Shadowraix

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  1. 7 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

    It's technically chemical castration, you suppress the activity of your gonads with exogenous hormones.
    It's just technical.

    Its called HRT. That is the actual medical name for this treatment.

    7 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

    Yes, testosterone is very anabolic.
    I was just saying that with an equal, or even lower, endocrine profile, people who have undergone male puberty will still be stronger than average women because testosterone/DHT has definitive effects on the width/thickness of the frame, the density muscle, nitrogen retention etcetc.
    Unless you have levels of hormone during puberty.

     

    7 hours ago, Hatfort said:

    Of course they do, as well as male and female bodies, but they are separated in sports because of the whole range difference. If they competed together, males would mostly win, because the top of their range is higher.

    In a lower degree, but the performance ranges of cis compared to trans are also different, being higher for the trans group at least in females, that's why they should be in another category in sports. Also, all transitions are not equal, some start early in life others later, but you can't really establish where to put the line for competing. It could be an issue for the trans category too, but it would definitely be a problem in a trans and cis mixed category.

     

    5 hours ago, Tanz said:

    There are anatomical differences that supersede hormones.  The bone structure of a man gives him an extreme advantage when it comes to power and acceleration.  

    No amount of hormones can change that

    Addressing all 3 of these at once. Despite these claims most trans women lose in sports. There are so few trans athletes another sports category wouldn't even work. We've been allowed to compete since 2004. Also having less muscle driving a larger frame would be a disadvantage. Cite anatomical differences based on averages all you want but its moot unless you can prove a consistent unfair advantage in real world performance where trans individuals fall outside the performance range of cis individuals. We typically don't. We don't dominate. Trans individuals are already regulated in sports. There are guidelines for this stuff.

    7 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

    I thought e2 was enough, are you on a gnRH antagonist?
    Are you on DHEA, do you have adrenal problems?
    Out of curiosity

    For E2 to properly suppress T by itself you usually need to reach 200pg/ml and there are a fraction of individuals who still can't achieve proper suppression. Having a T-blocker is common. Spironolactone is the most common in the US. Cyproterone Acetate in Europe. Bicalumatide is arguably the best since it blocks the actual receptors instead of T production and has a better safety profile but its use in trans healthcare isn't as common. I'm currently on a transdermal application of E and Cypro temporarily but plan to go back to monotherapy with gel.

    No DHEA and no adrenal problems.

    7 hours ago, Yimpa said:

    random question, but what inspired you to get into self-actualization & how did you discover this forum? 

    A psychedelic trip. A friend showed me Leo's content.


  2. 11 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

    Almost no one targets people who underwent hormonal treatment before puberty.

    Yet most efforts to try to push trans people out of sports categories they identify with push them out too. They are conveniently ignored just like how trans women are always targeted and trans men are often conveniently ignored in discourse about us.

    11 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

    Male puberty definitely makes you stronger, even after chemical castration.

    Lets not call it chemical castration. Thats another rhetoric piece fascists use to demonize us. HRT is fine.

    You would be surprised just how much weaker we are with HRT. Saying we are 'stronger' after HRT is a non point regardless if its true or not. Trans bodies vary in athletic performance just like cis bodies. The issue is an unfair advantage. 

    11 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

    Testosterone is not the only anabolic hormone, e2 is also very anabolic.
    I wouldn't be surprised if a number of trans women have supraphysiological e2 levels.

    Current guidelines is to keep our toestosterone <50 ng/dl and to keep our estradiol levels between 100 pg/ml - 200 pg/ml. Upper range with monotherapy, lower range with a T-blocker. Cis women reach higher levels than this.


  3. @Adrian colby ding ding You hit the nail on the head for a lot of things.

    Ironically our testosterone levels often tend to be lower than cis women.

    We've been allowed to compete in the sports category that aligns with our gender identity since 2004 when the IOC allowed it. Suddenly its a hot debate when right wing parties found a new target.

