2021 in Self-Actualization Journals Posted August 27, 2021 NEWS FROM COLLEGE!!! On 18/08/2021 at 3:11 PM, kag101 said: my college still hasn't replied if i can transfer to the hybrid version of the major. aaa... they have replied, and it worked! (99% certainty lol) i think that this change will really help me. it'll be much easier to convince myself to attend boring classes. here are the times of my classes this semester: Quote M 6:30-9:50PM Wed 7:-9:50PM Th 7-9:50PM will this work perfectly for me? idk. will this increase the odds for me to finish my graduation? YES. that was a strategic move. for example, i'm having a sunday blues. instead of having a thought like this one: "OMG... I'll have a long week ahead of myself... i'll only have a day off in 5 days" >>>>>>> "Oh... yeah, i'll have to go to that boring class tomorrow, but at least i'll get to rest on tuesday" BOTTOM LINE: this is reason to celebrate! when i achieve a goal, it's very easy to take it for granted. it's just like with taking the covid vaccine... i'd really enjoy going if the classes were decent. hopefully, the next semesters will be better... that said, i'm doing a lot of self-learning. and my main goal is to get this fucking degree. i still have 8 more semesters to go though lol. gladly, the college i'm going to is easy, so i don't have to worry about studying my ass off. i can study in a more intuitive way. that is, to absorb what naturally resonates with me — as opposed to thinking, "WILL THIS BE ON THE EXAM?????" --- CELEBRATING! i feel like i'm getting really good at chess. my initial goal was to reach 966 by September. and, look at my score: am i still weak at blitz and bullet? yes. the rapid games are actually the longest ones you can get. my favorite type of match is 30 minutes for each player. this way, i can actually think about the position. shorter games are also fun. but I have to play more instinctively, and oftentimes I have to outsmart my opponent by setting a trap. on longer games, i can focus on the chess per se. HOWEVER... I also want to get good at blitz and bullet. a strategy that i used to motivate me to play more of those shorter matches is to set a goal not for my rating, but for how many matches i have played. this way, i don't get too upset when i lose. and i focus on something that i actually have some control over: how many times i play a match. analogy with piano indirectly, playing longer matches also help. it's like learning how to play a piano piece. a very common mistake is to try to play it too quickly right away. no. the most important thing is to be able to maintain the tempo. so it's better to play more slowly but more accurately, as opposed to quickly and inaccurately. speed is important. but accuracy is more. i took a break from these quick matches, because of the pain i was experiencing with my mouse. ADAPTING! On 18/08/2021 at 3:11 PM, kag101 said: i couldnt really adapt with this mouse, because there is no support for my ring and pinky finger. and for some reason, it starts to ache. so i made a huge adaption, lol. i did some further research on those mouses, and i found this model, which has a better support to have my whole hand wrapped on the mouse, and there's also support for the ring and pinky. problem is, this guy costs about 100 dollars where i live. so.... i decided to experiment to adapt the one that i have here. i won't go into much detail on how i did that, but, hey, it's been working so far, lol. i name this guy..... FRANKENSTEIN, lol i'm still not sure if this will really work, but anyway it's been fun experimenting with modifying it. i watched a video on SciShow Psych (really good YT channel btw), and it talked about why we get fond of things that we did it ourselves, even if they're ugly. lol . i couldn't find the video thou... Counterintuitive insight i was really anxious about transferring my major. will there be a spot left? will i lose my scholarship? at some point, though, the only thing i could do was wait. waiting is not as hard as it seems. the key is to distract myself with doing other things. my intention for this moon was the following: let time pass. i love how counterintuitive this is. the art of knowing when to act and when to do nothing.