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  1. Hello, everybody.

    Lately, I've been feeling pretty sad and down due to the ending of a friendship.

    Let's call him U. We had been friends since we were 14. We hanged out with the same group, and even went to college together, where things turned out badly. 

    He started to hang out with other people that I did not like at all. We just did not get on well. Eventually, he started dating a girl of that group, M.

    He had pretty bad behaviours towards me: he would abandon me most of the time in order to stay with that gruop, he did not even tell me when an exam was leaked, etc. I felt really lonely. 

    Also, her gf was such a bad person, she would yell and riduculize him in front of all the class. They did get on well, but her character was pretty unbearable.

    Due to that, I critizized him and M a couple of times with our common group of friends, with the intention of sharing how I felt. They were also my friends, after all.

    Something happened, and two fellow members, A and B, got mad at me, so they told U that I was talking shit about him and her gf.

    He then stopped talking to me. A year has passed, and the only time we talked was because I called to tell him that I was going to be a dad, and he did not give a s***. He told me that he was fine, that he would call anyone he would like to see, and that he was already used to hang out with our group that way. That he was not going to show up whenever I was around, and that's it.

    I think her gf has a lot to do with it, but still.

    I know that it does not look like a big deal, but sometimes, I feel devastated. I cannot understand how could he just erase me from his life that way and not even call me when my daughter was born. He was really important to me, and because I talked some bad, yes, things, as a relief when he was such a prick with me (he knew that, I told him about how lonely and totally despised I felt), he just cut off any relashionship with me, even without hearing my version, he just listened to A and B, and he erased me from his life.

    I try to let go of the sadness, but it always comes back.

    Anything you would like to comment, is greatly appreciated.

    Thanks a lot for reading.

  2. Hello there, y'all.

    After my 5-meo-dmt experience, I had this realization where I could see/feel/intuite/know (there's not really a word) that all of us living beings are infinitely intelligent. I see this crystal clear.

    In addition, I recall Leo talking about how it is possible to tap into this Infinite Intelligence (the episode was "What is Intelligence?", if a remember correctly), but saying that it was a topic for another video. He mentioned that people were actually achieving all their goals (related to greed, making money, especially) manifesting this Inifinite Intelligence.

    My question is, are there any resources about the topic? Leo, are you planning to shoot a video about it? What's more... Is the spiritual practice headed towards tapping into this Intelligence?

    I heard about Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich", this book has a lot of recommendations and I am intended to read it, but I want to know more about it, how to manifest it. I want to be concious of using my/our universal intelligence to understand it all.

    As always, thanks for the love.

  3. 11 hours ago, OBEler said:

    Is there a possibility to skip this hell part for newbies and just go directly into love?

    Probably, but it'd require a prior spiritual practice. For me, this hell part was tremendously important. Hard, but necessary. I have had this experiences a lot, and this last one with 5-meo-dmt has shown me where I am. That I have a lot of work to do and so many aspects of my ego to surrender. Also, it has shown me how powerful this can be for my spiritual practice: contemplating my mortality triggers the ego tremendously. Aslo, it keeps me motivated! There's no time to waste.

    Again, that's just my case. It can be any other way for you. Do the work! There's no regrets.

  4. Phew!

    Well, I finally gave a step forward, and had my first experience with the God molecule. I am going to try to be concise. I have some questions that I'd love to share with you.

    It was back in April 29th. My first psychedelic experience ever. 24 yo, male, healthy. Smoked 15 mg of freebase with a common meth pipe. The effect was instantaneous.

    As far as the experience is concerned...

    I was literally dying. I did not want to die. I was thinking about my loved ones, how they were going to find me dead in my house. My heart was racing, and I was terrified. I did not want to die. After a while (2 minutes of hell), I tried to surrender, and I think I partially succeeded. This part was pretty hard, yet not unfamiliar. I sometimes have had this sensation or feeling when thinking about death, about how inevitable it is.

    However, after those 2 minutes, I was invaded with an amazing feeling of love. It was love as I never felt before, especially to my most loved ones. It was not an unconditional indiscriminate universal love, but a freaking intense feeling, nonetheless.