    The IOC guidelines solved this issue a long time ago. You can't justify excluding an entire demographic until there is robust science that there is a very consistent pattern of an unfair advantage. Science has not been able to produce this. If people want a more objective answer to this subject then they should be supporting more research on this.


  4. On 10/7/2023 at 6:04 PM, How to be wise said:

    It’s not really about you. It’s about the biological women who don’t want to compete with you in sports, and the people who want to use your biological pronouns rather than your preferred ones. It’s about the parents who don’t want to teach their children about transgenderism. 

    "Biological women" and "transgenderism" are terms used by the right and especially fascists who take great issue with the existence of trans people in society up to the point of desiring extermination. "Transgenderism" in particular is a term used to pretend you can separate trans people from the thing that makes them trans. You can't. These are largely the people making the biggest fuss about the inclusion of trans people and hating that there are social consequences to not showing basic respect to trans individuals. Accountability for being an asshole is not something they like.

    On 10/8/2023 at 3:05 AM, Something Funny said:

    don't you think that it's kind of entitled to seriously complain about this sports issue?

    As an an oppressed minority, no. I don't think its the most pressing issue on the list of problems, but I won't let someone who knows nothing about what its like to tell me how to feel on the subject.

    On 10/8/2023 at 3:05 AM, Something Funny said:

    It's one thing to fight for your rights to marriage, or having children, or for being treated with decency and respect. And another to complain that someone doesn't want to play football with you. Lets say trans women won't be allowed to play in women's leagues, why is that such a big deal?

    Because it highlights an intrinsic problem in sex-based sports as only supporting a cisnormative view on things. I highlighted many of dynamics to this subject in one of my previous replies. I am a big advocate of a society that is inclusive to all minorities even ones that don't pertain to me.

    On 10/8/2023 at 3:05 AM, Something Funny said:

    You believe that you should be treated totally the same as ordinary women so you find that excluding you from female sports is offensive and not nice. Fine. But do you think that other people have to 100% play along with you beliefs and values? Do you think it is a realistic expectation? In you personal life, do you expect to have a 100% perfect relationship with every single person that you meet?

    Living life as a trans person is being used to constant harassment & discrimination that can even be life threatening just for being trans. You are used and accustomed to dealing with people who absolutely despise you and believe all sorts of propaganda about you based on that attribute alone. Its not a matter of thinking people "have" to do things or setting expectations. Those do not get things done or change anything. What does is the fight for our rights and proper education to combat the fear mongering and misinformation spread about us.

    On 10/8/2023 at 3:05 AM, Something Funny said:

    Also, it's not even an issue of whether you are viewed as a real woman or not. You are legit physically stronger. So it's just a practical issue. If strength wise you are closer to men than to women, it's only fair that you play with men.

    It's like a 120kg boxer complaining that he can't fight 50kg boxers. It has nothing to do with society not being inclusive of heavyweight boxers. It just makes the sport unfair.

    I elaborated more on how this issue is more complex than you make it out to be in one of my previous post. Its not as simple as "men stronger women weaker" especially when it comes to trans individuals on HRT and individuals who never went through puberty expected of their sex in the first place. Especially when it comes to intersex individuals. If you want to make an actual argument for this, support more research on trans people and their athletic performance. Believe it or not the results we see is most trans people do not dominate sports and we've been allowed to compete for close to 2 decades now.

    Thats weight class and a much more reasonable way to separate sports than just making broad assumptions based on sex. Mack Beggs is a trans man wrestler who is forced to compete on the womens team despite the insistence to compete on the mens team. Yet people aren't railing that this is unfair. Why?


  5. 27 minutes ago, How to be wise said:

    No one is debating your existence. What’s being debated is how you should be classified in official documents, in sports, and whether people are allowed to refer to you as a man. 

