@tashadwoodfall I'm guessing what you really want is not a big dick, but for him to deeply satisfy you in bed. A big dick is not necessary for that. How many times does he make you cum per session? Zero? Then that's the problem, not the dick.
Lasting longer is something that he can develop.
He can also employ other methods to make you cum deeper. The physical size is not what makes you cum hard. A guy who knows what he's doing can make you cum deeper via text messages than you ever came from a big dick. The mind is what makes you cum, not the dick.
It sounds like you just need to communicate to him that you're not feeling fully satisfied sexually and you want to explore WITH HIM deeper ways of satisfying you. Encourage him to learn how to satisfy you better in bed. There are so many ways. You can suggest methods, books, courses, videos, toys, tantric techniques, etc.
Also you need to be explicit with him about what makes you cum hard. So he understands your needs. Be specific with him.
Of course you can also tell him that you want to work on satisfying him deeper in bed too. He will like that part.

All this means is that you have insanely high tolerance and psychdelics do not work with your genetics and metabolism. This does NOT mean that you are somehow more conscious than psychdelics.

I have a friend who has such a unique metabolism that DMT makes him less conscious, not more.
YOU CANNOT ASSUME THAT EVERYONE HAS THE SAME METABOLISM. Remove that idea from your mind.

Why would you associate money with IQ??
Many people who make lots of money are simply scammers or theives. But most of them are in unique positions at the top of social heiracheries.
The key to making tons of money effortlessly is to position yourself at the top of a social heirarchy. How you position yourself socially is way more important than the actual work you do.

Very few women are loved for who they are.
The whole beauty of being a man is that you get to love yourself. Which is the best kind of love.

I prefer certain races over others. The difference is I don't act out those biases and I try to treat people equally. A proper racist acts out on his biases and tries to justify and enshrine them into law.
If you are very honest, most people are racist. It's just wired into the human mind. Nothing surprising about that.

You do not see reality for what it is. I promise you. You are living in a human spiritual fantasy and whatever you call realization is 1% of what you could be conscious of. Since you are so lacking in consciousness you just call the best of what you know "realization", but this means nothing in the grand scheme of things.
Spiritual people are simply too unconscious to know that their highest realizations are just human illusions.

Mostly you just need a strong frame and don't treat socialization seriously. You don't socialize for intellectual gain, you socialize just to have fun. You don't take people's ideas seriously, you just have fun and then go home and be serious.

Also, I should add, there is no dispute whatsoever that highly processed foods and heavy metals and pesticides are unhealthy for everyone. It's just that if your genetics is strong enough your body can endure A LOT of abuse.

If you stop spinning that story then it will literally be a non-issue. You have to be confident in your own values. I don't have much relationships or sex and it barely bothers me because I love all the other benefits I get for it.
An important part of your development is honestly just saying Fuck You to all of society's expectations of you, opting instead to be full yourself, your own source of authority and values.
People will certainly try to gaslight and shame you into adopting their values, but if you develop a backbone eventually you will rise above all that.
Just trust in your own value system. That's the key!

Go out and learn to socialize. Find some "natural" guys and emulate them.
It's okay to be creepy in the beginning. You will grow out of it with more experience.

No, I mean they have poor taste in looks.

Nice story, thanks for sharing. Don't worry, you're in a good place for only 25. You got plenty of time to make those needed adjustments to your career and lifestyle. Don't try to do everything at once. Spend a few years getting your career in order. Spend a few years doing pickup. Spend a few years on your health and fitness. And spend a few years on spirituality and awakening. Then 10 years from now it will all come together in a beautiful way for you.
Yes, developing financial independence is a huge foundational step that enables everything else. So give yourself a few years to work on that. Be patient. It will be worth the investment.

I solved all my social anxiety through inner game, going out for 3 years, and tons of awakenings.
If you develop proper inner game and spirituality then social anxiety just stops being a thing.

That's because health is largely genetics. And you need to find a diet that suits your genetics, which no one can do for you.

Scientific genius is usually quite narrow. Especially these days.
Newton was a genius. Tesla was a genius. Einstein was a genius. Freeman Dyson was a genius. For humans these guys were pretty good.

I was never good at math.

The dirty secret is that most PUAs got very poor taste in women.

