wakeel55

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    Hey guys! I just wanna know if there are anyone here who uses Bioenergetics and has DRASTICALLY Improved their Confidence? Fully expressing yourself no matter who youre with? I CANT SEEM TO FIND ANYONE who has regained their courage and confidence through bioenergetics? Only elliott hulse. If youre a bioenergetic student pls talk to me! I have many questions! :)

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    So throughout this journey, something really scary happens to me sometimes. My consciousness (ME) expanding outside my body and I FEEL LIKE DYING, like its really painful, its like im getting stabbed inside, really feels like someone is killing me. So i FURIOUSLY clench my muscles so that i wont drift off into the unknown. This situation has happened to me 5-6 times throughout my 2 years of inner work/healing. I am aware of the fact that if i just let it go, an "amazing thing" will happen. But i just cant seem to let go, it is intensely terrifying. Probably the most terrifying thing i have experienced. But deep down I know that someday i gotta let it go. So my question is, is there any way to not feel the pain of death? should i find a legit guru to guide me? should i find spiritual friends? I have 0 spiritual friends, i dont know anyone who knows these things. Thanks!

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    Hello everyone. So I have been doing intense inner work for the past two years. It was one hell of a journey. From experience joy to sadness to apathy to FEELING SUICIDAL to FEELING HAPPY to feeling intense killing instinct anger to joy again to wherever the f*ck that higher power is taking me... Haha.. A lot of layers have been removed and something happened to me, I WAS BIG! I KNOW I WAS BIG! I HAD THIS INVINCIBLE CONNECTION TO SOMETHING EXTREMELY LARGE!!!!! I GET IT NOW!!! but it slowly subsided after a few days.. BUT something stayed with me. Inside me. It was like a gift. There is this empty space i can go to inside my body and if i focus there, ALL THOUGHT and EMOTION is OFF! I found this new inner space. So now my question is, what is this? and how do i make it bigger? Hoping for your enlighting answers! :)

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    Hello guys, been doing inner work for the past 4-5 months. Been having weird dreams lately, but the dream I had 2 days ago takes the fucking cake. I was dreaming that I was meditating then everything started twirling much like when you're on a psychedelic. And then, I fucking forgot EVERYTHING, little to no labeling of anything. Reality was just reality and everything was becoming intensely bright, I was so fucking scared, had fucking painful pain body attack. I turned around (still dreaming) then I saw my younger brother but it seemed like I didnt recognize him but i still did, yet i didnt. Do u guys get it? ALSO, EVERYTHING in the dream felt real and when things got super fucking intense I woke up but it didnt feel like i woke up from an intense dream. It felt like my soul left that intense situation and I transported back to my body. It was fucked up. What does this mean?

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    HEY Guys!! So I have been doing inner work every single goddamn day for the past 2-3 months. And now I have felt that my baseline of happiness has slightly but noticeably increased and I have been feeling that my body and self is "brighter"? Kinda weird tho. However, I have noticed that I became more lazy and have no drive to do stuff. I read in one of David Hawkin's book that people often mistake apathy or laziness for spiritual enlightenment or whatever. What should I do masters! Thanks much love

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    @Leo Gura ok so if thats what ur saying brotha then who created all this fake reality? and do they know about shadow work and other self help spiritual stuff and if so, are they afraid if mainstream finds out about these techniques for growth that would damage the industries and shit?


    @Leo Gura bro legit, like lately, i have been thinking alot about all this shit dont exist. And it makes me nihilistic and having mild depressive suicidal thoughts coz like if all this shit dont exist then whats the point? Its pretty dark and fucked up, what should i do about this? :/

    @Leo Gura this is your 3rd time replying to me, i really appreciate you reaching out to us newbies! :D 

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    This is something that Im sure all of us have thought about at least once in our lives. Since Shadow Work/Releasing past trauma is arguably the BEST technique for becoming a BETTER you, then how come not everyone is talking about it? 

    People in this world do a lot of surface level self help stuff to optimize their self-esteem issues or whatever the fuck issues they have. And Sooner or later, they go back to square one or downgrade in life due to their subconscious.

    But then if people's LIVES really I MEAN REALLY CHANGED for the better due to SHADOW WORK/FACING SUBCONSCIOUS/TRAUMA RELEASE or EVEN PSYCHEDELICS, then how come not everyone is talking about this like how everyone is talking about a healthy diet or working out? I dont see much people in the mainstream social media talking about how they truly changed due to these approaches. I mean, these ideas have been in this world for decades right? 

    Would love your opinion on these guys.. ( I have been letting go of negative emotions from the past for the past few weeks and i havent noticed any difference yet in my life except for the initial bliss stage) (Feeling hopeless right now, right now im thinking that i may be stupid for being gullible enough for following this subconscious exercises. Or maybe this is my ego fighting back. IDK...)

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    @Torkys I appreciate all this so much man!!!! But, whats the end of the tunnel tho? Will I have less anxiety? less fear in social situations? Pls tell me bro what are the awesome benefits that happened to ur life. Feeling really discouraged bro. Just want some motivation. One of the main reasons I did this is due to my low self esteem. It cost me alot....

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    @Leo Gura Hello Master Avatar Sage Great Leo hahahaha, I wouldn't say habitually man... I mean from time to time I feel anger and depression yeah but not like this. Im feeling more anti social, more overthinking and im causing fights with my mom dad and/or bros. It sucks. Intense apathy too. What do u think of this bro? If this is spiritual purification, like what u said, is there like a light of the tunnel? Because one of the main reasons I did this is to become more fully MYSELF. Like literally little to no insecurity and social anxiety to people. U think this is possible? I NEVER read any success stories  about this letting go of emotions man.. So what I mean is, Can you like tell me what are the good things that would most likely happen to me if i stay strong and continue on this path? Thanks bro. Feeling really discouraged right now.. (Btw so cool u replied)

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    Hello everyone, I have been letting go of negative emotions for the past 2 weeks. Sometimes I get a natural high that I thought was never possible without any drugs or alcohol. But most of the time, Im so fucking depressed. Adding to that, My brain starts giving suicidal thoughts even tho I dont really wanna kill myself. I get so angry at the smallest things. I feel so fucking bad because my mother and my siblings are getting affected with my anger. Where can I read more about emotional release and its symptoms? I cant find people who are feeling this way. Help guys thanks

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    Hello everyone, I have been letting go of negative emotions for the past 2 weeks. Sometimes I get a natural high that I thought was never possible without any drugs or alcohol. But most of the time, Im so fucking depressed. Adding to that, My brain starts giving suicidal thoughts even tho I dont really wanna kill myself. I get so angry at the smallest things. I feel so fucking bad because my mother and my siblings are getting affected with my anger. Where can I read more about emotional release and its symptoms? I cant find people who are feeling this way. Help guys thanks

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    So ever since i was 15 i noticed this weird thing about me. How come I feel some sadness when I listen to old songs? Also, some weird shit happened to me few months ago, i was off tramadol(painkiller) so i was having withdrawals but i fell asleep coz of weed. But then i had a fucked up dream of me beating up my dad coz all he does is takeaway all my happiness coz in my dream he kicked out my uncle whom i really loved. THEN, I fucking woke up coz of my lil bros alarm and when I woke up i was ALREADY crying, I dont even remember the initial tears, i was already in the middle of crying right when I woke up. (Dancing in the moonlight song was playing, it was my little brother's alarm)