    "I'm not debating your existence, Just how you are allowed to exist in society"

    Such conversations often take place without the people actually involved being a part of the conversation

    Such conversations often have input from people not very well versed on the subject of trans issues.

    Such conversations rarely took place until right-wing platforms made it their whole personality to come after us.

    Such conversations often hyper focus on trans women when trans men and non-binary folk are part of the conversation too.


  6. Oh yippee love when my existence is being debated.

    15 hours ago, Roy said:

    Quite misogynist and anti-feminist if you ask me

    Trans rights and feminism have a long history together and is intersectional. Feminists are generally trans inclusive and provide pushback against the TERF movement who reinforce typical gender roles and don't care to get cisgender women in the crossfire of their anti-trans tirade. Big figures in that movement have close ties to fascists.

    15 hours ago, Danioover9000 said:

    a more rigorous scientific method to find out in what ratio this is group think versus genetics and gender dysphoria.

    While we encourage the increase in scientific literature towards us we generally are wary of the pathologization of the trans experience as it could lead down a path that is further harmful to us. Gender dysphoria is not a requirement to be trans. It does not make people trans. Trans people can have gender dysphoria because they are trans. You can't diagnose someone as trans like how you can't diagnose someone as being gay.

    On 10/6/2023 at 7:57 AM, Danioover9000 said:

    is to make a trans category from men or women.

    There are so few trans athletes that this would not be viable and it merely just 'others' trans folk into a corner of society to maintain a system that is catered towards cisgender individuals. Its not very inclusive to intersex individuals either.

    13 hours ago, Danioover9000 said:

    Because there are biological difference in sex dimorphism between human male bodies and human female bodies

    The differences derive from hormones rather than the sex itself and it gets fairly complex. While there are averages that happen based on which hormone based puberty you went through first, they aren't inherent guarantees. There is lots of genetic diversity among those of the same sex. And when you factor in trans people you have to consider how HRT changes their physiology and consider that trans folk exist that don't go through puberty expected of their sex at all. HRT for a year or two is considered the standard in sports committee regulations that allow trans participation.

    Then we get into the issue of fairness and genetic advantages. Even among a particular sex a certain degree of genetic advantage is tolerated because it is considered fair. I mean on the extreme end olympians are basically chock full of people who won the genetic lottery. But in general we still allow genetic diversity even if it gives someone an edge. The question becomes not whether trans people may have a physiology thats also observed in cisgender individuals but whether their real-world performance operates outside the parameters of whats allowed for cisgender individuals. You can cite attributes and quantify them all day long but its meaningless unless it translates to unfair real world performance.

    When trans people win in sports they make big headlines and it starts a ruckus on this issue, but when we lose like we do the majority of the time it sweeps under the radar since it doesn't fuel the outrage machine. Lia Thomas was a big recent case of outrage despite her only just winning in one category and being none of the 27 records broken during that competition. Shes also lost to Iszac Henig, a trans man. Trans people have been allowed to compete among many sports orgs for several decades now.

    The IOC has guidelines that exclusion is not justified unless there is robust evidence of an unfair advantage. Currently the scientific literature on this subject is mixed and theres a conflict of methodologies where some will actually test real world performance while others just measure physical attributes and don't test performance.


  7. On 5/3/2021 at 10:11 AM, Inva said:

    @Kay100 Female definitely, she gets into laziness when she sells her body for looks. Just look at instagram models, Chaturbate models, pornstars, runways, etc, etc. Loses brain cells, relies on man to look after her.

    @OP: Women who feel threatened by more attractive women are just projecting insecurity without realizing if their boyfriend could be stolen, the attractive women is just helping them dodge a bullet.

    Life is a multi-facet thing that varies even more by location it's not easily measurable as a sum total. Being a successful man sex workers is harder. But being a successful woman in stem fields is harder. Sexual assault on men and women are both not handled properly but the lack of seriousness from men was created by men to think any sex you receive you should just enjoy and grow up. For women excuses are often shifted on the victim to be at fault but that's just the surface.

