Wonderer

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  1. 49 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    Hard to say, everyone's experience is different so what is normal?  Perhaps it will pass.  I sleep like a log so i can't say...You may have a talent for lucid dreaming - there are many posts about it in the forum.   

    @Inliytened1 thats true, i dont even know what normal is anymore.... Well ill be! just read into lucid dreaming! seems quite interesting haha, might give it a go :)


  2. 7 hours ago, Inliytened1 said:

    @Wonderer great job this is transcending your ego - being free of it and not a slave of it.   Transcending the ego requires higher consciousness and going meta - being aware and catching your ego behaving in a certain way mechanically and then countering.  It's very counterintuitive :)

     

    @Inliytened1 Thanks! yeah as soon as im aware of it i change my course of action, its pretty powerful, i feel like ive got some new sort of power haha xD.

    However ive also noticed my awareness is shifting over into my sleep, im becoming aware that im dreaming and waking up like 3 times a night where i used to sleep right through which is annoying. is this normal?


  3. 12 hours ago, Nickyy said:

    You're developing free will. There is no free will as long as you are ruled by unconscious processes. That's why blame is an illusion and unconditional love is the only logical choice. You can't blame a programme for doing what it does. 

    What's left when you have no more expectations of others? 

    @Nickyy I guess there is just love left and no attachment or a need for anything?


  4. I’ll throw my 2 pennies in here.

    I’ve got a lot of experience with online dating, serious amounts (not bragging, was a sex addict which made me depressed in the end)... slept with many girls from tinder and bumble.

    It’s an easy way to meet girls, however Leo is right that it is superficial and looks are up there compared to normal bar pickup.

    However this doesn’t mean to say that you can’t punch higher than your belt with girls on online dating, if your bio comes across funny (funny gets fanny) and confident then this will throw you in much better stead than a good looking guy with a mundane bio.

    Also you need really strong text game.

    And this is just the start really… you can charm them all you want online but you need to meet up in person and execute, where you need similar skills to bar pickup.


  5. 22 hours ago, reves said:

    Hi there! Thanks for sharing your experience. Sounds like you are try to go to fast.

    Going from 100 to 225 ug in my experience is a lot! I haven't tried 5-MeO-DMT yet, but from what I have read, it will also increase the potency of all the psychedelics you use after.

    I had some similar very hard trips on 4-AcO-DMT, and I learnt that the dose was to high for me. I also had this feeling that I was really going to  physically die. But after working on integrating these trips I have managed to trip again and go deeper in the process.

    So, yes it would be wise to work on integrating this hard experience before you plan to trip again!

    @reves  your right, I’m definitely going too fast, I am trying to run before I can walk.

    i just thought as LSD can’t do much damage that I’d take it and get a real taste of non duality... I got what I asked for I guess ?

    21 hours ago, Mel B said:

    Yeah, 5-Meo-Dmt makes other psychedelics more intense. So be careful because you may wanna reduce dosages for future trips.

    This is just my experience, but when you feel like if you fall asleep you gonna die, fall asleep and die! since it’s mostly  the ego trying to hold on and trying to control the experience. 

    Take your time to integrate the experience. But remember that psychedelics are a powerful and helpful tool!
     

    Cool trip report thanks for sharing!

     

    @Mel B yeah I really didn’t account for the 5 MeO before taking it, school boy error.

    hmm I think your right it was my ego hanging on, but honestly there isn’t a distinction between ego death and physical death. They are the same thing. My ego finds this the scariest thing of all.

    21 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    @Wonderer That's just your ego reacting against Truth. You were scared to fully pumb it.

    Your dose was too high too fast so you got a good mindfucking.

    That's still just the tip of the mindfuck iceberg. So watch out.

    Death is imaginary.

    @Leo Gura yeah I was definately a scaredy-cat. I’m over it now but again as there isn’t a distinction between the ego dying and physical death. That’s the major head fuck that my ego couldn’t grasp.

    hmmm I don’t know how much deeper I can go? I was reality for what seemed like an eternity at the time. I had no idea of what I was, no memory... nothing.. I was just everything... then the ego came back and spoiled the show.

    but much to learn I still have...

    hmmm I understand that life and death are duels and are the same thing... but imaginary? It seems to be the realist thing I’ve been through haha ?


  6. Ok so I decided to take a moderately-large dose of LSD on the weekend.

    i had been experimenting with vaping 5 MeO and got a taste of non duality.

    i had only done 100ug of lsd before this and that hit me hard... I think I’m abit of a lightweight on psychedelics.

    i took the LSD and within 2 hours I couldn’t distinguish myself from my room... there was no letting go... it felt like my ego was dragged and torn away from my body...I don’t know if the 5 MeO experiments I had been doing days before amplified the effects of the LSD...

    those 3 hours felt like an eternity... I lost the concept of time it seemed infinite... I was everything... forever... it was mind blowing...

    after 3 hours my ego started to come back, I started to remember  My name, that I had kids, that I had a job etc...

