Javfly33

Maybe I went a bit too much LMAO. But I would say realistically I have hit the 600 hours mark at least. What you experience? How do you know that what you experience is Kundalini? I mean I do hatha yoga but in the past I did maybe 50 hours of Kundalini Yoga, experienced all sorts of crazy shit/releases, but how do you know that those things is the kundalini raising or not?

I´ve done at this point over 1000hours of Yoga and I never have reached that kundalini awakening thing. But hey, that doesn´t mean is not there. Yoga definitely is a super profound complex ancient tool. Who knows.

@Emerald interesting. What is womens collective wound? How It relates or differenciates from the collective shame wound of men?

I am contemplating that my mother was more fucked up that I thought. I thought she was fine but more and more im catching her lots of dysfunctional types of thinking about the world. Lately I had this memory when I was a kid I said to her something while I was talking in the phone with a friend, I might have been angry or something at her. Next day my father comes to tell me my mother is very hurt and I should apologise to her. Is this normal?? Like What the fuck is this? How can a human be so freaking weak and lacking of self-esteem and love that if HIS KID tell him something she goes crying like a little child?? Like dude!! You are the parent! You are supposed to transmit confidence and self-esteem to YOUR KID. Is not backwards. And my father buying the victim bullshit from my mother like a little bitch and making me 'apologise'. What the fuck. From What a pair of manipulative narcissistic beings I was raised. Sometimes Life throws you a funny hands of cards.

@Princess Arabia yeap well said 😊 Yes i agree, people make a fuzz out of it I dont know, i used to think as you but when i was on no fap i had more sexual type of Thoughts around women. You could say this does encourage you more to approach them though Thats the way for sure lol

There is a lot going on against pornography lately. Now, I´m not saying is healthy to waste your time and energies watching sexual content on a regular basis, is clear some people are using (abusing it) and is becoming an habit on its own where to waste time and manage anxiety. But is not addiction, is just that you are using that to avoiding face boringness, anxiety, etc. Is not like pornography has physical dependence as drugs. BUT ANYWAYS, im not even taking about that. I´m talking about that some want to quit porn because of psychological reasons. This psychological reasons are that for this people porn or fantasies are producing a certain karmic tension for them. Because their ego has certain repressed tendencies and shadows, and sex is that place where those tendencies and repressed shadows are felt, and arise without barriers. This is scary for the mind and it sees as 'bad'. Because they think this tension is something bad. No, is that you are getting close to the nucleus of karmic content of your ego. The more you feel against a certain porn taste or fetish, the more your ego doesn't want to observe something. The moment you won´t repress the karmic content that being revealed to the surface, then you will see porn is not bad, is actually a mirror that is reflecting information about your system, something very deep. You don´t have to be against it or raise it to the heavens, you just have to be completely neutral and watch what is being revealed. In other words: just completely let go. Doesn´t matter how daunting it is for your mind to let go, do it. So basically in summary, if you want to quit porn because it 'promotes' certain porn taste or fetishes and you feel this things are 'bad', you actually got it backwards.

I cant remember but i think not more than 12 years old

Ok got it. @Water by the River by the way, is It called "mahamudra" because It "seals the Non Dual Realization"? Just looked in Google what mahamudra means and It says "great seal". Funny enough, the yoga kriya practice ive been focusing past 2 years has the Word mahamudra in It too 😲

Yesterday was in a sharing hippie group circle people sharing stories of their trips, and I couldn´t avoid looking at the phone of one of the girls there and I became conscious that phone was infinity, she is God, the whole room where we were was truly Love, Infinity. Awakening can take a lifetime because you can deny it for a lifetime , no ego wants to accept other Beings are also Infinite, they are part of your Dream. Is too real, it would make you shed tears if you would be in this type of realization constantly. To see others and truly accept they are God and Infinite as You, and there is no separation because there is no separate self, just Infinite Consciousness, is something in my back of my mind I keep repeating it can not be possible, but perception is becoming more and more clear, God is preparing me for true Heaven, true Infinite Love.

yes. Should I stop?

that's a good one

Yeah man I think at this point is just a Matter of Accepting It, and stabilizing fully as @Water by the River said, thanks for the info btw. @Bazooka Jesus @Razard86 what you mean with God consciousness? Being conscious an object is Infinite Love/Being/Consciousness?