    And then what about being a minority? What if you aren't straight? What if your trans?

    Starting to see how complex this is getting? People often cherry pick. If your a man who is facing major hardships in one facet and see a lot of women having it easier it's easy to think life is easier for them. I know you are asking specifically about attractive men and women but lots of factors tying into attraction is deeply influenced by general gender dynamics and other aspects of ourself like sexuality. Attraction often acts as an amplifies or reduces benefits and struggles of these dynamics.

    @Quote: Sex work isn't as easy as you think you aren't going to make bank immediately. It takes a lot of work getting good at photography to take good shots, you have to market yourself, and have a persona people like. And the porn industry is so messed up that pornstars often get exploited and turning yourself into a big enough pornstar to make money is a lot of work to market yourself and to produce high quality content too. 

    Its a pretty common thing for people to see sex work as lazy because they think it's as simple as take a minute to snap whatever picture of your body or just to film a dude fucking you and it's instant profit. Men are often just jealous that there isn't as big of a market for them like the market they created for women.

    When you perceive an aspect of your life to be harder say working a 9-5 than something like sex work some gain mentalities glorifying working hard so they can justify what they do and pull down those they are jealous of.

     


  8. 37 minutes ago, flex said:

    @Shadowraix Hamas wants al the land its on video. Just like Arafat. It asks to moslims in Isreal to cut jews heads of. They don't want discussion or they want a fake discussion.   This is al done before. 

    An eyeopener would be for you to watch Arafats speach when a peace agreement is made. All full of nice idealistic peaceful talk. It was al fake! Hamas is the same.

    Hey ty for that I'll take a look when I can. If there's any other resources I can become more educated on the topic I would greatly appreciate it (I could just google it but recommendations beforehand so i can reduce stumbling on a biased source)


  9. I'm not really familiar with this conflict but I was informed a little bit (so I don't concretely think any of this true) by someone a lot of Palestinian's attacks were often in retaliation and people often justify that as to not be mad at Israel.

    Correct or nuance this whoever knows more about the topic.

    But even in defensive retaliation there could be a discussion on if it was done in a reasonable manner.

    I also was told Israel pulled out of the Gaza strip as a symbol of peace but the Palestinians took that strip and turned it into a zone to attack Israel.

    I'm not very informed on the topic so throwing this out there if anybody feels able to confirm or correct. 


  10. Closure is very powerful when it's possible.

    My ex after being a year split came to me wanting closure for something super shitty I did. And I was able to apologize for it and show I have grown and no longer believe what I said at all. It helped her tremendously and I also have the privilege of using my growth to be a positive influence in her life which feels great to be able to help when I did so much damage.

    Do some inquiry. Is there some uncertainty? Trauma or things that was never addressed? Not fully understanding why it ended etc. But in the long run love that runs deep has been primarily time based if there's no big issues or trauma that's being a blockade. Where I can appreciate things for how it was and appreciate the time for what it was instead of thinking on them in pain of what I used to have.

    Personally what got me over my ex was my current partner of over 9mo now. I think loneliness was what held me back from healing. But I don't know if my experience would give you much insight or not. 


  11. Even if your engaging in this life the most conscious thing you can do is be conscious of why you are doing things. Why are you doing x or y? And by gaining a more deeper understanding of reality you can not bullshit yourself and be brutally honest.

    One example as of recent I had a discussion about the value of life. We prioritize those close to us or other humans because we are naturally biased on that for survival. People didn't like that response. I know my biases are bullshit and I'm not perfect but because I have that knowledge whenever I even dare to say kill a bug when I'm too scared to handle it I do so consciously knowing my biases and even though I killed that bug there's almost a sense of empathy and love and appreciation for the immense value I feel towards it. That bugs death benefited me and I should not take it for granted.

