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  1. Chris Bache wrote the book "LSD and the mind of the universe" (2019), where he speaks about his 73 high-dose LSD sessions over the course of 20 years. If you are interested in following a psychedelic path toward enligthenment (or more), I really recommand you this book.


    Here is the text from the cover:

    "On November 24, 1979, Christopher M. Bache took the first step on what would become a life-changing journey. Drawing from his training as a philosopher of religion, Bache set out to explore his mind and the mind of the universe as deeply and systematically as possible--with the help of the psychedelic drug LSD. Following protocols established by Stanislav Grof, Bache’s 73 high-dose LSD sessions over the course of 20 years drew him into a deepening communion with cosmic consciousness.

    Journey alongside professor Bache as he touches the living intelligence of our universe--an intelligence that both embraced and crushed him--and demonstrates how direct experience of the divine can change your perspective on core issues in philosophy and religion. Chronicling his 73 sessions, the author reveals the spiral of death and rebirth that took him through the collective unconscious into the creative intelligence of the universe. Making a powerful case for the value of psychedelically induced spiritual experience, Bache shares his immersion in the fierce love and creative intent of the unified field of consciousness that underlies all physical existence. He describes the incalculable value of embracing the pain and suffering he encountered in his sessions and the challenges he faced integrating his experiences into his everyday life. His journey documents a shift from individual consciousness to collective consciousness, from archetypal reality to Divine Oneness and the Diamond Luminosity that lies outside cyclic existence.

    Pushing the boundaries of theory and practice, the author shows how psychedelic experience can take you beyond self-transformation into collective transformation, beyond the present into the future, revealing spirit and matter in perfect balance."


    Here are some YouTube videos:


  2. 4 minutes ago, mindcentral said:

    Curious what your take on this is, @Leo Gura: My last LSD trip (about 300µg) I became intensely 'aware of awareness' and surrendered myself completely to awareness, dissolving in it. Subsequent to this my body began to behave entirely of its own accord, as if it was an entirely external thing  unfolding of itself (it was no longer 'me'). My body lay down on the floor, shaking its head and contorting its spine, stretching itself out out (especially around the cheeks and neck) in very intense ways.

    During this experience, I got flashes of what I at that moment I interpreted as memories of a past life-- images of an underworld filled with prostitution and I 'sensed' even darker things such as murder. The idea arose that I was a portal of human misery, that it was my 'cosmic purpose' to bear the pain of other beings and that my existence had no other function beyond that. At some point 'I' returned and took back control over the body. My body made further attempts to contort and twist, which was frightening, but these attempts subsided as I blocked this process. I cried for hours after that but this wasn't experienced as a negative per se, felt cathartic. Do you think I should have let my body continue to do what it wanted to do? I stopped the process because it felt very dangerous but I also realize that letting it happen might been very cathartic.

    Maybe reading Christopher M. Bache's book "LSD and the mind of the universe" will help you with this. He there describes similar experiences and speaks about going through the ocean of suffering...

  3. 3# Emotions


    Unconditional Love

    In the Self Love Video Leo says that people, who suffer of severe chronic diseases (like cancer etc.) need especially a lot of self love. This counts also for me. I am very ambitious and disciplined, which normally are good characteristics, if you want to achieve things. However I also tend to be very harsh to myself (and to others). To practice self love in a way, that you love what you are independent of shortcomings and failures is quite a challenge for me.

    Seeing the FSHD affecting my body causes from time to time a lot of frustration, anger and powerlessness. In these situations I hate my body, myself, the world, reality and sometimes I just want to see the whole world burn to ashes. I know this is a big ego reaction, but in a twisted way it also feels ‘good’. I seem to have quite a dark side, that likes destruction and annihilation. Though the real me is rather loving and kind, hiding then inside this ego mask.

    What I would like to do in the future is practicing unconditional love in exactly these moments. I haven’t found a special technique so far, however I remember a situation around ten years ago, where I did this somehow intuitively. It was early morning and I was lying in my bed in a very bad mood. I had a lot of stress during that time and felt really exhausted and overwhelmed. I thought about how surviving this awful day and just wanted to crawl myself into my bed. Suddenly I started doing a visualization – at that time I had absolutely no idea what I did –, where I saw myself lying in a fetus position and I said to myself: you just have to embrace yourself, nobody else is needed, this will solve all your problems. That’s what I did in the visualization and my emotional state changed radically in an instant. I felt a lot of relief, joy and peace. These sensations were so strong, that I couldn’t really remember, how miserable I felt before. In retrospective I now think, that this wasn’t just a mere visualization, but sort of a mystical experience of unconditional love. ?