I would not try to "max it out", I would just enjoy the relationship as normal folk do.
If you are looking for the deepest relationship possible, see my video: How To Practice Love. You would do what's in that video.

You probably shouldn't be dating stage Blue girls. You're not gonna fix that level of indoctrination.
The real solution is to screen out stage Blue girls before you even sleep with them.

I've been in that exact situation before.
It's gonna be really hard to make that work.
Usually serious depression, anxiety, and low self esteem are a sign of some deeper trauma which she is avoiding/denying. Often it could be sexual abuse, rape, death of mother or father, etc. Serious stuff. This tends to go hand in hand with alcohol and substance abuse. So watch out.
Such women get very needy, very clingy, very emotional, and they are almost impossible to help because they perceive suggestions to get help as an attack on their identity. As in, "Why don't you love me for who I am?!!!" A needy person is so desperate for love they cannot handle truth. The slightest suggestions for self-improvement trigger them. This creates a self-fulfilling prophecy effect where their fear of being abandoned makes them so clingy that no healthy relationship is possible, thereby leading to abandonment, reinforcing the idea in their mind that they are unlovable. No serious communication is possible because such people cannot handle truthful communication. They want fantasy and sweet lies.
Such people need deep therapeutic help, enormous self-help work, and lots of spiritual development. Unfortunately they tend to refuse any such thing -- making their relationship impossible.
And finally when you try to end the relationship, there will be huge waterworks and the threat of suicide.
Try to see what you can do. Try introducing her to some basic self-help and self-esteem work. But also understand that this person has deep inner wounds which you probably cannot fix. Such wounds usually take 10-20 years to resolve, and that's IF the person is interested in working on herself.
Try to figure out what the root cause of her depression / anxiety is. Usually it's a traumatic childhood or teenage event. She is likely to hide such an event from you because she's scared that if you find out you will leave her. Such women often lie a lot to themselves and therefore will lie to you. It's part of her coping strategy to avoid deep truth or deep self-reflection.
In practice such women can only be in highly dysfunctional relationships until they do some serious self-help work.
If she has serious low self-esteem, chances are high she's got a history of abusive relationships. Try to dig into her history to get a sense of what you're dealing with. It could be some dark stuff.
Don't blame yourself. Some women are just like this and cannot be helped until they seek help for themselves.

I apologize for not being more sensitive to that.
I don't want people who follow me to get the idea that women only have sexual value.
My original reply was flippant. I'll be more careful in the future on such issues. I don't want to feed the MGTOW or Redpill attitudes about dating/women which are popular online nowadays.

That's not what was implied.
Don't confuse who one would have a baby with vs being around females.
Love does not mean that you will have a baby with any random person. Sexual preferences are a highly personal thing. That's all my message was pointing out. It's okay if your sexual preferences are very specific.

Evil is dysfunction.

I never made this assumption. Just like all humans I started my spiritual work with the exact opposite assumption.
It took me 100s of profound and painful awakenings to finally rid myself of the assumption that stuff exists outside my mind.
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You are absolutely wrong.
GOD IS ABSOLUTE SOLIPSISM.
You are not AWAKE and you don't understand what AWAKENING really entails.
There cannot be anything outside your own MIND. Because your MIND IS INFINITE.
If anything existed outside your own MIND then GOD would not be omnipotent nor omniscient. As you soon as you imagine any sense of "other" you lose your omnipotence and omniscience. This is the very mechanism by which GOD becomes not-GOD.
It is absolutely true that all humans are a dream. You don't like to accept that because you will feel lonely and very depressed. Therefore you refuse to surrender the imagining of other people and you blame and project onto me as misunderstanding spirituality, when of course the one who doesn't understand spirituality is you.
You are a perfect case-study of how Buddhism and nonduality leads to self-deception and false spirituality. You have been trying too hard to be a good little Buddhist boy, but none of that will ever be enough to AWAKEN. You must destroy all of Buddhism and nonduality if you actually want to AWAKEN. Pretty obvious stuff.
What you consider my greatest pitfall is just projection. It's your greatest pitfall.
But you are making one even deeper projection. You are literally projecting my existence. In fact I do not exist outside your mind, and as soon as you stop imagining me I will cease to exist.
I hope some day you open your mind deep enough to comprehend me.
Much love.