to-moderate skill in meditation, but my most hardcore experiences so far have been from psychedelics. Many from both DMT and 5-MeO-DMT, as well as others.

    I'm a little hesitant to say I've had a full 100% awakening, but even if I haven't woken up and experienced the true fullness of consciousness, my eyes have definitely fluttered, so to speak. 5-MeO-DMT has a strong tendency to rip away your individuality and thrust you into the crown jewel of reality. It's so strong that it causes physiological changes and makes it easier to meditate sober, which has given it a unique place in my practice, even compared to other psychedelics.

    If I remember correctly, your skill has all been via sober meditation. I find that highly respectable. After all my experience exploring multiple layers of reality and beyond from psychedelic use, I've come to realize that the one state that offers the highest potential is full sobriety with a strong body and mind. It seems to be the perfect launching platform, assuming you have the guts to take advantage of it.

  17. Posted

    Just now, PurpleTree said:

    I feel like there’s just a lot of horse crap in spirituality and religion. And it’s not really helping anyone, it’s just confusing and keeping people trapped. Although maybe there isn’t even anyone who could be trapped.

    I hear you, and while I agree there's a bunch of trap-like subjects in spiritual teachings that can counterintuitively prevent further growth, I also think a lot of those details matter in developing a fuller understanding of how this all works.

    Taking the breath thing for example. There's some very relevant truth to the way your breathing modifies in higher states of consciousness, with a large acute reduction in need being something you can expect as you continue to gain in skill. It's not dissimilar to when you go to sleep, where your heart rate and respiration slowly decrease as you sink into dreaming and then dreamless states of sleep.

  20. Posted

    29 minutes ago, DieFree said:

    Elon Musk fired half the staff at twitter. Ad revenue went way down and some choppiness on the site appeared, but it still works.

    Now he wants to try that logic on the U.S government. 

    Can the U.S government be analogous to an online website? Is there a "code" once written works for the government, regardless of the numbers of engineers and requiring only some maintenace work? 

    Elon thinks so, and his net worth from code gives them all the assurance of the world. 

    Guide us ye great Tech bros, guide us to the promised land! You certainly will do an important part. 

    It looks like we're strapped in for the ride either way, so we'll just have to see what comes of it.

    If it's good, then the fruits should become apparent. And if it's bad, well, that would sure suck.

  21. Posted

    8 hours ago, Joshe said:

    I decided the guy was full of shit after listening to him speak, not because Kyle proved it. It is a bit of a hasty judgement on my part and I’m not highly confident in it, but a billionaire goes on a conspiracy theorists platform and talks conspiracies where the bogeyman is the left. Plus, his conspiracy sounds absurd on the face of it and I did pickup on some idiocy.

    TBH, I am relying on some quick heuristics, so I should have said “I think this guy is full of shit”. Lol.

    Right on, you're not crazy for being suspicious if even I feel the same way.

    8 hours ago, Joshe said:

    I agree about Kyle. He’s far from advanced. I didn’t mean to convey his analysis is perfect, but I think he made a couple strong points. The reason Kyle is useful to me is because he’s more educated on politics and political history than I am and I believe him to be sincere and more integrous than most, even if not the brightest. I actually think his wife is brighter, but less integrous.

    Yes, and she's much prettier as well. :P

  23. Posted

    6 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    They don't need to prep Andreessen. These guys live in their own libertarian fantasy worlds, bullshitting each other, blowing smoke up each others asses. It's just their self-serving worldview. The TechBro egochamber.

    And then guys like Rogan and Lex whitewash and publicize their BS.

    lol, maybe so. It could just be such a strong aligning of incentives that it allows their scam to appear so "hand in glove."

    I'm not convinced yet either way of what's going on, but I am thankful for the feedback from the forum to keep me honest.

  24. Posted · Edited by What Am I

    I will admit, though, that it was shady of Andreessen to not name any names. If he was trying to expose something, keeping it so vague is not the way.

    As a conspiracy theorist myself, I can't deny the possibility that the Tech Bros prepped Andreessen, sent him on Rogan, and had him craft a narrative as a pretext to make it easier for Musk to wipe out the CFPB once he gets into power, with all of this being done as a power grab to create some kind of authoritarian future. It's the type of stuff that keeps Hardkill up at night, lol.

    But yeah, I concede, I won't keep trying to defend this one. I'm coming around to seeing the potential other side. A claim of that magnitude with no backup whatsoever isn't worth my time to defend.

    Side note, I still stand by my dislike of Kyle. It certainly wasn't his video that turned the tide in my mind. As I did more research on my own, the holes in Andreessen's claim, along with the glaring lack of evidence, became more apparent.

  25. Posted

    @Joshe I personally think Kyle is unbelievably overrated. He's just not a smart enough person to be a contender at this level. You guys in the forum give way more intelligent pushback.

    Obviously, Andreessen wasn't saying that anybody in the US who's of the wrong political persuasion is being targeted for debanking. That's a strawman bordering on the absurd. The targets he described were in the tech and financial sectors, and more specifically those working on crypto start-ups. Kyle's evidence for the benevolence of the CFPB was just a line in a tweet, a Google search, and one time when he lost his credit card and they provided assistance.

    Now, I'm not saying any of Andreessen's claims are actually true, because I simply have no idea. But if they are true, that'll be a matter of record and fact, and I would hope the new administration brings it to light. If it's false, there'll be no evidence, and nothing will happen.

    But good god, Joshe, use someone like Destiny for your influx of information. Kyle is such weak sauce, and I think you can (and have) done a better job than him at getting to the truth of any particular matter. I wouldn't be surprised if he watched this 2-minute clip of a 3-hour podcast and formed his opinion solely from that. And then he decided that if he gets animated enough and emotional enough, his paper-thin counterargument will be accepted by the dim masses.

    Sorry, lol, I just really dislike this level of discourse. You can definitely dunk on the notions presented in the Rogan episode, but this ain't it.