    The problem though is, that it just happened and I can’t repeat it out of free will. If you have an idea how to do this in such moments of emotional distress, just leave me a comment. ?

  4. 9 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    @Gneh Onebar Luckily the materialist paradigm is horseshit.

    Still, of course, that doesn't mean anything goes. Some stuff you simply may not be able to heal under your limited human powers. But you'd also be surprised as how much stuff can be healed. So it's worth a try.

    Even if you can't heal a thing, you might still be able to reduce the symptoms and suffering.


    I'm seeing an other psychic next week to have a second view on the issue. I somewhere heard that Ramaji said, that this women is one of the most powerful healers on the planet today. Let's see where all this leads to. In the end permanent liberation is my goal anyway. :) 


  5. 6 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    I have not researched that disorder.

    In general I'm suspicious of "genetic" as a justification for anything. Sure, a few very serious things might be genetic, but for the most part you should assume you got good genetics and look for other problems -- ways your genetics are being improperly expressed or used. Many problems that people tell themselves are "genetic" really are not, and are changeable with research and effort. You won't know until you try.

    In the materialist paradigm it certainely is: I got a scientific confirmation. However I spoke with a psychic and she has a completely different view on things: she says it is a manifestation of psychological issues/tensions in the body. So if I resolve them, the body will heal. :) 

  6. 1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

    You're thinking about this is backwards.

    Your fibromyalgia is likely the result of you living your life in unspiritual ways.

    The fibromyalgia isn't holding you back from spirituality, it is PUSHING you to wake up!


    This is a much more robust issue than merely meditation. Your entire life needs to be spiritualized and infused with mindfulness and consciousness and love.

    No, we will not take that for granted.

    You don't take for granted that healing is an option. Healing happens on many levels: physical, mental, spiritual.

    I recommend you find a local psychic healer / reiki healer who can help you work on your fibromyalgia and give you guidance.

    Fibromyalgia especially is a spiritually-related illness. If you had a broken spine, that might be another matter.

    In your perspective does this also counts for genetic muscle disorders like FSHD? ;) I'm doing all my practices anyway, I'm just interested in how you think about this.

  7. On 22.1.2020 at 4:41 PM, LaucherJunge said:

    4. Now after a few minutes maybe even after just a dozen of these deep breaths go for the breath retention the first time, which goes as follows:
    breathe in as deeply as you possibly can using Uddiyana Bandha for like 5 seconds and then holding the breath in stretch out all of your belly as far as you can.

    I don't get this point. If I breath in as deeply as I can, I am filling my lungs with oxygen. However if I do Uddiyana Bandha I'm breathing in, but my lungs stay absolutely empty. So you mean, that I just have to breath in as much as I can, holding the breath and then stretch my belly out with force?

  8. Hi there, here are a few of my favorite paintings:



    "Wanderer above the sea of fog" by the german romantic artist Caspar David Friedrich. It has been considered one of the masterpieces of romanticism and one of its most representative works. For me it shows liberation in nutshell.


    "Wheatfield with cypresses" by dutch post-Impressionist painter Vincent van Gogh. I really like the movement of everything (colors, shapes etc.) in his paintings. It seems like a good representation of ever changing consciousness.


    "The Scream" by norwegian expressionist artist Edvard Munch. This is total ego collapse. ;) 

  9. 2# Diet


    This is what I normally eat during a day

    I start my day with a glass of water with a pressed lemon. In fact I replaced my morning coffee by this - it's really energizing.

    Breakfast: I drink a smoothie every morning and have an apple or pear afterwards. Here is my favorite smoothie: 1 banana, blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, linseeds, chia seeds, sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds, sesame, olive oil, honey, organic vegan protein powder and water.

    Lunch: Mainly green vegetables like broccoli, zucchini, spring onion, fennel, mangetout cooked in a pan with olive oil. Then some lentils as a side dish for protein requirements.

    Diner: Big salad with spring onions, garlic, ginger, tomatoes, red peppers, carrots, bean sprouts, avocado and cucumber. I also like to eat quite a few nuts after diner: pecans, almonds, cashews and peanuts.

