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  2. Posted

    14 hours ago, Gesundheit2 said:

    Why would you credit the increase to them, though? You could've achieved the same results or even better if you spent the same amount of time on the same practices sober. How would you know that they're the producer of the results?

    Because I also do the sober practices. Self inquiry, meditation, and A LOT of self-therapy/introspection, and I can recognize the amount of progress these one give me, compared to the psychedelic progress.

    Psychedelics enhance consciousness, intelligence and sensitivity. All these qualities are fundamental to evolve. Of course sober practices are key, you need to keep using them. I'm just saying that normal practices are the fundamentals, but psychedelics are the boosters.

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    3 hours ago, Gesundheit2 said:

    You said many times that psychedelics do not increase baseline levels of consciousness.

    But they do, if you use them to do self inquiry and to deeply connect to what the Self is. I have gained important new levels of baseline consciousness with some specific trips, because I spent a lot of time contemplating and inquiring during the trip.

  4. Posted

    2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    It's how you survive as yourself. You (the ego) is a bundle of thoughts.

    Could you release an updated episode on what is the ego? Your only episode about it is very old. It would be really interesting to hear an explanation of the separate self from your new state of consciousness. The mechanics of how God creates an identity and preserves it. 

  8. Posted

    9 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    That requires awakening to grasp.

    The bottom line is that since reality is One, there is nothing to stop it from being infinity, so it becomes Infinity.

    Reality cannot be anything other than Infinity. Infinity is the only stable configuration, in the same way that an object sits squarely in empty space without falling up or down because it is "pulled" equally in all directions. Infinity is the only thing that can create itself, which is why it exists.

    I have a video called Why Is There Something Rather Than Nothing? which explains all this.

    Thanks, I might have missed the video :)

    I guess I'll need deep awakening to feel the answer in direct experience. 

  9. Posted

    @Leo Gura I truly need to ask you this. I have watched most of your metaphysical videos, but I didn't see this specific answer.

    I have been a seeker of the Self for more than three years and I definitely know now that God exists and it is living through me, even though I'm quite asleep now. But I can't stop noticing that my bubble of reality is mysterious and mind-made, almost every day. 

     

    I need to know. Why does God exist? It exists, I know. But WHY?!? 

    I don't understand and this question is making me insane. Why is all of this happening and why does the Self exist? My Self. Why my Self? Why not another one's divine Self? Why am I the one who is being lived by God? I don't understand, this is madness! 

    I thought I was just a random human. I am not a random human. 

    I know you are not a separate person, but this person right here is not able to get an answer. Can you please explain why God? Why a God? Why this God? 

    Why not just mindless nothing? I thought it was normal for everything to exist. Now not anymore. It makes no sense to exist. I think that the road to awakening is a road to madness maybe. 

     

    Sorry for the deliriant text. My question is actually quite lucid, after weeks of deep observation. 

     

  10. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    Yes, it's a valid substance for awakening. I've had a very powerful oneness awakening with 250 ug of LSD.

    Recently I'm just using whole leaves of Salvia (not the extracts). The awakenings I got from it are really pleasant and warm, playful. Reality also melts/warps a little bit but I'm fully conscious of how my eternal Mind is doing it. Really amazing awakenings with that, but you have to master this plant to reach it. It's a chaotic psychedelic.

    I don't have experiences with DMT, but the effects I get nowadays from plain leaves are very similar to classic DMT reports. Very very close.

  12. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    4 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    God-realization is not a "therapy" of any kind and it is not an evolution or anything of the sort. All of that is dream stuff and God-realization cuts through all that BS. It's not a process either.

    I agree but I'm pretty damn sure that god realization makes you so sharply aware of your human shadows and neurosis that you will become quite efficient in healing them (with classic introspection).

    I can attest that my spiritual seeking has given me huge awareness of my psychological damage and how to heal it. My therapist is shocked at how fast I am healing and how fast I can become aware of inner damage. This would not have been possible without consciousness work. 
    Even though awakening is NOT healing the ego per se.

  13. Posted

    1 minute ago, Benton said:

    I got stuck in a shape?

    Extracts xD

    I've never become an object/shape. But I've had the entire reality being replaced by a 2D artistic fractal. It was terrifying but beautiful too xD With 20x extract. I've also seen reality become a huge colorful spiral made of marble; astonishing beautiful but made my body sweat like hell.

     

    Use plain leaf and these thing will not happen :)

  14. Posted

    4 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    If you got a glimpse of pure Infinity, you would be so horrified you'd call it death. It's a lot like death, except you are conscious forever of endless nothingness. I've seen it. It's the most terrifying thing you could imagine. But also, it's LOVE.

    It's the last thing you could possibly want.

    Even though I'm way way behind your awakenings, I know what you mean by "terrifying". Glimpses of awakening can be utterly shocking, especially glimpses of infinity (I've had a full week of suicidal depression after a glimpse).

    But I notice that I'm also deeply attracted to it, I can't stop seeking the Self. It's somehow addictive and deadly at the same time.

