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    @outlandish i hope it plays out like this @Nahm on a theoretical level i know this, but it takes a very couragous heart to practice it all the time hahha@Leo Gura noted

     @TrynaBeTurquoise im pretty sure that is whats going on, but i cant seem to get over the block, im lost in the heart of a tornado of anxious thoughts and i feel like whichever way i move it just follows. I find what nahm said about just observing the thought to be the best way, but sometimes the feeling is so intense, so scary, that i turn to panic mode, i feel like okay im observing this, now it should start to lessen, any second now..., and instead it gets worse and so i panic and think "you know what, the observing might not be it"

    @mandyjw mostly paranoia feelings. I completely feel the hunting vs the hunter thing, and in effect im actually hunting myself 

    21 hours ago, mandyjw said:

    Like a hunter, be still, be present, lie in wait for it, and when it comes out meet it with excitement and curiosity. Watch the thoughts around it. Feel the sensation in the body. Get intensely curious. 

    will try with this harder

    @Preety_India your welcome <3 

    19 hours ago, Preety_India said:

    It's like going through hell to actually glimpse heaven..

    Pain before the gain.

    i have to remember the rain before the rainbow haha

    @Artaemis im confused as to whos Esther and whos Abraham hahah i always see the two names mentioned together but one person. I assume shes Esther but some videos say Abraham hicks and its just her talking lol

    @ardacigin  thank you <3 

     

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    I have now realized exactly why i meditate consistently for a few months then stop cold turkey until i pick it up again a few months later. I start feeling overwhelming anxiety and fear and i have a hunch that things start going worse when i meditate instead of better. I couldnt get a notion of why, why does this always happen until today i randomly listened to an esther hicks talk which covers this. She said that when people start meditating they always go to her asking why does it seem that all hell breaks lose in my life when i start this practice? And according to her its because when you meditate, you "calibrate" yourself to Source, to Who you Really Are, your divine self. Because of this, when you are in situations where you calibrate to who you are NOT (lets say negative emotions), you notice it 10x more intense than it was before. Apparently it didnt get worse, the negative emotion is always the same, it just seems worse because youve now accessed extremely positive emotions/vibrations in meditation. I find that this is likely what is going on with me, i feel anxiety soo much worse than it ever was before.

    How do i overcome this obstacle? Halp.

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    interesting insight i got from a video: how important it is to immediately get up the moment you wake up. Sounds like stage orange self development basics, But when i think about it more, our selves work always on a plane of 3 dimensions. Body, Mind, Spirit. And once you do something to one of the dimensions, you indirectly affect the others, even if its on a minuscule level. So If you wake up the moment you open your eyes in the morning, thats a subtle hint to consciousness that you are more ready for Waking Up (enlightenment). If you go back to sleep and keep weaving in and out of sleep, you finally get up, but your all groggy, foggy, and unclear. Thats how you operate and see the world that day! in most cases, everyday! How can i expect waking up on a spiritual/soul level if i cant even wake up my physical body properly?? What message am i sending? I have an intersting phenomen where i open my eyes at a ridiculously early hour, like between 5:30 and 6:30am, then i see how dark it is and im like nooo im gonna sleep some more. The moment i stay in bed is when the cycle unsues. I keep on waking up, then sleeping another 30 mintues, then wake up then again. Then once i finally realize i should get up, i spend about 10 minutes on my phone so the blue light wakes me up. I have this inner feeling, intuition i guess, that when i opne my eyes aroud 5:30 is when i was meant to get up. I should listen. 

    WAKING UP=Physical/Body--> Getting up right away WHEN YOU FIRST OPEN YOUR EYES, 

    WAKING UP=Mind/Emotional-->Increasing your consciousness, Being Aware, Observing instead of reacting

    WAKING UP=Spirit/Soul-->AWAKENING, ENLIGHTENMENT

     

    "if everything around you seems dark, look again, you may be the light" -Rumi

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    meditated  1 hour today, 30 min morning, 30 min evening. its started to make sense. The first few weeks of meditation, all i did was trust that it would get better. Most sessions were frustrating as i wandered off into who-knows-what land, not even sure if im focusing on the "sensations of the breath at the nose" properly. It seemed all so easy yet complex. Im so glad im sticking with it. Im slowly starting to get it, the flow on the breath. I am nowhere near strong focus on breath, but now i know that im doing the right thing. Im starting to get 30 second flows, 1 minutes flows, and on good days, 2 minute flows of no intruding thoughts, just on the breath, with some distraction with outside sounds. Also the after effect is very pleasant.  i get into this weird aura of observation, and thoughts become quiet. Even as i walk to and fro, its observement. It feels like im starting to feel the Force, like a Jedi in training. 