    I started to freak out, as there was no distinguishing for my ego whether the ego was dying or the body was dying... they seemed like exactly the same thing... even now I don’t know whether my body was dying or not... I was really cold and got insanely tired towards the end of the trip... felt like fighting for my life when my ego came back... don’t know if the body was dying or not... I felt like if I went to sleep I would of died at the end... but I gathered myself and got up...

    ive read that barely any people die whilst on LSD but shittttt... it sure felt like the body was dying I felt exhausted... no energy the trip wiped me out and my heart was pounding so hard it hurt...

    looking back on it, it was infinitely beautiful being reality... but it was also infinitely lonely and terrifying...

    think my psychedelic days are on hold for now until I fully integrate what I’ve been through. And when I do take them again, I’m only going to take very small doses... 

     


  7. 18 hours ago, nowimhere said:

    @Wonderer - I haven't got pluggin to work for me... Yet. 

    But if you want smoking to work for you try this ... (I've had over 10 breakthroughs doing this)

    In a regular glass pipe, first, get a small layer of ash at the bottom , to act as a screen. Then put a layer or two of mullein leaves on top of that (most organic shops have this) then put your dose on top of that (breakthrough dose for me is 14mgs) then , and this is important.. put another small  layer of mullien leaves on top of THAT. Enough so the dose is completely covered, but not too much as if you were packing a bowl of weed. 

    You should be able to take it all in one hoot. Hold it in as long as possible, and as soon as you blow out... you'll be GONE.

    I'm guessing why "vaping" didn't work for you is cause it doesn't burn everything all at once. Which is what you need for MeO. I stumbled across this "sandwhiching" method after dozens of hours of reseach. It's worked for me, and a friend of mine too. Give it a go and let me know how you do.

    P.S- If solo tripping, I suggest having a face towl on your bed coiled up like a snake, so that when you take your hoot you can safetly place it there (so your don't burn your house down lol) 

    @nowimhere

    Thanks, i actually bought i pipe and lighter for this reason, just was a little skeptical as i know it hits you like a truck when you smoke it and doesnt last that long!

    That method is really appreciated as i didnt have a clue how to smoke it!

    If plugging isnt for me then ill definately try it!

    Did you find that you freaked out more on lower doses than a higher dose?

     

     


  8. On 07/10/2019 at 1:21 PM, EdC said:

    Read 'Entheogenic Liberation' by Martin Ball, its an essential 5meo manual! 

    I had similar resistance experiences with 5meo but was still able to relax enough during subsequent trys, or even just the second half of the resistant trip to experience some serious energetic processing and peace. Just keep trying. 

    Multiple sessions in a row can help, if you have a difficult session you can learn from that and immediately try again. 

    @EdC thanks for the advise :)!

    There is an ebook of this! Think I’ll buy it and listen whilst driving to work.

    21 hours ago, outlandish said:

    When you plug it the timeframe will be stretched out much longer, so it will give you more chance to surrender to the experience before it just blasts past you. Your heart will race again, when that happens it's a good thing, go into it, relax into it, accept it. It's your being thrilling because something very profound is coming. Find the depth of that and allow it to be. Allow, accept, release, be. 

    @outlandish

    Thanks, great advise!

    i think my heart beating so much was part of the freak out so I’ll stay aware of this and accept it :)


  9. On 05/10/2019 at 6:55 PM, khalifa said:

    @Wonderer  Buy any white vinegar from any local shop and mix it'll dissolve easily, that's what i did to mine, although it wasn't a pleasant experience since i didn't let go

    Thanks I may try this method as well as it seems pretty easy!

    Yeah, I’m kind of worried that I won’t let go again but I’m pretty determined nether the less!


  10. Hellloooooo... fellow disciples of of Leo Gura??

    For the last 3 months I have had a strong meditation habit (30 min to 1.30 hours a day)

    Only other psychedelic I’ve tried is 100ug of LSD once.

    I’ve recently been experimenting with small doses of 5 MEO (freebase). I’ve vaped 5mg of 5 MEO in a dry herb vape (temperature only goes to 428 Fahrenheit) a couple times, got a buzz but still a definite sense of self still there. It’s a very slow release way of doing it I know.

    I then upped the dose in the vape to 12mg, then vaped it.

    I prepped myself beforehand and genuinely thought I was ready to let go… ready for death.

    I could of only vaped about 8-10mg before I physically couldn’t vape anymore, I completely lost my sense of self for about 5 seconds, what I experienced then was beautiful and terrifying at the same time.

    After about 5 seconds I felt my sense of self return, I was scared. At this point my heart was beating so hard… it physically hurt and hurt for about a day after (I’m very healthy and have a good level of fitness, no heart problems). At the time I genuinely thought I was dying, like my body was dying as well… I’m guessing this is normal…

    Afterwards I was quite disappointed with myself that I couldn’t let go.

    What I’m wondering is do you guys think I’m not ready for 5 MEO? Or was it the fact that I inhaled just enough for my sense of self to start to disappear then freaked out because it returned from death?

    I can’t work out which of these it is… or both…

    Any advice appreciated!

    P.S. I don’t need any chat about my choice to take psychedelics, I have enough trouble taking on my own ego without having to deal with yours too.

    Thanks :).