    I spent the next 30 minutes in pure joy, I even recorded myself, and had some insights that I felt were extremely obvious. They came from nowhere, I just knew that these insights were nothing but the truth. Again, they were plainly obvious.

    - Everything is as it has to be.

    - We can, literally, get everything we want. We just have to wish and believe. We are infinitely intelligent.

    - We have everything we need right NOW. There's nothing to do, nowhere to go, no goals to achieve. The now is perfect.

    - When you understand that, everything is love. There is no pain, as everything is as it has to, there's only the acceptance of the present moment, because, well, it is all there is, and it is perfect as it is.

    - I died, and nothing happened. Everything stayed the same.

    That's the best I can explain my experience, and my interpretation.

    My biggest question, is: what is this irrational, incredibly powerful and terrifying fear of death? As I said, I had this apparently random "fear-of-death-attacks" since I was 13, twice a year on average, not triggered by any psychedelics. I always thought it was just denial of my own mortality, my fear of ceasing to exist.

    As I said, that was my first experience. I don't know if my experience was infuelced my preconcibed ideas of enlightment, which are talked in this forum or in the videos, but that genuinely what I felt. What I understood.

    Thanks for reading. Keep up the good work. This is no shit the journey of a lifetime. To know, to feel, to understand it all. It's pure magic.


  5. Wow, thanks to all for taking your time... Really appreciated.

    There are A LOT of profound insights in what you have told me. I've been meditating since September everyday, but just for 10 minutes. I need to spend more time and tol introduce some exercises you have suggested.

    @This is the end I have not have any 'paranormal' or mystic experiences, so you can see I'm pretty stubborn when it comes believing this phenomena. I'm not dismissing you though, it's just too radical and unkown for me to accept. But I will do what you say, I will empty my mind and try to not taking things for granted.

    @Leo Gura Wow, that is like REALLY unbelievable. It just saddens me. How can I be so decieved? Like SO PERFECTLY decieved?

    Thanks a lot, @Nahm, for introducing me to such fantastic people. I'm just keep on reading and reading your words. They are going to be really, really helpful. Appreciated, man. Honestly.

    @Inliytened1 I'm on my way to it ;) Thanks, I am excited for having the oppotunity to meet such interesting people!

    @Guru Fat Bastard I will do contemplation work, thank you...

    I also want to say that I have had some glimpses when suddenly reality as I know it (my life, this world, my everyday life) stopped making sense, like it was too 'good' to be true, too 'unlikely' to even BE the way it is, that I was too lucky to be alive. How the hell is it possible to just BE...

    Can you advice or suggest me any powerful technics to help me in my journey towards enlightment? I am really commited into this work. If I make relevant progress, I will post it here. Thanks to all, from the bottom of my heart.


  6. Hello everyone, 

    I'm new here, so, first of all, nice to meet you, I am really excited!  The question I am droppning here may be too "basic" for most of you, so I honestly appreciate your time to help me out.

    I'm actually struggling to make a distinction between brain activity and conciousness. The way I see it, injuries or drugs, for example, have a remarkable impact on the brain and our whole perception of reality, so, undoubtedly, there is correlation (yet not necessarily causation). But when the brain shuts down (when we are deeply asleep or even dead), conciousness stops, there's no more perceptions, no more reality. It doesn't matter if it's 8 hours or 5 minutes, you cease to be aware. I am also very triggered by that emotion occasionally, to the point where I even loose my mind whewn thinking about my non-existence. I has hit me really, really hard sometimes, 8 times or so in my life (I'm 23), and is unchained as easily as watching a movie. The rest of the day I am OK with my own mortality, so I just can not grasp the singificance this rare and uncommon psychotic attacks. 

    On the other hand, I have seen the "Why brains do not exist", but I just can not see through. Conceptually, I feel like I'm missing some essencial point.

    I think the following video explains, more or less, my point of view (just don't watch the whole thing, from 4:50 - 6:35 is enough). 

    So the quiestion arises... Doesn't that brain-conciousness relation prove that? Doesn't consciousness emerge from matter? 

    I'd appreciate if you could clue me in. Thanks a lot!