    Being conscious is the primary tool that's helped me heal, become less toxic, and even though my spiritual development on understanding is not anywhere close to people here and a lot of my growth derived from spiritual knowledge from a total of 2 trips and the rest deconstructing myself, it has helped me tremendously.

    Even if you don't perfectly embody every insight perfectly it doesn't mean that insight is less valid and doesn't mean that increased awareness won't help you live and engage in things in a more aware way .

    Bit of a tangent but Leo's advice can still be valuable and that is largely how he helped me.


  12. I would agree that Biden has the better chance mainly due to the left being tired of Trump's presidency, and people overall just seeking change. Biden's presidency won't be good by any means, but we also have to factor in voter suppression and the mess that the electoral college is right now. Many states require their candidates vote for their popular vote but at no repercussion for it so they get away with it.


  13. On 10/31/2020 at 4:52 AM, Javfly33 said:

    Sounds to me non-duality conceptually, not experiencially.

    By at that point even a hardcore materialism athesit would agree that everything is "One". Sure, is one... its all the same thing : Reality.

    But I suspect non-duality is more radical than that.

    It most definitely is more radical than that. I have experienced it experientially in the past, but its by no means a permanent state and was mainly drug induced in which its been a couple of years since I've last had such experiences. I often try to explain it in a way more logical minds can understand conceptually. It at least gives a good start to wrapping your mind around it. Mainly because I started out as a more rational scientifically minded person and I never could understand what people were saying and only got responses like "do more acid"


  14. An excerpt from the Kyballion:

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    The Hermetic Teachings are to the effect that THE ALL is Imminent in ("remaining within; inherent; abiding within") its Universe, and in every part, particle, unit, or combination, within the Universe. This statement is usually illustrated by the Teachers by a reference to the Principle of Correspondence. The Teacher instructs the student to form a Mental Image of something, a person, an idea, something having a mental form, the favorite example being that of the author or dramatist forming an idea of his characters; or a painter or sculptor forming an image of an ideal that he wishes to express by his art. In each case, the student will find that while the image has its existence, and being, solely within his own mind, yet he, the student, author, dramatist, painter, or sculptor, is, in a sense, immanent in; remaining within; or abiding within, the mental image also. In other words, the entire virtue, life, spirit, of reality in the mental image is derived from the "immanent mind" of the thinker. Consider this for a moment, until the idea is grasped.

    To take a modern example, let us say that Othello, Iago, Hamlet, Lear, Richard III, existed merely in the mind of Shakespeare, at the time of their conception or creation. And yet, Shakespeare also existed within each of these characters, giving them their vitality, spirit, and action. Whose is the "spirit" of the characters that we know as Micawber, Oliver Twist, Uriah Heep--is it Dickens, or have each of these characters a personal spirit, independent of their creator? Have the Venus of Medici, the Sistine Madonna, the Apollo Belvidere, spirits and reality of their own, or do they represent the spiritual and mental power of their creators? The Law of Paradox explains that both propositions are true, viewed from the proper viewpoints. Micawber is both Micawber, and yet Dickens. And, again, while Micawber may be said to be Dickens, yet Dickens is not identical with Micawber. Man, like Micawber, may exclaim: "The Spirit of my Creator is inherent within me-- and yet I am not HE!" How different this from the shocking half-truth so vociferously announced by certain of the half-wise, who fill the air with their raucous cries of: "I am God!" Imagine poor Micawber, or the sneaky Uriah Heep, crying: "I Am Dickens"; or some of the lowly clods in one of Shakespeare's plays, eloquently announcing that: "I Am Shakespeare!" THE ALL is in the earthworm, and yet the earth-worm is far from being THE ALL. And still the wonder remains, that though the earth-worm exists merely as a lowly thing, created and having its being solely within the Mind of THE ALL--yet THE ALL is immanent in the earthworm, and in the particles that go to make up the earth-worm. Can there be any greater mystery than this of "All in THE ALL; and THE ALL in All?"

