Rolo

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    There are a lot of ways to make money, The perspective of most rich people is a stage orange perspective which mostly relies on a selfish attitude that is of no service to others. To have a better understanding of "These dudes" I would suggest looking into orange and see how they make their money, on that note have a aim to go for a stage green source of income.

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    43 minutes ago, Lyubov said:

    I’ve had a lot of mental and emotional problems in the past but have done a ton of healing and am in an amazing place.

    thing is I still find myself very much attracted to girls that are very feminine and beautiful but have a ton of insecurities and emotional problems themselves. There is something so sexy to me about the overly dramatic neurotic hot girl that is needy and causes problems. 
     

    Healthy girls seem boring or like not as edgy or as hot as fire yet I know I should start focusing on resolving this attraction and perusing high consciousness women who are working on themselves.

    anyone notice this before and have you been able to resolve or make some sense of this ?

    I'm the same, I find I can project my own insecurities onto them, it's like a mutual suffering where I feel understood and loved.

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    So I have been working with the sexual orgasm and have found the implosive orgasm to be beneficial for giving me more energy and having a quality of integrating energy in the body, whereas the explosive orgasm has been a release of energy which has generally had a disappointing end.

    Having the explosive orgasm generally happens when I watch porn and I am usually most often left disgusted having a orgasm to the porn.

    So what is the healthiest and most direct approach to fulfilling desires? Is it better not to ejaculate and keep the energy in the body to use for more creative and productive things or is there a profound release that I'm missing from having a explosive orgasm?

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    7 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Of course hormones play a role. But that's not really fair either. Yeah, it's easy to "transcend" sexual desire by cutting your balls off. But that's not really a transcendence of desire, that's just tuning your body to stop producing the desire. That's like saying I have transcend my desire for dick -- simply by virtue of the fact that I wasn't born gay. By that logic I am a master of transcending the desire for dick. It never even arises for me. But do I really deserve credit for that?

    And furthermore, to say that one has transcended sexual desire simply because one has no sexual opportunities, is also a kind of cheat. The real test is when a hot girl rubs her ass in your lap and you are still able to say no.

    How can people be born gay? It doesn't make sense that someone can be born gay when their biological function is specific to one gender. Sexuality is a human creation, our biological sex is built for our survival as a species.

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    3 hours ago, Username said:

    @Rolo  Are you using porn when you are anxious? You may have deep fear about something and this is the way to release.

    Maybe you are scared of being dominated by a female, or you are afraid that your girlfriend will be transgender, or you hold strong indentification with being heterosexual. Maybe you should imagine yourself being gay?

    When you hold strong preference you create a tension. Watching uncomfortable videos (confronting with your great) help you to release it.

    Yes that makes sense. I need to go into what I am running away from. The fear for me is it changing my identity, but I guess l gotta do what I want to do.

  19. Posted · Edited by Rolo

    What methods do you use to centre yourself?

    I used to centre myself by breathing into the belly but I found I would get caught up in thought and sensation so I think I and going to start centring at the head because I find it's easier to observe thought from there and I am not as emotionally disturbed.

    I find I am doing different things all the time and never truly find a technique that works for me. I think I am lacking in observing thought so I think I am going to stick with keeping awareness at the head and see how I go.

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    13 hours ago, egoeimai said:

    Just be okay with it Rolo

     Don't put too many labels on it. Let it be. 

    P.s. it's sexy 

    That's the thing, It is sexy and I want to be sexy too but this whole idea of me being sexy as a guy is a different representation than a transgender.

     

    39 minutes ago, Username said:

    I think that it turns you on because you think it's inappropriate. That's how repression works.

    I have created a heap of shame and guilt about making it inappropriate, I find it to be a difficult thing to accept as a porn category.

  21. Posted · Edited by Rolo

    Dicks! I have developed this transgender fetish that I am not happy about.  It feels like it's not healthy for me and not what I want to have as my sexuality, but I still keep going back to the chicks with dicks. I carry this shame about it because I don't want to be homosexual.

    I am really trying to have a healthy sexuality but I am really struggling with what to understand to mature my sexuality. It feels like this aspect of my sexuality has deviated my feminine shadow.