See is very tricky. There is actually no difference between a DMT breakthrough where you are seeing constant visuals and mandalas and This "physical Reality". Realizing both are literally the same is the key. That there is no physical world nor a physical dimension AT ALL. When you see your laptop screen right now you are seeing Consciousness forming an object. You are seeing MIND. I was going to actually post a mantra song telling you guys that if i repeat this mantra i become conscious the walls of my room are made of Brahman, Mind, and if i utter the mantra right i literally can communicate with Infinity Gods (Basically You guys LOL) and break the boundary of physicality But then i thought...wait a minute. Why i have to do the mantra stuff to communicate with them if there is such a thing as the internet already LOL? And It hit me, oh wait, maybe the internet is literally imagined by consciousness right fucking now. Maybe the INTERNET CABLE IS LITERALLY THE SAME AS A MANDALA OR PATTERN THAT YOU SEE ON DMT. Is completely imaginary/pure MIND. When you go out each morning to throw the Bin to the container, the container is as imaginary as a beatiful pattern you see on an Lsd trip. Complete MIND. 0 substance. And yes, THIS IS FUCKING INSANE. Is all a projection. A projection of inmense proportions. Not Only because of how Big It is, also because of the congruence of It. Just because you see the same apartment/Building for 70 years does not mean is imaginary. This is fucking Infinity/Unlimited reality we are talking here. If It wants to imagine an apartment Building for 70 fucking years It does It. No problem. And other Infinity Gods that experience and Live in that Building also experience that Building. When you die the Building Still exists, as long as other Infinity Gods are Still in the dream, the Building doesnt dissappear until all Creation ends. (What would be a Universal Mahasamadhi you could say). As Leo said, there are levels of Awakening, never stop becoming more conscious. This shit goes deeper and deeper.

Was meditating and the neighbours kids were arguing about some shit with their parents. I couldn´t avoid perceiving the Love that emanated of each of their voices, even though they were arguing. The bliss of GOD. At that point was fully conscious there was no difference between my cousins and those kids, or my parents and those parents. Clear perception that their voices are literally Consciousness. Consciousness (or God) is 'all over the place'. There is no such a thing as 'my consciouness'. (Biggest bullshit I ever came up with. )

It doesn´t need a how. Is pure intelligence.

Right, I understand you know. In my experience you only need to focus and work on building regular habits, attitudes and actions that go against the "ghosting patters". For example, one of my clear ghosting patters in using drugs, I don´t have a physical dependency in the sense I need a drug to be funcional, like your brother might need, but I can clearly see from time to time I use drugs to numb and create a fake comfort chemical atmosphere. This type of pattern slows down progress and reduces clarity on where one is in life. But mind picks up this ghosting patterns because mind Is usually about homeostasis, comfort, cyclical nature. Is not about expansion and transformation. Is something 'natural' for the mind. What I have done that has improved my relationship with this 'ghosting patters' is that instead of judging them and try to avoid them, reject them, completely Focus my attention, focus, and energy on the things that are anti-ghosting, in my case, last year which I was trying to improve my social circle, going out 3 days a week for a full year. While this year ghosting patters where there but I accept them as rain in the sky, what I made sure is to focus on going out, and even though there were ghosting patters through the whole year while doing this, there was a certain transformation and expansion going on. Another example would be this current year, where I am focusing and going deep in Yoga practice. Is another example of anti-ghosting actions because it not only improves awareness and clarity of mind it kinda automatically has made easier to let go certain addictive or compulsive tendencies such as using drugs. So even though the mind still feels the desire to scratch the itch with the ghosting pattern, I don´t pay it much attention. I just keep myself focused. In other words, focus on Consciousness instead of compulsiveness, whatever turns out that to be in your situation. And compulsiveness and avoidance patters will slowly being to fall or be reduced on their own. If you focus on trying to reduce or eliminate the compulsive or cyclical patters you are just feeding more on to them. Where your focus is, is where your life will grow. Hope that helps-

Yes, the buddhists already said it: Empty your cup.

Correct, with 'what' I don´t mean a label or word.

Yes, but what IS being? What is consciousness? You have to grasp what really is. Grasping Directly what is the phenomena of consciousness/being, is Enlightment.

yes, is abandoning all anchors the ego uses to keep itself alive. One must be careful, because things as Reality is God' or Reality is Love', might be another anchor-concept the ego is constructing to try to make this empty experience 'something'. (Since 'God' or 'Love' usually has some meaning attached to it). And we are kind of doomed (not in a bad way, but this are the rules of our game), to not totally let go of all concepts. Why? Because you can not hold a physical body without having a concept of a so called Reality. If one stays too much as pure empty luminary nothing, one will be dissolved because the concepts will no longer have any stregth in the system. Which is why Yoguis not only have been discovered to do mahasamadhi, but actually people have entered to the caves to discover the body is not even there. Body has also dissolved. That´s the seriousness of concepts and the construction of ego. The ability of you holding a physical biological body is anchored to a concept. If you stop holding the illusion you can 'kill yourself' out of pure truth. Ha! What a video game. And to think I believed this shit for a moment

Is the only thing that exists actually 🤣

Hell, at least is free.

1) I´m not sure what you mean by 'ghosting pattern'. I think is good to entertain oneself with things that one enjoys. 2) Run if you can and don´t look back.

Brahman is Empty.

Is because what has been seen has to be seen more times? Is because what has been seen would be 'too good' or 'too crazy' to be real? Is because mind-body fundamentally is not raised to be able to embody the truth, so it has to get used to it 'slowly' until it finally opens itself up? I am curious about the mechanism of the mind/ego to protect itself and maintain is paradigm, even after being 'crushed' dozens if not hundreds of times. Probably the fact is if you are 30 years old and you started having awakenings at 25, you have there 25 years of old conditioning which has to be dissolved, and is not just a few trips or meditation experiences, the Non Dual must become the True Reality. There Is no other way I think.