    Isn't it normal that we crave infinity/awakening while at the same time fear it? I find it completely normal since we are finite egos and we always crave for perfection/eternity. Isn't it so?

  15. Posted

    2 hours ago, Benton said:

    I’m excited to hear your experience!!! 
    I have to say I am not a fan of salvia. It’s confusing and dysphoric in my experience. And I never really got any insight from it.

    It can give you a lot of insights. Both psychological (shadows and traumas) and spiritual (the Self, Mind, identification etc). But you have to use it at a decently low dose. The best way is plain leaf.

    In my case it's also very spontaneous and character-freeing; it helps me lose my neurosis and loosen up the body.

  18. Posted

    5 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    Have you tried chewing them or making a tea out of them? That's how salvia leaves are traditional used. The natives do not smoke it.

    It should give you a longer and milder trip. Just chew/brew more leaves.

    I haven't tried it but sounds interesting.

    Also, I don't see why you can't achieve the same effect with extract. Just smoke less of it. It's the same active ingredient.

    It's hard for me to justify saliva when DMT is so much clearer and more effective for me. I guess if you got nothing better then use it. But DMT, 5-MeO, or MALT is where the real insight is at.

    Yes, I have tried the chewing first, but it's not that powerful. Also it tastes like bad medicine, really bad xD

    I have found that smoking them is very powerful. In my case... no, the active ingredient alone is not the same, it's too much psychedelic CHAOS.

    Extracts are basically the metaphysical Mind following whatever your human mind was thinking as a pattern/idea/fear/image etc and enhancing it to a delirious degree.... It's completely insane and completely useless for awakening :D I have seen my room liquify and melt, or my entire reality being replaced by an infinite green fractal of peacock feathers. Definitely beautiful, accompanied by ego death, but it's still useless for awakening.

    Plain leaves have something inside them that makes them compatible with your NORMAL REALITY, and at the same time profound deconstruction of Mind-created stories (earth, human life, separation from forms etc). I have tried lowering the extract dosage but it's not working. I am pretty sure that normal leaves do the trick :) 

     

    Yes, I have LSD, 2C-B and some 4-sub tryptamines (these are the most powerful). But Salvia is really clean in terms of body load (zero) and tolerance (zero tolerance too, like DMT). It's also the most powerful natural psychedelic together with DMT :) Salvinorin can completely and utterly destroy all of reality with 1 mg of pure chemical. It's not a starter psychedelic at all. 

    In this phase of my path I really really like her :) that's the main reason I'm using her. It's really powerful yet slightly psychotic. The awakenings are somehow surreal, and sometimes "funny" in a jokerish manner. There's a huge RECONTEXTUALIZATION of normal reality, like it's a complete lucid mad dream.

  19. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    I want to be honest with you, I was really really curious about trying out Salvia. Since I have around 30 psychedelic trips on my back, a lot of hours of self inquiry, meditation, and pranayama/shamanic breathing (including some interesting altered states).

     

    Now, the real treasure here is the ACTUAL Salvia Divinorum, the dried original leaves. Plain leaves have a different vibe and a purer energy, a lot more spiritual and introspective than the extracts.

     

    EXTRACTS:

    I've tried 20x and 5x. I can tell you that 20x is pure psychedelic chaos, it's really hard to get insights or healing from it. Almost impossible, it's too destructive.

    5x is somehow a manageable psychedelic, but it's still to chaotic for implementing serious healing and nondual work. But it's possibile to do it with this one, if you really really do your best.

    I don't like extracts. Because it's NOT REAL SALVIA. Salvia Divinorum is a sacred mazatec plant, The plant is a sacred psychedelic for a reason: it gives you amazing psychological and spiritual insights. I can confirm to you that it is true. But the mazatecs are talking about the raw leaves, not the industrial adulterated extracts.

     

    PLAIN LEAVES:

    Generally for me 1 1/2 or 2 full leaves, smoked in a bong, are more than enough to get INCREDIBLE INSIGHTS and lose a huge chunk of my ego.

    The amazing benefit of the actual leaves is that you keep your consciousness in NORMAL REALITY. There is no blast off. Of course you can blast off, but you need to smoke a lot of leaf material, and IT IS NOT NECESSARY, because the profound nondual states come at lower dosages than a blast off.

     

    On just 2 plain leaves, smoked separated by 10 minutes, I have deeply felt how I am all of my bubble of consciousness, I have seen how my mind is crafting all my personal story, how I have no definite identity, and how I am keeping up this human life just because I keep on believing in it.

    I'm not talking about neo-advaita insights. I mean that I am just all of the bubble of existence, it's just that I have no specific form. I am the only Conscious Being, I am believing in time, so there's time, I am believing in space, so there's space. I have yet to realize the "Godhead", but I already clearly felt how I am the only one Self in this universe, and I am believing in a personal story, and separating myself from my other forms (all forms except this body/mind).

    I have had a huge mindfuck moment where I have realized how I am SELECTING to focus on this body and mind instead of focusing on ALL FORMS. My life is happening only because I am unconsciously FOCUSED on this "body" and thus trying to make it live, work, survive etc.... It's an incredible mindfuck, which has purified my ego from a lot of negativity and neurosis. But it lasts around 10 mins max.

