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  1. So I noticed everytime I smoke DMT I black out if I go too high on the dosage. I have around 10 trips and this happens everytime. To put in other words I can't remember exactly what happened.

    But yesterday I went and smoked weed before the trip and I could actually remember what happened and to be honest that was frightening for my egoic ass. I surrendered through the whole thing like a boss though

    Anyone that has used this combination for a greater length of time for consciousness could comment here?

    I also appreciate any other related comment.

  2. 3 hours ago, FlowerNote said:

    @Leo Gura Do you know why you don't get visuals on DMT? because most people report the most intense visuals on DMT

    I smoked DMT with two people already. Only one reported seeing all the cliché aliens and morphing and colors and the rest of us didn't. I see some morphing of auditory and visual stimuli depending on the dosage but if I smoke more I'd just pass out.

  3. On 01/08/2020 at 7:17 AM, Farnaby said:

    It feels like they are trying to subtly manipulate how you treat them

    If that were the case, what's the problem?

    On 01/08/2020 at 7:17 AM, Farnaby said:

    also not take full responsibility over their actions


    On 01/08/2020 at 7:17 AM, Farnaby said:

    especially people who seem to use the label "depression" to justify everything they do/don't do. 

    Do you think of yourself as someone who takes responsibility for your actions?


    On 01/08/2020 at 7:17 AM, Farnaby said:

    to justify everything they do/don't do

    Do you justify what you do in any way?

    9 hours ago, Farnaby said:

    I'm talking about constantly complaining and trying to get attention

    Do you ever try to get attention?

    9 hours ago, Farnaby said:

    trying to get  people to do what you want

    Do you ever try to get people to do what you want?

    When answering, please cite examples. Be specific.

  4. Man IDK maybe this will be helpful

    If you get to the bottom line of organization it's sort of categorization + hierarquies

    If you want to organize your mind you can start breaking down your thoughts and grouping them together according to a pre-defined template. If the template doesn't accomodate the incoming info you can start modifying the underlying template so new information fits.

    If you are doubtful about where to put some piece of info I would just recommend to not overthink it. Just do whatever feels right. If that's not the case, follow the guidelines above.

    My system: I use OneNote as Leo suggested in one of his videos.

    I started with simple 3 categories. Resources, Goals and Diary. Then, as I was going further I found that I needed more categories to accomodate my spreadsheets and daily trackings, but this didn't really fit into my vision of what Diary is so I created "Tracking Tables". :)

  5. Start as low as you can so that you're not bored nor anxious. This means 50-80ug. If you're confident go with 100-125ug.

    If y'all are not comfortable have someone to take a lower dose(50 ug less than the other 2 people, like 100ug, 100ug 50ug) or have a sober one to guide you people.

    If y'all are not comfortable at all then definitely someone should be sober.

    • Shadow work
      • 3-2-1 shadow work
    • Love
      • Love your loved ones
        • Forgive their faults
        • Accept them as they are
      • Love your enemies
        • Forgive their faults
        • Forgive their wrongdoings to you
      • Love yourself
        • Forgive your mistakes
          • All the times you were rude
          • All the times you bullied
          • All the times you hurt someone
        • Forgive your shortcomings
          • Your height, weight, hair, personality, diet...
      • Hugging
      • If you're into hardcore mode (this will actually be way easier than it seems)
        • Love Hitler and your mom equally
        • Watch or read about rapists, murderers, thefts, cult leaders, drug traffikers, pimps, addicts or anyone who did horrible things to you and love them as much as you love your family/friends/bff/(boy)(girl)friend
      • Randomly tell people in your fb or whatsapp you love them