    The student will, of course, realize that the illustrations given above are necessarily imperfect and inadequate, for they represent the creation of mental images in finite minds, while the Universe is a creation of Infinite Mind--and the difference between the two poles separates them. And yet it is merely a matter of degree--the same Principle is in operation--the Principle of Correspondence manifests in each--"As above, so Below; as Below, so above."

    By default many of us perceive things as separate and while this has truth you can also perceive everything as one. An atom is its own individual thing yet it makes up a chair, its own individual thing. Earth is made up of everything inside of it, so is reality. And if reality is one infinite conscious "thing" in the scope of reality itself, reality/God is simultaneously experiencing everything. It is you, it is Leo, it is me. So now coming back down we shift the perspective from "I am me" to "I am God" who experiences everything. In which the "I" does not point to a particular human, but "identifies" as the whole.


  15. At the end of the day real and illusion collapse into the same thing. The answer is often yes and no. Accepting the illusion aspect is hard because well, the egoic mechanism. Its a self-preservation survival mechanism and accepting the illusory aspect of reality would go against this agenda. It doesn't want to die.

    In a sense yes we are all real there are so many things having their own experiences. But the thing to grasp is the separation between "you" and everything else is only there if you choose to create it. If it is dissolved the difference between you and everything is null. This makes you reality. You God.  The old idea of 'you' is dissolved in the whole. Simultaneously being creation and creator. Losing itself in its own creation, exploring itself. Infinitely losing itself in it and infinitely finding itself in it. Self-realization goes against many parts of the mind that serve a survival purpose not necessarily a Truth purpose. Its no wonder its so much work to figure this out. Life will delude itself as much as it can if its a means for survival and maximizing it.

    Your simultaneously all the characters in a book who has been convinced of the reality they live and being the author making the story.

     


  16. 3 hours ago, herghly said:

    @Shadowraix 1000ug..... i can not comprehend. 

     

    Why? Are you just knocked out for 10 hours?

    I did sort of work up to those doses 100-200-500-1000 was the progression which is super idiotic buuuuut my memory is kinda hazy for the night. I went to the bathroom when it hit, went to my friend and said I don't think ill like it. Tried to puke and I got so hot I had to run outside to cool down. He sat out there with me, I was laying in the driveway, him watching over me my mind completely overrun. Visuals taking over my vision..it felt intelligent. Like buddhist monks, I saw time itself. Once I came down we came back in the house and laid down. My come down was an instant realization of "oh my god, everything is one" and I was filled with bliss by this realization. I told my friend I think this would be a very important moment. And to this day, that night started my true journey. I heard people talking so much "crazy shit" them telling me to just do more lsd well it took 1000ug to break me out of my rational-scientific-logical restraints. Don't recommend, but its one hell of a path.


  17. 18 hours ago, IJB063 said:

    First don’t type out sighhhhhh and act all high and mighty no one gives a fuck if you sighed

    You seem to care or else you would have just completely ignored it. Its being expressive with your writing. 

    18 hours ago, IJB063 said:

    No one is advocating rape here retard. And the word misogynistic is stupid, it gives away you’re an ideologue, just use the word misogynist, the ic is redundant, I wouldn’t call you retardistic I’d just call you a retardist.

    The English language is incredibly inconsistent. Misogynist is a noun. Misogynistic is an adjective. Retarded is used as both a noun and adjective. You're getting pretty pedantic for somebody who didn't know this. 

    You don't need to play gatekeeper of how people type. 

    18 hours ago, IJB063 said:

    Some shamefully stupid thinking (if you can call it that) going on with you too buddy, accusing people of being brain dead cavemen advocating rape because we recommend the man takes control in the bedroom, stop spewing your castrated bullshit.

    There's a difference between taking control of the bedroom with consent and taking control of the bedroom so you can get her to change her mind about something shes already expressed towards you. The latter is incredibly manipulative and disrespectful of her wishes.