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8 hours ago, Lila9 said:I think that they mock you because you feel ashamed of your attraction to women. Some people will mock you once they see some weak spots in you because they feel insecure inside and mocking others makes them feel more confident. In your case, you think that your weak spot is your attraction to them, but the real weakness is the shame of being attracted to them, the inner act of disowning your feelings of attraction. Ask yourself what is so shameful about being attracted to women and you will find that you have nothing to be ashamed of. And then you will start to own it, and once you will really own it and be confident about it, they will no longer mock you and chances they even will be more attracted to you.
Wow very interesting. Thanks
Actually when i think about it, i also experienced getting mocked by men, not because i was attracted to them, but because i think they didnt like to witness my weak spots as if they were afraid to be associated with that.
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1 hour ago, NoSelfSelf said:Can you explain me what specifically you do to be liked by a woman?
Hmm i think i just try to be cool or attractive in a way
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How they treat me in those situations
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Hey guys
i often get mocked by women who feel that im kinda attracted to them, while i feel insecure and not very confident, or more like when im just trapped thinking about how to behave or what to say in order to get liked.The mocking shows itself in very subtle passive aggressive attacks, such as apeing what i say for example.
I dont know if this is a real thing that women do. I wonder if it is them just reacting to that uptight vibe, or if they want to shame me because they feel dishonored, that such a cheap looser thinks he could get her.??or am i just psychotic and my mind makes this all up, because im in a very poor state, that goes hand in hand with self-sabotaging patterns?
Does anyone experience that too?
Thanks
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i have gone through dark times like u explain them too. i didnt have to go to the psychiatry. im really glad, i was horrified of the psychiatrists......
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On 4.7.2021 at 0:26 PM, Eternal Unity said:I started my spiritual path somewhere in 2007/2008 but i wasn't really serious about it until I started studying philosophy at university in late 2010. In December of 2010, after reading Spinoza's Ethics, I had my first mystical experience. I, of course, didn't know what it was. I had an extreme emotional upheaval. An existential crisis.
I didn't sleep for over 72 hours, I was dehydrated and had a fever of 105. I had a near death experience on Dec 21st, 2010. I didn't care about all of this ; just wanted to read philosophy and deepen my understandings because I felt I discovered the truth.
My mother noticed a change in my behavior and i tried to explain to her all the knowledge I came upon. Pretty soon she called a doctor. A psychiatrist. The meet with him was highly disturbing for me. He diagnosed me with a psychotic attack and recommended a willful hospitalization in a psychiatric hospital in which he worked. We agreed. I was hospitalized on Dec 23rd, 2010.
For the next few days I received a high dose of anti psychotic medication and in my interviews with the medical staff I went on and on about how I am an eternal being, that I discovered The True God, that all of reality is One. They took notes and said: "Yes. of course you are"
3 weeks later, my condition worsened. I was totally detached from reality, according to my doctors. I had to be moved to a closed ward. And so I did. I hardly remember much from that time, being hazy from the meds. I spent 12 days there. At a certain point i realized who was there with me: murderers, sex offenders and terrorists. All of whom declared incompetent on the basis of insanity. I literally walked through the valley of the shadow of death but I feared no evil for I knew God is with me every step of the way. "You'll get throught this, Greg. You must! The world has to know what you now know." God told me. it was my 23rd birthday. "Endure these thoughts most impure, these pitch black insights. For this is the forging of a master." Somehow I survived. My condition improved and I was returned to the open ward. I integrated my soul for another three months with careful and gentle accompaniment of a female doctor. I also met a girl. a fellow patient. She was 19 and dark skinned. She tried to commit suicide by swallowing sleeping pills with vodka. We got close, helped each other through the hard times we were in and she was my first kiss
My state of consciousness returned to normal and on April 27th, 2011 I was released. I found a job 3 months later (My academy philosophy study came to an end. They wouldn't accept me back after missing 4 months). My mother and I thought it was for the best.
I started a healthy research into the nature of consciousness but it wasn't a smooth ride. I wasn't hospitalized again but had a psychosis on 2 other occasions. Last year I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. A rare condition that has elements of both Schizophrenia and Bi-Polar Disorder. I continue to take medication.
But my story is not so bleak. I had awakenings, as well. Positive ones. Eight of them. Some into the nature of love, wisdom and time. After over 10 years of mental, conscious and mystical experiences I have a unique insight into some of the darkest experiences it is possible to endure as a human being and into some of the most blissful. I had it all along the spectrum
This is the first time I am sharing these details to anyone other than my therapists, doctors, social workers, coaches and mentors.
Thanks for reading ? It means a lot!
Greg
Wow this is truely moving!!! Thanks for sharing
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A clown can call out a kings bullshit, because he is not being taken serious. I used to be the clown in my high school years, it was funny but in the end i often felt shallow and sad.
But i guess as long as u can maintain a healty balance it is very freeing and healthy.This phenomena has been known for a long time.
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Lately I’ve been going out sometimes. I notice often that girls are interested/attracted to me, but then as soon as I somehow start talking to them they lose interest. I think it is because, my confidence drops as soon as I interact with them, because I really feel how my energy gets stuck and I move into my head. In these situations I than stop investing to much effort in her and continue dancing, which than makes me feel more lose and confident again, leading to that I somehow feel or notice, that she’s getting interested again.
Once I was out with a group of people and I notice one girl being attracted to me, we went on from one place to another until everyone except us left. Then in the end when I tried to get closer to here and kiss here she resisted and didn’t want to kiss, so I finally said “well then I guess I leave” which made her curious that she asked me where I would go. It felt like she was asking because she wanted to find out if she would miss out on me, if I would be focusing myself on other girls. I told her that I would go home, she then said ok and we separated.
Am I conceit or is this common?
My question now is if anyone here experienced something like that too.
Also im not sure if I overestimate the extent of my own perception about her being attracted or not…
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Does anyone have an idea how i can overcome the need to swallow when im nervous or anxious? It happens to me when im around people whom i care what they think of me, or when i feel intimidated by high value people or attractiv women.
Any idea?