have never experienced at least not on there level. I have to let go of the generational mindset of racism and feeling like I have to hold on to the negative perceptions of my elder relatives. The truth is their reality is not my reality. Their reality doesn't exist anymore. My reality is wants in from of me now not yesterday. (Thanks Leo).
I feel like social media is trying to rewind this past emotion of fear and inequality and that they keep pushing the repeat button. Yeah you got bad people in this world and you have black people being killed by cops. Injustice does exist in this world and it always will. I choose to take my feelings out of it all. I'm not gonna allow other things around me influence my sleep or day anymore. So I will just say it. American history has some messed track record with blacks that's true. I was not involved in the good or the bad of it and I want be involved in the bad of it now. I will be apart of the good. If I don't want to be judged then I got to stop judging others. (Got that from Leo). When I judge others I judge everyone and everything. So forgive me. I forgive myself for judging others. For stereotyping others and mind you I judge my own race more harshly than any other race. Forgive me please. I just want my life back.