    Finished conversation with god II. Im reading Dune rn.

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    On 2/23/2020 at 1:49 PM, dimitri said:

    Finished reading "Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires". It's amazing book. It's as strong as "Conversations with God" book but focused more on Law of Attraction.

    If you don't feel like to read the whole book - just read the last exercise about emotional scale. I think it may take you like 15 minutes.
    I see the big value in this exercise, to higher your vibration, to get better feeling thought, to have what you want, to love.
    Of course it's much better if somebody will guide you through the exercise and help you to do it properly (ping @Nahm in this case :D). 

    i cant wait to read, esp if it as strong as conversations with god O.o im at a point where i have soo many books to read but so little time that i dont know where to start

    Im so happy for you and that your manifestingg, its crazy how awesome this all is once you realize holy shit this actually works!!!

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    Not me but an amazing doctor called Dr. Terry Wahls, healed her advanced multiple sclerosis with a change in diet. She was in a wheelchair for years and now walks, bikes, hikes daily :) Her book "Wahl's Protocal" is amazing. She has several research studies going through with her diet and it helped people with parkinsons, alzheimers, arthritis, ALS, and other autoimmune conditions

    my mom healed her asthma also with diet+ exercise but it came back when she stopped being strict with it. (no gluten, dairy, sugar. Only vegtables, moderate fruit, and meat, lots of seafood too)

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    things are going well. Slowly starting to see how "you create your reality" is literallly down to a t, how this all works. Its scary and amazing at the same time. Also books. Books are amazing. 

    I found a new teacher, and it insane, i have never resonated so much with anyone than with this teacher. It was like when i found actualized and how i felt about leo. The advice is so spot on, and just makes sense with the way i think and see. Of course i as always must watch out for the dogma/idolizing trap, like how i did with actualized in the beginning. I found one area where i disagree with, which is psychedelics. This teacher proposes strictly against the use of psychedelics and apparently apart from teaching, also spends time healing people from psychedelic trips gone wrong. But i still want to take them. I am looking forward to mushroom trip #2. 

    Few days ago i had a shift in consciousness. It lasted only about 6 hours. It was a direct result of that jesus practice i stated earlier, to stop judging people for looks, plus combined with new teachings from said teacher. 

    New contemplation:

    "Because with the shift away from material survival (with the elimination of the need to succeed mightily in order to acquire a modicum of security) there will be no other reason to achieve, to stand out, to become magnificent, save the experience of magnificence itself!" (CWG II)

    How would i think about future plans and endeavors if material things were not a priority anymore? To what would i strive for?????

     

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    https://www.inverse.com/mind-body/antidepressant-diet-44-foods-may-fight-depression?fbclid=IwAR22sda-RvLAb3KcmOiCX6rsh9Comf0zAA6oVnS3VNTlh6-43XuupSZ9gYs

    Notice that for animal products list pretty much the entire list is seafood and organ meat!! They are the ultimate superfoods. Why waste 50$ for a fancy schmancy exotic rainforest root powder or nootropic when you have muuch cheaper superfoods like this? Enjoy!

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    mayybee you put a subconscious pressure on yourself that you must orgasm? Like when you try to orgasm one way and its not working as quickly as it did before you start to internally freak out a bit and put pressure that you need to orgasm like you did last time, because that will just build frustration and ruin it even more and make it virtually impossible to orgasm, if that makes any sense haha. I think it would be good during next few sex sessions to forget about the need/pressure to orgasm and just have fun for the sake of pleasure. I really hope it helps. Also the sexual repression as adolescent is huuugee issue (i was too). I think psychedelics will help here a lot. 

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    Last week the Guardian made an article about "real jedis" of today, where they interviewed people who identify as jedis. (yes the ones from star wars). One of them is a meditation/buddhist teacher called Jay H Templey and she has a youtube channel based on raising your consciousness and its themed around the fictional jedi figure. In case theres any star wars fans here you might like her:

    https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCywlSnenSp4WsynhfQoH0uQ/videos

    This is the link to the guardian article:

    https://www.theguardian.com/world/2020/feb/11/you-have-to-face-the-darkness-within-you-meet-the-real-life-jedi-knights