the_void_of_chaos

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    For me:
     

     

    I was really struggling with nihilism and really depressed about it...I was 16 or 17 maybe. I was looking for some inherent meaning to life but missed the obvious that I can create my own meaning! 

    I've been always alone and I think that it's really easy to criticise and blame yourself at every action you take especially when you're young.

    Just awesome!

     

    It gave me grounding in my own actions and cause.

     

    Painting a picture. 

    I remember sitting on my couch when I was around 12 looking for something on YouTube to help me attract girls ?...I watched through dozens of videos and everything was okay-ish.
    Everyone was talking about how you have to be confident but they never explained what it really means. "Do I have to act confident? What is confidence? How will I know I am acting confident?" It was too shallow for me and then one of Leo's videos appeared in my suggestion (back when it wasn't great camera quality) and I instinctively clicked on it and when the video started I thought..."Actualized.org...hmm...that's a strange name for a YouTube channel. This dude looks strange too. Why it there a black background? And then I started listening to him. He was probably talking about self-esteem and how you gotta work on yourself..."hmm...he's different but it makes sense" and it got my wheels spinning and I watched a bunch of his videos (including how to make a girl squirt ?). I lost him after that for a few years and I really searched for him until when I was 15 or 16, he reappeared on my YouTube feed. I'm 20 now and he has been like a father to me and I really look up to him. I am biased but I really Love him.

    I've been going to a crematory ground with a friend and looking at burning bodies from a distance and just thinking about it. How the flames look so big and beautiful but a body is burning in it...will be my body someday...and then the flames start settling down and people start leaving in their cars and how the person got left behind (obviously he's dead but psychologically speaking) but also how it's really necessary for them to let go of him. There's peace in an end somehow. Time stops...combined with a river and a sunset...it's humbling. I wanna see more dead bodies burning but my friend is too scared and dismissive. I'll go there alone and really sit...I wanna gaze at 100 dead bodies burning for a 100 days so I can die with them and fully live on the 101st day...if that makes any sense. Why do we forgot that we'll die? I'll die someday and I can't do anything about it.
     

    Btw, this exists ?. I'll watch it.

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    I have a feeling that you're not really thinking and maybe thinking too hard about it. There's no lubrication in the process i.e., feelings.

    36 minutes ago, woohoo123 said:

    Then in my mind stuff comes in like pleasure is not possible without pain etc.

    Do you feel that you're trying to somehow justify to yourself that pain and suffering is needed?
     

    41 minutes ago, woohoo123 said:

    But none of that explains to me (in a satisfactory manner) why God would 'design' pain and suffering in the first place and allow humans to experience it

    I can't tell for pain but I can tell you something about suffering. Some suffering is needed and you can't avoid it but also, you decide how much suffering is required for you to change. Say, for example, you want to write an essay and you're watching TV and you're procrastinating. Soon you'll start feeling bad about not doing the essay. Now you can do it. But if you don't, you'll emotionally suffer more. You'll decide how much suffering is needed for you to start writing the essay. You decided that. You allowed yourself to suffer. But if you decide that you should suffer more first and then start your essay, this will a habit. This is a simplification obviously.

     

    50 minutes ago, woohoo123 said:

    But can one also feel appreciation for God for the pain they experience too?

    I don't personally think that way. Running with the idea of "enjoying/appreciating" pain in the common sense means you'll become a masochist. You can "enjoy" it in a spiritual sense by allowing the emotion to exist without interfering with its existence or allowing it to interfere with yours. You'll become insecure if you try to get rid of it.

     

    1 hour ago, woohoo123 said:

    other than the fact God likes it

    What do you like? 

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    @Manusia iPhones are much safe. I'm an iOS developer, I know how strong the safety of Apple is. Now obviously some information is shared in both android and iOS but that's mostly harmless. Unless you share your Apple ID and password with someone, your iPhone probably won't get hacked. But for an android device, it's really very easy to hack someone's phone. You would just need someone's android phone unlocked for a minute and your privacy is gone. 

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    Not so better version of the anime Monster...


    "Once upon a time, a little boy was taken away
    From his family and friends and was molded by the Nazis’ evil sway

    A twisted version of their Fuhrer was their invidious plan
    To turn the child into a monstrous psychopath with an incurable god-complex

    In this new world, his thoughts and actions were beyond reproach
    He was intelligent and powerful, manipulated everyone like a puppet on a strings

    The Nazis thought he would be a perfect puppet for their plots and schemes
    Little did they realize, the child was too cunning in his evil schemes

    He toyed with his captors, using their ambition to his own ends
    Hypothetically pitting them against one another until the Nazi reign ended

    He became a secret ruler, a puppet master with a sinister plan
    Forever hidden in the shadows, controlling the world as through a clandestine game of chess

    The boy may have left this world, but his legacy of destruction will forever remain
    The cruel and bitter shadow of his predilection upon the world will never fade."

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    @Tyler Robinson @Gesundheit2  You can use Upwork for hiring freelance developer. Hire a professional with good rating, submit the money in escrow...if you don't like the work, tell the dev to fix it and if you still don't like it, your money is safe, you don't have to pay. Also, there are no hidden charges when submitting an app to Google Play Store or Apple App Store. The developer just needs an account (which obviously he has), complete the app, show it to you and if you like it then you can approve for submitting for review. The app store will review the app. When it's approved (note that app store will know if the app has any hidden features or virus in which case it won't get approved), you can create your own developer account which costs ~25 dollars for android and 100 dollars for iOS and transfer the app to your account. The source code will also be included so if in future your app needs some changes, you can hire the same person or some other freelancer. Also, freelancers don't cost much...if you want to hire a professional freelancer, it will cost ~500-1000 dollars. Also, there are agencies you can work with...high reputation, senior developers. But given the site's UI, I don't think it will be a great idea to build an app for it.

  24. Posted · Edited by the_void_of_chaos

    In case you people don't know, there is a playground for OpenAI in which you can use different trained models. This main user-friendly interface uses davinci-003 model but there are different models you can use too. Just go to - beta.openai.com/playground. There is an option there called temperature. You can change the temperature to vary the creativity of the model. If the temperature is high, the model will take more risk and "think" out of the box which also means that it will not be always correct. But if you need more creative answers, you can increase the temperature. There are other options you can play around with too! ?

    Edit: You can go to - beta.openai.com/examples to see different categories too. Btw, there is a rate limit of ~10 requests/min for the beta version.