    I dropped coffee totally and I reduced my alcohol consumption to a minimum. Usually I have a drink or so every two weeks while going out with my partner or friends. I don’t like to be drunk anymore but having a good gin tonic in a decent bar is pretty enjoyable. ?



  10. 1# The Beginning


    Hi there,

    this journal is about my journey from the diagnose of my genetic disease FSHD to permanent liberation. I write this journal to share my experiences with everyone, who is interested in reading them. Maybe they are inspiring or helpful to you. Or maybe you have insights, that could help me on my path. Don’t hesitate, just post them. I am very grateful for all your hints and ideas. ?


    My story (short interlude)

    During early summer 2018 my emotional state was rather bad. Since Summer 2017 I noticed a loss of muscles in my right triceps. I was hitting the gym like before, but couldn’t really build up. After seeing numerous doctors they told me that I probably have a very rare inheritable genetic disease called FSHD, which causes muscle dystrophy mainly in the upper body – until now western medicine has no cure for this disease. I had to do several quite expensive genetic tests, which at first were all negative. Nobody had an idea, what was going on. So far there were and are no cases of FSHD in my family. (I finally got a genetic confirmation in June 2019. However, I’m not sure, if this is really what I have – more on this in upcoming posts ?)

    Meanwhile Leo’s first video about enlightenment popped up in my YouTube recommendations. I saw the first video and was absolutely fascinated about the topic. During the following night I watched practically all his videos on the subject and the next morning I felt already better than the last few weeks. I decided to give psychedelics a shot and consumed a dried mushroom tea (3,5 gr.) with a good friend of mine. I had a hard-hitting breakthrough, but was just to overwhelmed to remember everything I experienced. In a nutshell: I remembered what I actually am. Nevertheless, it was definitely life changing. The next day I intuitively began to meditate seriously – I meditated before, however not every day and not that serious. This is where my journey really begun. In retrospective I now see that this experience changed me from a rational atheist (I am a PHD student, who was and is interested in science) to a spiritual person.


    Things I changed after my first awakening

    • Meditation everyday since 20.07.2018. Worked myself up to 70 or more minutes in a single session in the morning. I follow the TMI system from Culadasa. Thanks to @ardacigin for his posts about TMI.
    • Around 40 minutes of yoga in the evening, mainly hatha yoga. I joined a spiritual yoga class in Munich in autumn 2018.
    • Exercises (15-20 minutes) to raise chi from John Kreiter’s Book “The Magnum Opus”. Thanks to @Matt8800 for recommending me this book.
    •  Journaling at least ounce a week (private notes).
    • 80%-90% of my diet is now plant based, 2/3 is raw. Thanks to @Dimi and @Michael569 for the nutrition tips. I bless my food before eating it.
    • Swimming two times a week (around 1 mile).
    • Receiving RASA. Right now my LOC is 780. Thanks to @LfcCharlie4 for making me curious about Ramaji, Ananda Devi and the energy transmissions.
    • Exploring psychedelics: mushrooms, LSD, Changa, N.N-DMT, 2C-B and MDMA (once combined with nitrous). Thanks to @Leo Gura for his talks about psychedelics.
    • Reading books about spirituality, yoga, meditation, psychedelics, magick etc.

  11. Going from LOC 675 to 780 in three more sessions

    I am not in a flow anymore, but it seems that the purging is now really going to start. My meditation sessions have defintely improved, I have more continuity and the focus and stillness of my mind is stronger. A few days ago when my mind was rather quiet and focused during a session really unpleasant emotions and memorys of my past were popping up. But I wasn't totally involved in them, I could keep a certain distance and observe them rising and going away. However the session wasn't fun. ;) Overall I am more emotional, but also less emotionally stable. This seems to be absolutely normal in the purging process. Let's see where this leads to. :) 

  12. 1 hour ago, LfcCharlie4 said:

    The issue I have is the western bias towards alcohol as not being a 'drug' the average person is so deluded when it comes to alcohol, it's hilarious. 

    LOL I just went on a huge ramble, sorry! I researched this a lot due to the stigma around MDMA, Weed and Psyches yet the love and acceptance of Alcohol and Tobacco and actually believing they aren't drugs because they're legal. 

    This is so true. In germany 74000 people die yearly in the aftermath of alcohol. That's 9% of all deaths.