     

    I am still exploring these leaves, but I can assure you that if you try them (forget the extracts please) you will gain so much knowledge about the Self and Mind. All of this human story is just Mind. YOUR MIND is believing in the story. Believing in it is foundational to keep it going.

     

    I will keep exploring Salvia leaves, there is no crazy blast off in them :) no psychosis, no shocks. They are safe, and very powerful too.

    I have temporarily dropped other psychs because this one is so powerful.

    Thanks for reading. Maybe @Leo Gura will reconsider Salvia, for the natural leaves :)

  20. Posted

    11 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Overly flowery love for people is usually paper thin and doesn't hold under survival pressures. As soon as you do the wrong thing those flowery lovey-dovey people get all pissy.

    I'll admit that this is my issue. I'm quite flowery with people but I'm also quite careful with whom I hang out or tolerate. But I believe that it is possible to become more stable in loving people.

  22. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    11 minutes ago, Judy2 said:

    @billiesimon But there is no real perceiver (no separate entity).

    Perception is a story within the dream. God is. God doesn't need or have perception. If anything, you could say that perception is a story imagined by God: "There are human beings, they have eyes and ears, they can see and hear,... There is a real biological process where external information is perceived by sensory organs, processed by the brain, which generates consciousness....bla bla"

    I'm using a detailed terminology to help into the inquiry. 

    Perceptions are on the human level. I was explaining how your perceptions are God, as well as the human observer. 

    God has no perceptions. God expresses its formlessness into form. Like gold crafted into multiple forms. It's still gold (vedanta metaphor). 

    So, God (oneness) is both subject (duality) and object (duality). 

    Subject and object are a byproduct of God's unconsciousness in the dream.

    We are talking exactly because God is not really aware of the oneness now. 

    Edit: I would add that these conversations are creepy AF, since it's just The Self trying to do self inquiry unto itself. Notice it. It's really eerie and crazy. 

  23. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    18 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    All of experience is YOU.

    Leo explained it well here. 

    He means that your entire experience is god. God is your true identity. 

    But the ego mind creates a partition inside experience. 

    "I am this body and personality" 

    This is the unconscious AUTOMATIC identification. 

    God is all of the present experience. God is also the awareness. And the things you can be aware of. 

    God is SUBJECT AND OBJECT. The ego is God too. Your truest consciousness is not the human consciousness, it is God's consciousness, aka all of perceptions. 

    AND the perceptor too. 

  24. Posted

    10 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    He has a pretty high level of consciousness. But it took him some 20 years to reach it and most of you will never reach what he reached, not to mention anything higher that may be possible.

    Rupert seems definitely very conscious, but he does not seem to be in some kind of god realization state.

    But I might be ignorant about it and have biases, I'm still working on my awakening.

    Eckhart Tolle seems more selfless judging from his reactions towards people and circumstances. But again, might be my projections.

  25. Posted

    Hey, first of all: DON'T USE SALVIA if you are not a truly experienced psychonaut. DON'T!

     

    I have more than 20 classic trips with normal psychedelics, and I had the occasion to try salvia.

    NOTE: my extract is 5x. It means that it's the lightest extract. DON'T go around trying out high extracts or you're getting into trouble!

    @Leo Gura If you could read, I'd appreciate :)

     

    Salvia Divinorum 5x trip report:

    I've had 5 hits, all well distanced from each other, 3 minutes between each hit.

    The dosage was very light, around 4 - 8 mg for every hit, which is basically BELOW threshold dose for a 5x extract. So I was being really cautious and alert.

    INTENTION: I set the intention before using it, and asked Salvia to give me an interesting spiritual experience and high vibrations. Note that I also have some experience of ego deaths and nondual awareness with classic psychs.

     

    With the first hits I felt just the need to laugh and to be happier. No visual effects and zero salvia-effects.
    My neurosis and physical tensions went almost all away. Very nice peaceful and positive vibes. AGAIN don't expect it for yourself, I'm very sensitive to emotions and I don't get the classic effects everybody gets from psychedelics.

     

    In the last hits I finally felt something interesting.
    Again no visuals, no weird perceptions, no time distortion.

    But I felt a subtle but important sense of KNOWING that reality is completely flexible, like made of clay. Like God could craft reality really easily at any moment like a huge mass of clay. I was quite aware of this. But it was subtle, it was not a nondual consciousness. I felt human but inside a very malleable bubble of perception. My body also felt incredibly malleable like clay.

    There was also a deep sense of mystery and awe, like reality was made of a RARE AND PRECIOUS CRYSTAL.

    I remember staring at the floor and then at my hands marveling at how INCREDIBILY FRAGILE AND BEAUTIFUL THEY WERE.
    Yeah, fragile and beautiful, like a precious pure white crystal.

    Amazing emotion. Really amazing. It's the emotion of DEEP RESPECT AND AWE for the Forms.

     

    Nice. I'm gonna try it again in the future.